BCOM STUDENT, 18, AUS o?o
ah, shit man. it's so late. 1.44am and i am still awake. these days i've been sleeping quite late and i'm just screwing up my health and skin more! i sad. anyway, today is friday, didn't feel like it at all. i woke up at 9:50 and stayed in bed until about 10:30. was so cold. i went downstairs and there was breadtop! i ate a pineapple bun, because you can't go wrong with them! i feel like even if i get sick of other buns, i will never get sick of pineapple bun ^^
sat at my computer and i don't even know what i did. around lunch time i had toasted sandwich and then megan and i decided to book the tickets from jeju to gimpo. yay. my bank account is just luvly nao. OH WELL i will be getting the money back soon anyway, and i have nothing urgent to pay anyway. basically spent the rest of the afternoon looking at korea trip stuff, and talking to megie etc etc. don't really know what i did..
after dinner, i finished off and finalised my assignment which was originally due today. i seriously have no idea if what i did was right or wrong. "assignment 2 no clue" is me. and i'm pretty sure most people are super lost as well, oh well, i hope i pass. i spent so little time on it though, so i'm not anticipating a high mark or anything.
i swear, sometimes people are so annoying and attention seeking. i feel bad for thinking this sometimes, but sometimes it just makes me want to pull my hair out. i'm like STAHP PLS. STAHP. but then i feel bad for like ignoring or not even bothering. what do. oh and i realised this person i thought was :S isn't that bad, hahha i don't know why i always judge people..
anyway, night time, what did i do.. finished my assignment then tried to watch FO, but ceebed, so decided to rewatch a drama: witch yoo hee. jae hee is the main guy... he's awesome. even though not amazing looking, i think he's a good actor and i like his characters, and he seems really cute LOL i was watching delightful girl, chunhyang before, but i stopped.. i don't know why, will probs pick it back up later. oh and i watched ep 1 of mary stayed out all night yesterday as well. don't know why, i've already watched the drama like a few years ago LOL
ok, better sleep. am i going yumcha tmr? LOL
it's been a while since i've blogged. i can't remember what i've done the past few days. probably nothing and gone to uni. today is thursday and i went to uni. i had korean first up, our last tute for this semester. oh my god, i sad. did dictation, and i wrote something wrong. i only studied the words she listed out, but she asked some other stuff too, i wrote 얼마예요? wrong.. instead i wrote 얼마이예요?... dats gr8 rly.
anyway, so stayed at uni until late ish, and decided to have dinner with reuben pua and bryan. we went to kang na ru in clayton and it was fun because we decided to try to use our crappy korean to order food HAHHAHAHA some how we managed to get our message across! LOL o man, we should practice more for sure. i had dolsot bibimbap. i got sooo full, i was pregnant again and couldn't move. this happens a lot when i eat out.. probably because i eat too much. i mean, i can eat a lot, but then i get so full i can't move.. that's probs why i get gain easily HAHHAH i also like to eat, so what can i do :-(
srsly, i really like korean food, but when it's not too hot. i can't really take hot stuff. anyway, today was really fun hahhha, i really like going out and hanging with friends. but my mom was like: vhut, y u always go out to 2 eat. twice in 1 week, smh. i was like: soz :-( loloolools, and it was also fun playing 'speak in different languages' LOLOLOL
ah man, srsly full, but hungry at the same time. and yeah, super tired, falling asleep naos.. haven't slept properly in days. so sad, so bad. ok, i finished.
today. i finally did work.
I FINALLY DID SOME WORK AFTER 2 WEEKS. congratulate me pls. i was pretty scared that i'd never do anything anymore until after sem 2 had started. i even thought: what if i don't do the 20% assignment. hahahah, but today, i decided: I MUST. I MUST DO SOME WORK. i've had 2 weeks of holidays, it's about time i start doing something! so even though i slept at 3am last night, and it was cold. i sat at my computer and opened up everything. spss, word doc, googledocs, moodle, everything. i HAD to do work today. i had to START MY ASSIGNMENT!
so basically i only really have 7 days to do it because my spss trial version ends in 7 days, and also i need to work on korean things for week 12, so that really i guess, pushed me to do it. even though i was like: i'll just write SOMETHING, because i legit dono anything. i was like so lost, that i even went to ask kim if she's started. actually, i kinda feel guilty for not going to mkc/etc because then i leave kim there.. but then there's hao.. and that other girl.. but i still feel bad. so i must go now. I MUST.
