someday, sarah.

by kimberlyfaye

i can sleep through pretty much anything. my mom banging the pans together as she puts the dishes away, thunderstorms, bailey barking and scratching at my door, even my alarm clock. in fact, a few…

• watching it snow. (left over from winter.)
• snow plows. (also left over from winter.)
• the first day it feels like spring and you can wear a t-shirt without freezing.
• coloring with crayons.
• buying people presents ‘just because.’
• the feeling you get when you think, “i should be doing homework,” but then you remember you’re on break and don’t have any.
• finding new music. (suggestions?)
• getting a 100% on a paper or an exam.
• seeing a constellation for the first time - at the age of 20.
• spring break.

I am // nichole nordeman

and when i am weak, unable to speak,
still i will call You by name.
Shepherd, Savior, Pasture Maker,
hold onto my hand,
and You say, I am.

caitywrites:

mondaymondaymonday.

ahhhh i can’t waaaaait!

i think you may be confusing awesome with awkward. haha (:

love.

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food baby.

(disclaimer: this might be the longest post i’ve ever written. when it comes to target, barnes and noble, or writing, i just can’t help myself.)

last night, my mom and i went to friendly’s to eat…

caitywrites:

@somedaysarah.

i was totally gonna reblog this to you! especially after that night when we were talking on aim and i was like, “…i’m coming over. okay?”

we were down in the branford/new haven area today, writing down easy directions for the guests, and we visited anthony’s ocean view (t & lee’s reception place). i took some pictures of the view with my cell phone. i just love this place. and the sunshine!

i can’t wait for flip flops and t-shirts and trips to the beach…

i like to hang out at target on friday nights.

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remember these? i used to call them favorite things, but i changed the name. because i can. and i like this one better. while they are my favorite things, my original point was to make a list of things that make me happy. so i’m calling it my happy list. okay. cool. here are some new ones. finally.

• wearing socks & sliding around on wood floors in them.
• thinking about the future.
• reese’s peanut butter eggs.
• waking up & realizing you don’t have to get up yet.
• crossing things off to-do lists.
• having snow days on days when it doesn’t actually snow.
• friday afternoons.
• celine dion - the (most talented) singer.
• freshly painted nails.
• spring - the season.

let’s get right to the point: my speech. as i mentioned the other day, i had to give a speech this morning about how my life is like makeup. (again, thanks to t for that idea.) i also mentioned in that other post that we had to pick three items to represent our past, present, and future. my items were foundation (past), eye shadow (present), and lipstick (future).

the idea is that foundation is the base, what you apply first, and the values that my parents instilled in me as a child laid the foundation for who i am. eye shadow is fun and there are lots of options to try, and in my present, i’m trying different things and figuring out who i want to be. and lipstick is what completes the look and you usually only have one favorite that you always use, and in my future, i will have one career. …yeah.

i basically said all of that, using more words, in three to four minutes. and i think it went pretty well. i said everything i had to say, plus four or five “ums.” and i say i think it went well because i don’t actually know. the thing is, when i get up in front of a group of people and have to talk at them (ie, give a speech), i forget everything and just focus on sounding coherent. so much so that i have no idea what i look like. i have no idea what kind of posture i had, or what i was doing with my hands the whole time. i was too focused on the words coming out of my mouth to pay attention to any of that.

i also had a notecard, just in case my mind went completely blank, but i realized that that’s kind of pointless because, in that situation, i temporarily forget out to read and end up just staring at the card. in fact, every time i’d forget where i was going today, i’d say “um,” look at my notecard to clear my head, and then i’d remember. it had nothing to do with whatever i wrote on the card. it had more to do with me needing for forget i had 18 pairs of eyes on me for a second so that i could remember how to speak.

but i guess it went well. and my history exam went as well as it could have gone, i suppose. i basically copied all of my notes onto a 3x5 notecard, so it didn’t take me very long to just re-copy it down on the exam. now i just have to write the two take-home essays, which will be easy considering he outlined each one for us in class on wednesday.

and that’s pretty much it.

ps. dave barnes has a new cd and a bunch of pre-order/instant digital download options! ahhh! (click his name for more info.) (and i am still working on having a music-post day. i just haven’t thought of what to call it yet.)

i love wednesday nights. i think they’re my favorite, because my longest day is over and the rest of the week is a piece of cake. except for this week. on friday, i have a speech and a midterm.

