Darlas, behold.

Hey there! I’m taking a deep breath after an über tiring math exercises that I did from half past 8 AM. Pretty exhausted (who doesn’t?).

At first, I was about to watch another episode of Arrow, but I don’t think the wi-fi is pretty friendly this afternoon. I downloaded 4 albums this morning, and probably it brought ‘him’ down, and now speedy is being slow, as always. (The hell I’m talking about.) This math problems sure brought my brain to zero percent.

Talking about albums, let’s see. I downloaded Kings of Convenience, John Mayer, Beyoncé, Daft Punk, Michael Bublé, Fun., and Great Gatsby OST (that’s quite a lot), and my ‘recently added’ playlist ended up to 185 songs, 1.46 GB. Wasting macbook’s storage FTW. Well, I did searched for the high quality ones, no wonder I reached that much of capacity. The truth is, I didn’t regret a thing. My macbook is pretty much a bit ‘empty’ compared to others.

I was thinking, instead of blabbering, I can write some stuffs like 5 favorite songs of the week. That’s productive enough. I called it ‘#nowplaying’.

Well, here it is.

That’s it for now. Toodles!

xx

Hey there :)

I was wondering whether I can make it or not. You see, I was downloading many albums since last night and somehow I managed to fail on encrypting the password of one of the albums, Random Access Memories by Daft Punk. (Well, I know that they fought against album leak, but I’m dying to hear their song right from my iPod) so I decided to search for another link to download, and finally I found the .rar file on 4shared (and there were three files at once, and I was almost dead searching for the link, patience is the key.) At least now I can download it directly, phew.

Enough computer talk. Hey there, whatcha doin? It’s 8.24 AM here, and I am doing nothing but surfing the internet. While I’m waiting for the download to finish, probably I’ll buffer for ep 17 of Arrow series, woohoo! My boyfriend beats me again on watching this show. He finished season one already, hmmh. Guess I’ll have to catch up.

Anyway, if you already seen the picture post below, please help me on voting my picture. The prize is going to be awesome by the way, a brand new Canon 60D and also a photography workshop :’) I am pretty sure, with all of the efforts, I hope I can win. Amen. Staying positive is good, you know.

Oh right, this friday, The Great Gatsby premieres in my country, woot! My all time favorite book is now in cinemas. I always adore the way F. Scott Fitzgerald amaze his readers through words. Even though some people may found it hard to understand the whole story since his works consists of semi-old (kind of old, but still I found it pretty much easy to comprehend) english structured words, I enjoy the book very much. I heard that the movie pretty much sums up the book thoroughly, and I hope there will be no alternate version of the storyline. Fancy living ftw.

Time flies when you’re having fun (especially when you’re writing a quick post). Well, it’s already half past eight, and I have to study soon. This university thing eat my entire life (I guess), but I know that it’s very important, so I have to work hard on this. Thank you for reading my morning blabbers anyway. I hope I can continue writing things here, and talk to you soon. Bye!

xx

Hey guys! Help me vote on EOS Young Photographer Awards by going to this site : bit.ly/votemypicture and click the ♥ button to vote :) I hope I can win this thing.

P.S. The site can only be opened via computer, so make sure you guys vote for my pic everyday :) Most votes win. Thank you so much! :*

xx

SIGMA 2013 softball match!

Created by using Photoshop CS6.

Hey there! Geez I’m coughing (this doesn’t happen everyday). The weird thing that happen today is that I don’t see any sun rays shining down. I think the weather is pretty gloomy today (the good thing is, I won’t get any sunburn, thank God). Let’s just hope that it won’t rain today. Oh yeah, I’m going to school today, woohoo! I’m gonna watch my guy play softball in finals and finally I can actually go outside of the house. (Yeah, I’ve been home alone for days, sometimes, and it’s killing me.)

To be honest, I’m sick of studying for exams. (don’t try this at home) In fact, going to school today is my gateway to escape from this boredom. I was dying to watch him play, but since mom is being so harsh on me lately, well you can conclude it by yourself.