don't know if i'm still going to go to ecc.. but I MUST. it's week 11 now. FUCK. there's 2 more weeks until it's over. oh shit son. anyway, yeah, i managed to do a lot.. i think. TO BE HONEST, i had no idea wtf i was doing, so pua kinda helped me, and i googled and youtubed and everything, and kinda just did whatever the fuck i thought it might be. so yeah, in the end, i've kind of gone through most of the statistics parts, like i've got the tables and graphs and shit, WHO KNOWS IF IT'S RIGHT. HAHHAHAA. i kind of legit do not care, that is kind of sad. like. i'm hoping it is right, but if not, i hope i pass. i'm so confused with the assignment.
anyway, i'll worry later. so yeah, basically got all that shit done, and now i just gotta put it all together and analyse it and write some words and shit. i can do this!!!!! okay, so now that's fucking sunday, i sad. because. tomorrow is monday, which means i have to go to university :-( I DON'T LIKE GOING TO UNIVERSITY. but anyway, so since i've done so much today (lol so much..) I'M GOING TO RELAX NOW AND WATCH SOME DRAMA AND TUMBLR AND SHIET AND YEAHHHHHHH
LIFE IS GOOD. EVEN THOUGH I JUST DID A BIT OF WORK HAHHHA.
how to tell if it's me typing:
kept telling myself i would study today, and guess if i did. yep, you're right. i didn't study again. fuck, i don't know what is wrong with me, but probably something big, because i've become a big fat lazy slob. i just sit in bed all day with my laptop and do nothing. seriously, what did i do today? ah, time really.. :-(
the more i live. the more bitchy i become. i feel like this year i've become such a judgmental person. i mean, i've always been, but it's becoming more apparent and i feel bad for being like this, but at the same time, it's not like i'm going to go out of my way to change myself. i'm not going to set myself goals to change certain aspects of myself. perhaps i'll just think to myself: i shouldn't be thinking this, and mentally tell myself off or something. anyway, i just find myself finding flaws in people, and disliking people i hardly know for the littlest things. like they annoy me, or they scare me. i am so mean. what do.
the more i live. the more bitchy i become. i feel like i'm more okay with my bitchiness that i just let it show. i'm like, meh, i'm a bitch whatever. idgaf. loloolol, people who listen to me complaining and talking about people will know how mean i am. i don't know if it's most girls. girls will be girls right? but yeah, i feel more okay with being a bitch as well. i'm like: oh well. or like, it's the truth, or can't change how one feels. saying stuff like that as a poor excuse for my thoughts. oh well.
also, you know complaining isn't such a bad thing. even though people may be tired out listening to it or deflated after listening, complaining is actually a good conversation starter. if you have nothing to talk about, just complain about something... unless it's stupid. no, even if it's stupid, at least you have something to say right? ah. lols. and you could say thinking bad things makes life more interesting. gives you lots of interesting things to think and talk about with your girl friends l o l. measly attempt to defend myself.
nah. i actually want to be less mean. okay. firstly, i should stop showing that i'm pissed at someone or something or just dont be outwardly bitchy HAHAHAHA yes, it's gotten to that point. pretty bad ey? i mean, when i was young, i'd just like fume inside, now it's like: why fume inside, yolo, just be tru to myself. but that's a bad excuse as well, because there's people around you. okay i don't know what i'm saying. this sounds like a goal, but i guess it's going to an 'open' goal, i'll try not to do it, but it won't be on my mind to NOT do it. you know. i feel the more you think about not doing something, the more likely you will do it, or the more you'll feel it building up and eventually you'll have to explode. that's not even relevant but okay.
anyway.
but then at the same time i'm a pretty cool person.
i'm not sure really. hahahahahaha. is it bad to call myself a cool person.
oh well, high self esteem ftw.
did i even post about yesterday?
i'll do a short dot-point post on yesterday:
today is sunday.................... wait what. it's monday? LOL shit. i didn't do anything today. i went to one class then went home and watched movies again. fuck i'm addicted and i ceebs so bad. what am i to do with myself. argh, what am i to do. i'm already in holiday mode? fuck.
anyway, i got home and mom was cleaning my room again. what. luv u mom. and she made me french toast for lunch, and she made me wontons for breakfast too. hu has da best mom? me.
anyway, i got home and watched speedy scandal. which is one of my favorite movies. this is the second time i've watched it and it's still good. i like it because it's like a family movie, and not many family movies are like outstanding yknow. didn't know what to do after i finished the movie.
it was raining heavily then, and mom went to pick up sisters and stuff, so i just sat there thinking what to do next. too dark/rainy to do homework, too cold as well. so i decided to start another movie.