let’s back up. i have a speech on friday. at 9:30 a.m. a speech. meaning, i’m going to have to stand up in front of all eight of my comm-lab classmates and talk to them for three whole minutes about how my life is like makeup. at 9:30 in the morning! (our assignment was to pick three objects that represent our past, present, and future. and they have to be related, so i chose makeup.) (shout out to tiffany for helping me out with that idea.) except it’s going to be more like me talking at them instead of to them, because they’ll probably just be sitting there staring at me, counting how many times i say “um.”

i can’t even tell you how much i am not looking forward to this. as if i’m not awkward enough as it is, let’s just showcase it to the class. and since i know how much you’d like to be a fly on the wall for that experience, i will just let you know that i plan on writing about it after it’s over, so it will actually be just like you’re there. lucky you!

(and i’ll also further explain how makeup makes up my life. but it’s basically like this: past = foundation, present = eye shadow, future = lipstick.)

and my midterm? it’s in history. civilization since 1500, if you want to be technical about it. but either way, it’s history. i hate history. no matter how hard i try to pay attention, everything my teacher says goes in one ear and out the other. it’s like, he’s speaking english, and yet i still have no idea what he’s saying. ever. luckily, he has this let’s-make-up-our-own-exams policy. which means we spent monday’s class coming up with questions that will be on the exam and today’s class answering them. oh, and did i mention the part about how we get to bring in a notecard with information written on both sides of it for the exam?

…i’m sorry, so what have we been doing in class this whole time?

seriously. although i guess it doesn’t really matter as long as i get a good grade.

on that note, i’m gonna go to bed. and hopefully, i don’t have another stress dream involving me standing awkwardly in front of a large audience, opening my mouth and realizing that i’ve forgotten everything i’m supposed to be talking about.

Your love is a song // switchfoot

a few weeks ago, i was having a really hard time. and i mean, it took every bit of energy i had just to be functional. i couldn’t even pretend like things were okay. they weren’t, and i lacked the energy to try and prove otherwise.

i would wake up in the morning, after a terrible night’s sleep, and seriously wonder how i was going to make it through the day. i would go to school or work, and fight to keep my eyes open and my attention focused. no amount of hot chocolate or diet dr. pepper was enough. i would do the bare minimum and still, i felt like i couldn’t keep up.

now, weeks later, i can’t even explain how exhausting it really was because i don’t know how. and because it doesn’t matter. i made it through. just barely, but i made it. and it was all because every night, in the two minutes i had after my head hit the pillow and before i fell asleep, i would pray. i prayed that God would be with me, help me, and forgive me for not having time - for not making time - to read my Bible that day. i prayed that, over and over, because i couldn’t find any other words to say. i was too close to sleep, and the only thing i could think was, i need You so please just be with me.

and it was enough. i made it through, and things got easier.

i guess i’m writing about this because i don’t want to forget that. that even when you’re too weak to lift your hands, too exhausted to speak, He knows. that even when you feel like you have nothing left, He provides. that even when you can’t find the words to say, all you have to do is need Him. you don’t need to pray for hours, or have some extravagant prayer.

it’s like, all you have to do is look to Him, and He pulls exactly what you need from some magical reserve tank you never knew existed. and you manage to keep going, keep living, keep breathing. just like that.

it’s kind of convenient, isn’t it? convenient, and also completely incomprehensible.

You are my Shield, my Strength, my Portion, Deliverer
my Shelter, Strong Tower, my very present help in time of need.
hillsong united.

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hahaha!

desert song // hillsong united

ps. love you, miss you, send candy.

gatekeeper:

Sometimes, I need to remind myself of this.

what’s inside // michael mceachern

i bought rain boots today. they look like this. ^

rain boots are so awkward.

want.

(click to see more pictures.)

i also love this post.

(and have i mentioned how much i cannot waait for june 5th?)

once upon a time, i owned three sets of earphones. (earbuds? what are they called?) and by ‘once,’ i mean i currently own three sets of them.

one is the kind that comes with any ipod. another is the kind from target that i got to replace my earphones that came with my old ipod because those broke, but these ones are green because there weren’t any pink ones and i was too desperate to wait for target to restock the pink ones. (if that doesn’t show my level of desperation, i don’t know what does.) the third kind is the same as the second, but these ones are pink, and the only reason i actually have them is because i slipped them into santa’s shopping cart this one time… i just thought they’d make a great stocking stuffer. as it turns out, i was right.

but my point is: out of the three different sets of earphones that i own, guess which ones i had with me at school today?