The time shows 7.04 AM and since I am so lazy on doing things in the morning, I tend to sit on the chair, surfing things on my macbook, while waiting for the download to finish. My car-mate will pick me up around 8, so I probably should take a bath around 7.30. That’s all for my to do list.

Speaking of surfing the macbook, last night I decided to refresh my online store. Well here’s a quick announcement.

For those of you who is currently reading this, if you need any help or any services on graphic designing, cards design, shirt design, photo editing, and any design that you want, feel free to check out my website by clicking this link. Fantaisie Designs has 5 available requests in 2 weeks time, so if you need anything, just visit the website or mention us on twitter @FantaisieDesign :D Spread the news people! Price starts from $1!

Anyway, my wi-fi is being pretty much friendly today. I was currently downloading an album, and the internet speed is quite fast in the morning (another thing that doesn’t happen everyday). Something weird is going on, I can sense it. Hope there won’t be anything bad happening around.

Moving on to another topic. Ever since I’m dating with him, my taste of music changed, a lot. Not only music. I think the appropriate word would be : shifting back to the way I used to be. I was a girl that used to love high-class music (I don’t know about you, but this is what I usually called Jazz. It is high-class to be honest) and he’s bringing back the memories of my childhood. Realizing the fact that we both have almost-everything in common, as if we’re actually twins from another mother, but the reality is we’re a loving couple (ssssh), I feel a lot more comfortable. I can be myself whenever I’m around him, which is good, because when you change yourself to that someone, it means that he or she doesn’t love you for who you really are. #lifelesson. (except if you change into a good person, it’s definitely a good thing for you.) And until now, I am grateful for everything. (oh, last but not least, I began to like Stitch a lot. Hahaha, I used to like it, but not that fanatic. But now, I have no idea how it happened. Still, it is cute.)

Well, it’s 7.19 now, and I should probably take a nice shower and getting ready. The match  will start on 10 AM and I can’t wait any longer, woot! Guess I’ll see you around then. Ciao!

xx

Hey there! Glad to be back here :) Well, at least it’s my kind of way out of this boredom-ness that I’ve been living in since…. I don’t know when. I wish I could go to school today and watch my boy pitchin’ on semifinals. Well, best of luck for him! ♥ Anyway, I’ve been watching this show since yesterday, it’s called Arrow (if you guys know it). It is a TV series that I’ve been dying to watch since last year, but ever since my cable TV decided to block the channel that airs the show, I was kind of pissed. So I decided to stream it online, and turns out that I’m kind of addicted with it lately. Well, my boyfriend told me that he watched it until episode 13, and I asked him where to stream it. And the site that he streamed on was kind of error when I accessed it, so I figured a way to solve the problem. Here it is if you’re excited to watch, just click this link. (Screw the ads by the way, but it has a ‘lights off’ feature, which is kind of comfy).

I was thinking about an activity that can fill this entire boring week/days/holiday/whatever it is called as. I’m thinking about creating new cards for my online store, but when it comes to cards, it’s only made for special occasions and stuff, so I was also thinking about another product that comes in mind, but I haven’t found it yet. The thing is, I wanted to have a some sort of income, but not from my parents. I want to be trained for my future, to be able to fulfill your needs by your own hard work. I experienced it once, and it felt good. Awesome, to be precise. It’s like you’re having this satisfactory feeling when you accomplished something big. But still, I’m having this confusion lately.

Well, what else? I was also dealing with this university application stuffs, and still I have no idea where to register next. I applied Indonesian University talent scouting program (and I’m so excited to hear the results on May 28th, wish me luck!), and also registered to Swiss German University, but I kind of doubting on the upcoming application for SBMPTN (it’s for national universities application, and it’s a written test, taken for 2 days). I don’t know why, but I’m kind of lazy on dealing with the materials that I have already studied for 3 years. I still remember most of it, but it won’t be a success if you don’t re-check it again, and try to solve the problems, since it’s way harder than the national exam. Here comes the stresses. I’m not stressed, but I am worried. Hope I’ll find my way out of it.

Guess I’m going to take a nice shower (god I’m so lazy), and continue watching marathons of Arrow episodes. Woohoo!