i don't bother with capitals anymore, so much extra effort to reach my pinky to the shift key. my hands are small enough, i'm lazy too. i remember i used to be one of those people who hated people who typed like a maniac. it used to be ~cool~ to type properly.. 'you' instead of 'u'. i was one of those who thought: how much extra time does typing y and o take. and then it became ~cool~ to type like an idiot. and it still is. actually, the hype now is hashtagging. i don't even.
anyway, today i was stressed. really, just stressed. except i didn't want to do anything, and that made me more stressed so i decided OK IM NOT DOING ANYTHING. LET'S JUST WATCH MOVIES ALL DAY AGAIN. so i did. i really love watching movies. korean movies. i seem like a koreaboo don't i. i listen to korean music, watch korean dramas, movies, shows. what's the hype with korean things? at least i don't worship korean people. i hate that. stupid. idiots. who do that. anyway, it's just that once you become adjusted to a certain field, and when you know names of actors, actresses, idols, etc, it's hard to let go. i mean, yeah. it's fun.
i'm going crazy because i feel like i haven't done anything all week except act like a sloth and eat and watch korean shit. the only work i did last week was read 2 chapter of macro to do the quiz, which i got 44/50. i realised another stupid mistake. if the rate of unemployment is UNDER the natural unemployment rate, that means more people are employed, which is when the real gdp line is above the potential. sorry for screwing you guys up, bryan and reuben :-( hope you did ok :-)
i also did a bit of study for korean, and did my homework for next week, but other than that, i did nothing. i've been sitting here for 4 days straight doing nothing. i tried to do work on thursday, on friday. i tried. i tried to download spss, but it didn't work, so i downloaded from some other site (other than the official one) and it didn't work. got an email today saying i could download from official site now, so yay. it works. that's one good thing. i'll work on my assignment soon.
i feel like exams are so close, yet i haven't done anything. i feel like i'm so behind on everything, but i ceebs. i feel like i'll start studying for afc2000 when i get my mst score back, and i'll read the other chapters for ecc1100 just before the quiz. for korean, i don't even know what to do. and for etc, i'll do the assignment first and worry later.
fuark, there's so much stuff to do, but yet i can't be bothered. mostly i just need to study for exams, but there's still time right? it's week 10, and i don't even want to go to tutes or lectures. what do. i'm so lazy, i watched like 5 movies today LOL fuck my life, why complain. need some water.
oh and recently, i've been feeling so angry. all the time. i get frustrated and angry at everything and everyone. i mean, i've always been an angry person, but it's been getting to the point that i'm even worried about the fact that i have so much anger in me. today, i managed to not yell though. i held my tongue, and breathed and yeah. i'm proud of myself for that, but i felt like exploding.
i criticize.
Saturday.
I tried to download SPSS for my assignment for MKC2500, fuck. I don't even want to explain cuz I ceebs, but seriously, how am I supposed to my assignment arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I'll worry about it later.
Went to Springy. Then got home, and tried to pack up my room. Then decided to watch movies.
Today I woke up at 8, even though I could sleep in until whenever I wanted. I played Candy Crush in bed, and went on my laptop after I used up my lives. I stayed in bed until almost 10am, and made baked beans on toast for breakfast. And a mug of milo too.
I tried to do some work, I tried to read the afc2000 book. I tried to read chapter 1. I'm not sure what I'm doing, but probably going to try to read the book, since I have time I guess. Only got through like 4 pages out of like 50, shit each chapter is long. Should I really be doing this?
Met up with Megu at 3:00 and took train to MC together. Tbh, wasn't much to talk about, so I just talked our old job, even though I've already talked to her about it before many times.. hope she didn't mind. And we saw Vinny when we got on, chatted for a bit, didn't know what to say, haven't seen him in a while, and I don't really talk to him anyway. Did some window shopping.. glad I didn't spend money :-) Nothing particularly great anyway.
Met up with everyone, went to some Kbbq place next to the Gami Chicken place we went to last time. Kbbq was okay, not that great, but not that bad I guess. Even though I felt like I didn't eat a lot, I felt pretty full after, and then we went to get some Cacao Green. Had pomegranate froyo with some muesli and mochi :-) tasted good, but pomegranate is a bit more sour than mango :-( Took the train home, and my dad picked me up. First time in a long time.