NONE. that’s right. i had my ipod all set to go, but without earphones, that’s completely useless. and i don’t mean to say that this time was nearly as tragic as the last time i forgot my ipod and i had nothing to do all day, but i did have a philosophy exam to study for. and without my ipod, i’m more likely to get distracted and wind up eavesdropping on some girl’s conversation about how she went out with this guy on saturday - a second date - and she paid for her own meal again and she’s not sure if she really wants to go out with a guy who doesn’t pay for her meals, especially at the beginning, but she does like how tall he is…

where was this girl the last time i forgot my ipod?

(by the way, i did manage to get some studying in, and i think i did really well on the exam. although i can’t say the same for the two girls who sit next to me, who came to class five minutes early and thought that would be a good time to start studying.)

the end.

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love love love love!

love. them.

fearless // taylor swift

june 5th. i can’t waaait!

i feel the need to reject doing anything productive on snow days. i prefer sitting around doing nothing and blogging about it instead. i don’t know why that is exactly, but i know it’s not a good thing, especially when i actually have things to accomplish. having snow days on days when i don’t have school is rather inconvenient, because everything on my homework to-do list still needs to get crossed off whether the roads are icy or not.

it’s not that i have so much to do and i just don’t feel like doing it because it’s so overwhelming, because i actually don’t have that much today. it’s more like, i just don’t feel like doing it. i’ve said this before, but i think my energy comes from the sun. and since today’s a legit snow day, with actual snow, the sun is no where to be seen. and so is any trace of potential motivation.

on an unrelated note, i realized that i posted yesterday, and forgot to include this one important detail: sleeperstar is my new current favorite.

i looked them up before the show because i knew they were touring with gro, and i liked them a lot. but i had no idea how much i LOVED them until i saw them live. (refer to numbers 2 & 3 on my top 10 list of things i love about going to concerts.) seriously. after seeing them, and meeting them, they are - for sure - on my top 10 list of favorite bands. and i’m pretty sure “texas rain” has been playing on repeat in my head like background music for the past 24 hours.

you can click their name in pink up there ^ to listen on myspace, or you can go here to see their blog. (they post a lot of pictures because their drummer, shaun menary, is quite a talented photographer.)

and i’d also like to include that (thanks to caity and sleeperstar’s countdown-to-the-album-release tweets) i am now a fan of ben rector. his (new?) cd just came out on itunes. today. it’s pretty great.

i should also let you know that i’m throwing around the idea of having a music-post day. like music monday or something. except not, because ‘music monday’ is just so unoriginal. and so twitter. and also because new music always comes out on tuesdays, and why would i wait until monday to write about it? i don’t know. but in any event, i’m trying to come up with something so that i can have my “oh i love this music” stuff all in one place, instead of having it bleed into other, non-music-related posts. you know what i mean?

i’m even considering wasting the rest of my snow day today to brainstorm ideas. we’ll see what happens with that.

texas rain // sleeperstar

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top 10 things i love about concerts:

1. getting black X’s on the back of both hands because you’re underage, and having the guy who drew them on you tell you not to go to the bathroom and wash them off. (as if that’s even possible.)
2. you get to spend an entire night listening to music. live music. because live music is always better. (well, not always. but the bands i go to see are.)
3. after you’ve seen a band play live, you have a new found appreciation for their music the next time you listen to their cd. and every time you listen to it, you remember the good times you had at their show.
4. musicians are attractive, and seeing them in action is even better.
5. it’s loud. so loud, you can feel it in your bones. (this isn’t always a good thing, but at the time, you forget that you’re permanently damaging you hearing and you love how loud it is.)
6. using up memory cards and batteries from all the pictures and videos you take so that you can relive the night once you get home. (at 3 a.m.)
7. buying merch.
8. you get to see what musicians look like when they sing/play. you get to see the passion in their facial expressions and what they do with their hands (if they’re not playing an instrument) and how they interact with everyone else on stage. you get to see that they’re just real people, who love what they do for a living.
9. you find out about new bands, because chances are you have no idea who else is playing because you don’t really care. sometimes they’re amazing, and sometimes they’re not. but when they are, it’s such a pleasant surprise.
10. sometimes, you get to meet the band members. and sometimes, you become best friends with them.

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