Thanks for reading by the way. Love you guys.

xx

Hey there. I’ve been dealing with this sleepy feeling since 7 PM, but I decided to force myself to stay awake for a little while.

It’s been 5 days since the last time I saw him. I kept chatting but still, you know that feeling when you miss someone so badly and you keep wanting to see him/her, but some circumstances occur and you’re unable to do it. It feels…….. (fill in the blanks, I bet you know the answer).

God this bloodshot eyes are killing me.

So yeah, what I’ve been doing these days were chillin’ in the house, studying (again), watching tv, chatting, sleeping, eating, habitual things that I often do, every single day. Nothing more.

And I just wanted to say that I am really excited to meet him in a few days, which is awesome, and watch him on finals, amen! Yes, he plays softball, and I hope he and his team can bring themselves to victory, hell yes.

I think I really need some coffee. God what’s wrong with me.

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Sorry about that, it was my topsy turvy mind.

Hey there! How are you? I hope you’re doing fine. How’s life? Mine is pretty much ordinary, but fun at the same time. Well, seeing him played softball sure amazed me, a lot. Probably people found it ordinary, but for me, he got some sort of charm when he do things, as if a sparkle of sunlight shine on him (you know what I mean, right? well if you don’t, just imagine a celebrity/handsome guy/beautiful girl/whoever that is that you like the most walking towards you and amazed you at the same time). It was, wow.

Well, taking some day off after national exam changed me a lot. Yeah, I got a lot lazier than ever. My tendency to study for the upcoming university exam has reached the zero level. Great, just great. The fact is, I have to study hard, since I realized that this test is not just a test. It’s the path to the future *heavenly music plays*. Well, no matter how hard it will be, I have to swallow the pain (not literally of course). It’s for my own good, for sure.

Besides that, I sort of turned a bit poetic these days. I don’t know why. Probably because I got lovedrunk or something. I don’t know if you guys think it’s not normal, but for me, it’s pretty much normal. Well, to be honest, that’s what I do when I love someone. Showing my true feelings is what I do best *wink*. Not too cheesy, and not less. Simple, but extraordinary. That’s it.

Well, the time shows 9.05 PM, and I think I have to go upstairs since my eyes are getting a lot worse compared to 30 minutes ago. I stopped by just to say hi, and now it’s time to get some sleep. See you guys around, and thanks for reading the blabbering part above hahaha.

xx

Today felt as if nothing happened, which means, today felt ordinary, since I have to stay at home. But then, small things just happened and somehow it makes me happier.

Forget about what I just said. The thing is, even though it felt so ordinary, I felt happy today.

Hey there! It’s approximately 3 days to national exam and I felt excited, anxious, and a bit scared at the same time. But then, the overwhelming excitement probably erased my fears and made my mind clear enough that I will be able to do it, as good as I can, as proud as I can be, as sure as I am supposed to. A year of exercising and stressing out felt quite exhausting, but I realized that this is an important thing in my life. It is a life-taking action that decides what my future will be like, and whether I like it or not, I have to face it. I have to be sure that I am one hundred percent ready for this. Game on.

Regardless the thoughts above, I decided to update myself a bit on Paramore’s new album. I really love ‘Still Into You’ and until now, I haven’t successfully download the song and the music video, since that crappy wi-fi ruined my days. God I shall be more patient from now on. It doesn’t matter since I still have plenty of time to do it in a few days forward. About the song, well, I personally thought that it kind of shifted to a pop-rock-ish, but I still like it. It still connects with my ear, so it’s not a problem at all. Alt rock is one of my favorite genre besides jazz anyway. The video was kind of unexpected. I didn’t expect anything like that from Paramore, and Hayley is gorgeous, as always.

Hmm besides that, I don’t know what else should I talk about. I’m missing my handsome fellow for sure, and I wish I can fast forward time to thursday afternoon (but I know that it’s so impossible). So, I think that’s it for now. Catch you guys later!

xx

Hey there.

