Susan Jane

I am a horrible blogger. I remember when I would blog every single day and make sure I did so. Obviously things have changed and it will never be the same when it comes to having a blog. I know that I have to keep on top of it though. I don’t know how those moms do it. I guess having a full time job with a commute and having to be a mom and wife, at the end of the day, blogging is the last thing I want to do. I find the only time I do blog is in the morning while eating breakfast, before everyone wakes up.

Anyway, the DJ thing is still something I want to do, and actually got a new controller for Mother’s Day. It’s a lot better than the first one I got, and I have to figure out how to sell that other one somehow… I decided that it’s just going to really be a hobby, and wherever it takes me it does. I want to at least have one mix up on Mixcrate this year. I still need to learn all the nuances of how the controller works and of course organize my music. Both which are a challenge in itself. But I am inspired by the DJs out there I’ve been listening to online at Thefuture.fm. Listened to a DJ AM mix and it made me a bit sad that such talent is gone, but it inspired me. There are a bunch of girl DJs out there who are known and have skill. That’s what I strive to be. I’ve always loved music and been somewhat of a musician even though it’s been in the back burner for the most recent years. I want to pick back up again and do something this year. I really do. It’s just a matter of time.

May 2nd, closer to half of 2012!  I can’t believe how fast time is going.  I am still stuck on my music goals to learning how to DJ.  I actually decided to sell my current controller up on eBay.  I am planning to buy another controller which is a bit more advanced.  I also decided not to take that DJ class in Miami… for now. I think it’s pretty important to take it slow and really learn the fundamentals and history of DJing.  It’s going to be a long road, but I’m okay with that.

Another thing that I want to make sure of doing is that I spend as much time with my son as possible.  Sure, I have my goals but he’s only a little baby once and I want to cherish those moments.  I also realized how I can be pretty down on myself and I need to change that.  I think I need an attitude make over, and although it’s something that won’t happen overnight, I want to get there.  I’m tired of being that quiet, shy and timid person.  I don’t want to be that type of person that is afraid anymore.  You only live once, so you might as well make the best of it and be outstanding, right?

Anyway, other than that, the weather lately has been kind of yuck… I’m waiting for the sunshine and warmth to come back!

And if you didn’t know, Brian McKnight came out with a new song, an “adult” song, so it’s NSFW.  It’s hilarious and melodic all at the same time.  Classic Brian McKnight.

I haven’t written in a week, and my goal was at least one post a week.  Ugh. I really hate falling off on things, especially this blog, because I want to keep at it.  Last week was pretty busy work wise, and I spent the entire weekend basically staying away from the computer.  Slowly but surely, our home is getting to the way we want it to, but a long way to go.

The little one’s birthday came and went, and it was a good time, although I probably won’t throw another birthday party for him until he’s in school.  For his next birthday we’ll just go on a trip.  I rather spend the money on a nice trip with him than stress people out by cooking, and getting people drunk.  Lesson learned.

On the music front, I am seriously considering taking a DJ course, but it’s in Miami.  Even though an hour drive isn’t too bad in retrospect, the idea of driving amongst people who suck at driving scares me.  Hopefully I can conquer my fear to pursue this – considering I’ve been wanting to learn to DJ since I was in high school!  Why wait any longer?

On the food front, we’ve been cooking more thus saving money on going out to eat.  I realize that yeah, it’s work to cook your own food but I rather do it this way – I like staying home and learning how to cook different things.  It’s just a matter of getting out of the comfort zone of making the usual stuff and trying out new recipes.  To be continued.

And finally, on the fashion front, I haven’t really been paying much attention to this, but I definitely have been able to fit into my tighter pants better, which is awesome.  I definitely am going to keep up the eating healthy thing.  I have yet to acquire any new clothing, except for a couple of Express purchases – just some tees and a pair of stretch pants.  I’ve become picky, just as I have when it comes to buying shoes.  That’s another story…

Well, it’s Monday morning, and it’s time to conquer the day.  Have a good one!

It’s definitely been a crazy year in my life.  This time last year, Ricky (which is his nickname) was plotting his escape to meet me and his papa.  As I type this he’s sound asleep and looking at him, I can’t believe how fast he’s grown and what he’s gone through in his little life.  From being born a month early, to being sick in the hospital for a week at 5 months, surgery at 6 months and adapting to new surroundings because we moved, he’s been through a lot.  I don’t really have any doubt that he will be a strong willed kid because he already shows signs of never backing down.  I’m such a proud momma, and since the day he came into my life, I’ve never felt so much love, and finally realized that my existence matters towards another person.

