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- Jul 21, 12everybody wants happinessnobody wants painbut you can’t have a rainbowwithout a little rain.fast forward to 2 years. are you still there? still there? pathetic. 5 years now. everything’sgetting better? good for you! that was not sarcasm. i assure you. now to 7 years. happy?yes? brilliant. i see you smiling now. it’s been 10 years. hey. tears?! tears of joy! you‘re very happy now. drive your own car, work in an amazing place, travel a lot, finally met someone special. happy. very happy.but no, i won’t even make it to next year.
- Jul 21, 12they say, “the happiest people are the saddest.” i‘m not happy. i‘m just really really sad, but if you met me in real life or saw me with friends, i‘d be the one cracking jokes, shouting, or doing weird things. anything to see a smile on their face. anything. i always questioned myself why i did so, why i chose to make a fool of myself when something inside me is killing me, each forced laugh was just another stab. another emotional stab that felt so real. another stab that brought me down to the ground. another stab. more stabs. one more stab. two more. three is not enough. make it four. no, make it a hundred.i just wonder: does someone know? does that person keep tabs on my life? hey! are you reading this? is it fun? is it fun to watch me fall apart day after day? do you like seeing me cry at the end of the day? do you like seeing me bleed?i do. i sure do.
- Jun 15, 12
life is just horrible and last week was eventful in some way. i tried to kill myself.
yes, i can say that casually.
i tried to kill myself.
because everything is just so hard, and i can't take it anymore.
or maybe i'm just bored.
and i think i've found 2 real friends offline. that's good news. i guess.
i just wonder how things will be when my body is bleeding to death.
then i'll die.
maybe i should leave a suicide note, and put my blood on it.
that would be pretty.
i wish i was more interesting so i could write more stuff, or people would read about it. but no.
i just want to kill myself.
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- Good morning po
- we'regoing to a safari tomorrow
- I'm not made for nature
- I want to go home
- Fire!!! http://t.co/H3zMgJpg0b
- @juliennepandan no haha you
- I'll be gone.
- Mag 3 LNG ko ilis ah
- I also want to sleep sleep sleep
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- im not comfyMay 16, 13 from web Reply, Retweet, Favorite
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- 35% left MERRY CHRISTMAS LANG DA AHMay 16, 13 from web Reply, Retweet, Favorite
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- I want to take off my shoes
- I'm sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy
- how to nemu talk?
- Spilled soup. I AM SORRY GALI PO! http://t.co/Hcc6miFM5e
- Whoops spilled the soup
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