Today was the last day for me to wear this high school uniform before the national examinations begin. God, how time flew so fast (too fast I guess). 6 years of living in this school means the world to me. Even though I’m a newbie, I enjoyed every single moment that I spent here. Meeting new friends, hangin’ out, studying, having fun, sharing thoughts, dealing with dramas and problems, getting interested on a guy, being someone’s girlfriend, getting great marks, interested in new genre of music, god I couldn’t mention it one by one. The point is, I love you guys, and I’m surely gonna miss you all. *I’m crying happy tears and I can’t hold it any longer hahaha*

High school was really fun, and I shall send all my love to everyone out there who’s reading this, and I wanna say thank you for being a great friend to me. It’s really nice to have you around (even though we didn’t talk much, perhaps?), and thank you for making my life memorable. I spent some of my tears this afternoon as I reminisced the days when I was still on 7th grade, being an innocent-ish girl who’s immature enough to enter the life and times of high school, and now, I’m almost-17-years-old-but-almost-graduating-high-school girl who developed well and hopefully a kind friend for you all. I hope all of my friends will enter their designated universities and will have some fun out there. Please don’t hesitate to contact me once in a while, I’ll be happy to answer! (God I was feeling excited for stepping to another level, but I couldn’t leave you guys just yet. Probably I was enjoying too much, huh?)

So, that’s it. See you guys around, and I’m wishing the best of luck for our national exam. Hopefully we’ll reach great scores in our reports. May God made our work easier, and let us succeed this year. We already spent our time working hard to reach the goal, and I’m sure we can pass this. Amen!

Love you always, Avenue.

xx

I woke up from bed, as I held back the bitter tears from my dreams.

I know it wasn’t a reality, it was only a dream.

It’s just a dream.

But still, I still felt that presence, that last touch.

It was a sunny afternoon, as we held our hands together, forever and after.

We promised to ourselves that we could share our dreams together.

As we paced down to the hall, putting our fingers to one another, filling the empty spaces between yours and mine, we danced into the tune.

I closed my eyes, as I felt the harmony filled the cold air.

I whispered the sweetest poetry, the peaceful lullaby that you never heard before.

As a smile curved on you, you reached my hands, pulling me out of the crowd.

Not a single word came from my mouth. I kept wondering what’s going on.

The night turned into a sorrow.

Working on your way to the nearest room, your feet couldn’t handle the weight of your body anymore.

Suddenly, you couldn’t even move. As you lost your balance, you tried to hid your fears. You were afraid that I’ll found out.

I screamed.

Help!

But no one listened.

You kept saying, “you have shown me everything, darling. You don’t need to do anything. Just please, stay with me.”

“How am I supposed to stay when you’re going to leave me? Please, let me help…”

You smiled, as if nothing happened.

I tried to do a CPR, and you were there, laying down, helpless.

In 20 seconds, you closed your eyes, leaving me with tears.

This was my dream.

And I was drowned in tears on Monday evening.

Hey there! I miss my tumblr so much.

It’s been a while since the last time I wrote something here. Well yeah, I’ve changed my url of tumblr, but it doesn’t mean that I also change everything here. Still, I’m going to share my thoughts in this tiny little blog I had for like almost 3 years old, or 4 (I completely forgot).

Forget about everything. Pretend as if I haven’t wrote something yet.

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Hello.

I am Tsabita and I am completely happy right now.

Things have changed ever since february. I started to fell for a tall yet handsome guy that unexpectedly surprised me, for real. I never thought that I really found someone as kind as him. For 2 years, I kept thinking. Should I let go, or should I stay. Uncertainty blurred my mind, a lot.

At first, I wasn’t even sure about moving on. It was pretty hard, to be honest. Well, most people do found it hard as well. It wasn’t an easy process, at all. I kept hiding tears and pretending that I am perfectly fine about everything, but the fact is, I wasn’t. There was a time when someone came towards me and trying to cheer me up. I’m really glad that I have another person besides my friends who tried to make me happy. Being thankful to everyone, and to God, was the thing that I couldn’t forget the most, until now.