The fact that a year has gone by still surprises me, but I look forward to him growing older and seeing how he turns out to be.  I look forward to seeing the new things he does, the reactions of seeing new things, and his likes and dislikes.  He’s taught me so much about life and motivates me to achieve my goals.  Although getting to them is not easy because he is always first in my life, I know that I will get there eventually.  He makes me a better person, and the reason why I keep going, even though there are times when I just want to raise my arms up and give up.

I started a new hobby a few weeks back and it’s going slow, which is okay.  I always wanted to learn how to DJ and make my own mixes of music, and I finally gave in and bought a DJ controller.  I’m doing the all digital route, and it definitely is fun getting all my music together.  I looked and tried all sorts of different headphones and finally gave in and got the Beats by Dre Pro which should be coming in the mail in the next few days.  Hopefully these headphones will be the ones I stick with.  It’s been difficult really practicing with the baby and all, but I will not give up. I just need to manage my time better – as all working moms struggle with.

Places where I love finding new music is of course Spotify, Hype Machine and Earmilk, which are all cool sites.  In my recent findings I have loved:

Frank Ocean – Love his vocals and didn’t even know he was on some of Jay-Z and Kanye’s Watch the Throne tracks.  Really digging the Thinkin’ ‘Bout You track.

DJ SoSuperSam – This Way Up and Cruel Summer mixes — she is definitely a big influence, and she’s super cute.

Childish Gambino – I didn’t know he was Troy from Community! Definitely a talented rapper.  Love “Got This Money” and his Adele mix of Rolling in the Deep

Miike Snow – Favorite tracks include Animal and Paddling Out which is on his newer album

Santigold – I have liked her since she came out with Lights Out, and really liking her newer song Disparate Youth

I hope to have a post of a song I love each week because I always find new tracks and artists that I like.   Being a noob DJ makes me seek out the tracks.

The thought of my little one eating food more than just his formula is exciting, yet stressful at the same time.  It is easier now because he has his formula and some baby food, but soon, he will be relying on actual food for nourishment.  Of course, I want to be able to provide the best and healthiest food for his growth, but I am definitely no gourmet cook.  I can cook to an extent of heating things up in the microwave and using our indoor electric grill to cook up fish, steak or chicken.  But as far as whipping up a meal from scratch, not the best at it.

Enter wanting to make my kid’s own meals because I have no idea what is in already made food for babies.  I trust the Gerber pureed stuff like squash, carrots, sweet potatoes, etc.  But then there’s the turkey with sweet potato and pasta, chicken and sweet potato in a packet that I’m not so sure of. I had him try this organic chicken, pasta and sweet potato combo in a packet and he absolutely hated it.  My mom tells me to take a sweet potato and cook it up in the microwave, boil some chicken and then combine the two together, and although I haven’t done it for him yet, it makes me wonder what other meals would I be able to make for him?

It would be interesting to learn what other moms do, and what they feed or make for their kids!

I’ve always liked clothes, and the feeling of looking nice when you go out definitely makes me feel good about myself.  Unfortunately, these days there aren’t many of those.  I have come to realize that many of my clothes are cheap because I didn’t spend much money on it.

And they don’t last.  At all.

Lately I just feel like I’m wearing rags of clothes and thankfully where I work, I don’t have to dress business casual, but I would like to dress nicer.  I am thinking that quality of clothing that will last a long time will be more worth it than cheap non quality clothing that will only last a couple months.  When you really think about it, it really isn’t worth buying the cheap stuff if it’s going to turn into rags so quickly.

Only problem is, I’m still frugal, and I am low on the cash.  So, I’ve signed up for sites like Hautelook, Gilt, and ideeli to see if I can actually snag some clothes at a lower price.  So far, I haven’t bought anything.  I know fashion and clothing can get really expensive, so I also want to have a separate savings account where I put money into so I don’t rack up credit card debt.  More on that later.

But yes, that is my plan for 2012 – buy quality clothing, expand and better my own fashion sense because I want to feel confident in my clothing.  I don’t necessarily want to be a trendsetter or be a trend follower, but work things out where I can determine what my fashion style actually is.

My 19023482754 attempt at blogging.  I’ve probably created tons of blogs, but I hope that this one is different.  With many goals in mind, I hope that this blog keeps me on track with them.  For the most part, I’m a mom that loves music and is learning how to mix and dj, seeks to be fashionable (in my own way of course) and keeping track of the good food I come across.

Yay, so this is me.

Nice to meet ya!