Watched The Tower. It was okay. Pretty cliche, but it wasn't too bad. Wasn't that great either, but I'm not really disappointed.. 7/10? I thought Son Ye Jin would have a bigger role, but she hardly talked in the film, oh well, it was a disaster film hahah. What to watch next. I really want to watch The Berlin Tower. Ha Jung Woo and Jeon Ji Hyun are in it :-0, no idea when subs are gonna come out thought.. it was only released this year.. O WELL.. will find other films to watch :-)
Woke up early today for once, and didn't have to jump out of bed and rush out the house, felt good. Got to uni early, Bryan was there talking with other people from the class. I didn't really talk to them. Korean is getting harder, but I still managed to do well on last week's dictation. I need to practice spacing though, it's confusing.
Went to Medley after to help Reuben and Bryan with their macro quizzes. Realised I made some mistakes, argh, but yeah, I don't know if what I told them was right, but I guess since they dono, better than nothing? LOL Went to marketing/stats class after.. first time in forever. We're doing stats stuff now, I confused. Moved class rooms to use SPSS some program.. I think we need to use it for our last assignment - 20% SHIEEET and it's individual :-(
Oh yeah, got HD+ for the last marketing assignment (group). I'M SO HAPPY, because I contributed a lot this time, so I feel proud :-) I'm doing well this semester so far.. afc2000 marks aren't out yet, and we haven't had final exams yet. Exams always screw me over.
Took the bus to GW cuz no one was at uni when I finished class. Met up with Yinnie who happened to finish class early, walked to maccas and I got my $3.30 lunch. I luv maccas, whatcha gonna do about it? .. sigh.. LOL anyway, $2 chicken+mayo burger, $1 small fries, $0.30 soft serve. Ah, so cheap.
Oh, saw Jane at GWPS.. she works at Kumon.. how 2 manage 2 jobs, but then again.. probably didn't have to work crazy hours like I did LOL and her jobs are close to home. Chatted for a bit, was a little awkward. But nice to see her.
Got home, did 100 skips again, did my Korean hw, and then took a nap. Energy drained after those 100 skips LOL had dinner, watched RM, watched Deranged, which is a Korean movie. It's pretty good. 8/10 I'd say, ending was rushed.
Oh and lols, The Tower subs are out. Today is strange. I complained about wishing my sister finished school earlier today, and she did. I complained about wanting to watch The Tower, but there were no subs, and then subs came out. WHAT IS THIS. Hhahahah. I'll work harder now!!!! Make sure good things happen to people who deserve them :-)
Anyway, my personality is so.. intolerable. Oh well what can I do. I find it interesting, but people will be like: dis bitch. I have so many... bad traits.... o well.
shiet son, time to dot point my day :-)
I was flustered. Isn't it strange to know that no matter how much time has passed, you can't escape from the past. It's part of the shadow that follows you around. Something that I had almost forgotten about swam in their minds like it just happened yesterday. But what could I do? Nothing. Except accept the fact that that they knew about me.
People talk.
i need a job that pays at least 10,000 dollars an hour
Anya Marina- “Satellite Heart
I’m a satellite heart lost in the dark
I’m spun out so far, you stop, I start
But I’ll be true to you
why regret. the decisions you make, the paths you take, make who you are. accept what who you are, if you are unhappy, change yourself for the better, but do not regret.
lmao. this blog.
TO ANON:
Sorry, this might be late D: But congratulations on graduating! Best of luck for the future, take care, be happie, smile :-)
Congratulations to any of my other followers who have recently graduated!
Oh btw, it’s not me who has graduated LOL I graduated last year, but this is a request/suggestion from an anon ^^
really? hahahah thank you ^^
aww, you’re too kind! haha uhm i’ll try, i have exams coming up though.. but yeah ^^
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THANK YOU <3
i’m glad that my drawings make you happy ^^
one of my final birthday card designs for my visual communication & design folio.. i think i mentioned it like 1.5 years ago, i asked what sort of cards i should design… LOL but yes, this is one of them.
changed my tumblr theme. it’s pretty isn’t it ^^ hehe
Expiration Date - Tablo
“I’m afraid I’ll be a book that no one reads,
music that no one listens to,
I’m afraid I’ll be abandoned like a movie playing in an empty theatre”
No one likes TIH anymore..
What if you could live your dream?
Do you have a dream? Something that you really want to do, one of the main goals you want to achieve in life.. but reality tells you that it is too hard or too ‘impossible’? What if you could live your dream? How would you feel?
My dream is to design stationery. What is yours?
Children of the future.
I don’t know, I just think that technology is taking over the world, and while its a good thing, think about the children who are part of Generation Z and beyond..
time to find my tablet and draw something :D