The thing that roamed in my head was my true feelings. I didn’t love him just because I wanted to run away from my past, and I didn’t let myself be with him just to vent my past feelings. That didn’t happen. He, he’s different. He has many similarities with me, and it just happened. It was like as if me and him were twins from another mother. A fun friend, lovable smile, sweet mannered-guy. I do love him, always, and now I’m afraid of losing him.

All that I could think about is how to make it lasts forever.

xx

Hey there. I’m back again, after years and years I haven’t write anything here. I bet you guys missed me, huh? (nah, I’m just being narcissistic for awhile). Anyway, I have recently wrote another fanfic about that amazing man, Changmin. Yeah, I bet you guys bored about me talking continuously about him, right? Right. Then I won’t talk about him this time.

But then, I want to tell something about him for a minute.

The fanfic that I wrote, called ‘How Are You’, expressed my overwhelmed feelings so far. I don’t know, it’s just, I’ve been stressing out about things lately, so I decided to pour out my worries towards those stuffs onto a piece of ‘virtual’ paper called Microsoft Word and posted it on Asian Fanfics (if you want to search it, just search ‘evergreenchangmin’. It’s my username on that website). I love him so much and I couldn’t stop thinking about him 24/7. Yeah, this fangirling feeling filled my heart and mind, a lot. I was actually developing my english by writing too, anyway.

Zip it. Done.

Kay then. I really want to share many things about me right now (right, it’s my blog, duh). I was kind of worried about this so called event which people normally would called it ‘prom’. I have no idea with whom will I go on that day. Well, I was being asked and also asked certain people to go with me, but it seemed that I’ll ended up going solo. I dunno, the one who asked me first is one of my close friends, while my heart said that I wanna go with someone else that I shouldn’t go with. Yeah, my ex. Nah, I hate it when I called him ex. Let’s just call him as my ‘ultimate best friend in the world’. I managed to get over him like a week ago, after 2 years of enduring it. I don’t know, I wanted him to be happy, that’s it. But if he’s not happy around me, then why should I endure my feelings? That’s what I’m thinking about. At least I’m glad that he’s still keeping in touch with me. I’m glad that he won’t lose me as my best friend. I love him, as friend, and I always will. He was the one who already made me happy for a year, plus a month, plus 11 days (wow I still remember it perfectly). I’m completely fine right now, seriously. In fact, I anchored my sail to mr. shim changmin, and of course, in my dreams.

Besides that, I have a paper presentation to look forward to. Well, I wasn’t looking forward that much actually, but I just want it to end already, since I’m sick with stuffs waiting for its deadline to come. Assignments never get old. Right.

Anyway, I really should write the third chapter for the fanfic. It’s really fun to have something to work on, especially the ones who I really love about. I’m glad to be a true cassiopeia and wrote fanfics about them. Oh yeah, I absolutely love JaeJoong’s album so bad. ‘Mine’ was pretty rad and fun, I didn’t know that he could actually sang that kind of genre. He rocked so much, and I love him too! I completely support JYJ as well, even though I didn’t really like their songs. Probably because their genre is quite different than TVXQ’s.

I think that’s it for now, I really should be going. Maybe I’ll continue with my fanfic on the road. I’m going to take my dress fabric to the nearest tailor and designed it for the upcoming prom. Well, if there’s no prom, I’ll have it for myself. Thanks for reading guise, and have a nice sunday!

Hey there.

Yes, it’s 4 days left to the first day of second semester. It’s nice, but disturbing at the same time. I’m excited to meet my friends, and share lots of stuffs that I had in holidays, but to be honest, I’m not sure whether I’m ready yet to start this fight, you know, fighting for the national exam this April.

Time flew to fast I guess, and I thought I just moved in to my high school yesterday. I can barely feel the days gone by, and moments passed one by one. The world is revolving, I know, and years are changing, as we grown into adults and start living our own lives. I have to prepare myself to make sure that I’m ready. I’m sure I am.

This new year energy gives me a lot of hopes and dreams ready to be fulfilled. I already set my goals up high, and I really, really have to study harder in order to be accepted in KAIST (amen). I bet it’ll be fun there, since I’ll experience a new atmosphere, and meet new friends from other countries. I’ll make sure that I’ll learn korean language deeper :)

Aside from all the things above, I’m totally irritated with this.

Yes, I’m trying to download TVXQ’s beatles code show (comes with engsub here). Anyway, if you want to download it click on this link.

Oh and one more thing (still related to fangirling stuff), I created a new tumblr just to dedicate my one and only prince charming favorite guy in the world, max changmin. Well, I decided to name my tumblr ‘changminevergreen’, since evergreen is one of TVXQ’s song that was created by him. The lyrics are deep as well, so yeah that’s why. Well, for those of you who haven’t follow, please follow here. Oh yeah, I created the theme by myself, which is awesome (proud of myself actually). Not really myself, but I modified one of haffalump’s theme. I love the layout so much.

This holiday is getting better, I hope, even though the days are passing too fast. Einstein’s relativity theory, pssh. That’s what my physics tutor said. I created new friends as well, which was pretty exciting, because I didn’t know that she’s older than me. Still, the fact that she talks as if she’s the same age as me makes it a lot more interesting. It feels like there’s no age gap between us, it’s not bothering at all anyway. I’m happy that I become more socialized these days.

Talking about present time, my iPad hasn’t filled with many things yet. I’m still confused about the apps that I should put there. Anyway, I think that’s it for now. I shall continue making gifs for my new tumblr account (I’m really getting addicted on making one), or probably edit some photos. Have a nice holiday guise, and I hope this year will be a great year for all of us.

Oh yeah, any suggestions for the apps?

Hey guys. Since today’s the last day of 2012, I would like to share my resolutions here. But before I go to that point, I’m really glad that 2012 is almost over, and I did had lots of unforgettable memories and dreams.

2012 seemed fun, happy, bitter, hurtful, memorable, and cheerful at the same time. Lots of ups and downs lately, but I managed to create a perfect year (well, almost) compared to years before, when I was 15 and younger. I don’t know, I became a lot more mature in some ways, and I could control my emotions when it comes to something that strikes your heart, just like a lightning on rainy days, where arrows seem to hit your body from every directions. I became stronger, and also happier than I used to be. I’ve been through amazing moments with my family, friends, best friends, and everyone that I’ve been contacting with. I met new friends, shared my favorite stuffs, including fangirling on someone, mr. shim changmin, being a cassiopeia since october (and I’m proud of it), got great marks on my reports, and ended up having an iPad as a present from my parents (I’m thankful for that), lots of things that I couldn’t write, since there were too many wonderful experience for these 365 days.

Of course everyone would like to express their hopes and resolutions for the upcoming year, 2013. I really, really hope that it will be a wonderful year for me and everyone else that live in this beautiful earth. I hope I will graduate from high school with satisfying reports, and accepted in KAIST. Amen. I hope I’ll succeed on my TOEFL exam next January, finishing my paper presentation, and also fighting for national examination on early April. I’ll try my best for making my parents proud of their one and only daughter, and I will also try my best to improve myself in many aspects. Starting from reducing my urge to procrastinate, reducing unimportant stuffs that can be done later, increasing my ability on learning korean language (since it’ll be useful when I’m accepted to the university), increasing my knowledge on english vocabs, and also try to not to be stressful on hard times. I believe I can do those things, I’m sure I will get used to it.

This new year’s eve seemed okay, nothing’s wrong with it. It’s just at some point I reminisced my mother’s accident on January 1st, 2011. That fireworks accident sure was terrifying enough, it made me scared as hell. I have no idea how to overcome my fear towards it. Never mind, it’s quite dangerous anyway. Me and my family planned to have a barbecue dinner tonight. At first I was going to make some sushi, but my mom haven’t bought some salmon lately. It’s fine, since there’ll be some carps, squids and shrimps. Okay now my tummy is rumbling. *ignore the last sentence*

I think that’s it. These are my resolutions and hopes that I planned to accomplish on 2013. Wish me luck guys, and I wish your hopes will come true. Have a great new year’s eve everyone, talk to you soon. Adieu! xx

current attempt to make gif, finally succeed :D

Keep calm and get ready! ✽

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