something-teen yo student likes drawing and taking happy snaps.
It has been ages since I've drawn anything I consider substantial. Which is more than sloppy gift cards and random doodles. My drawing disappears every time I'm exhausted or unhappy. I've been exhausted and unhappy for months now. All my problems start off as tiny, silly pebbles of hassle then build up into a giant mountain of anxiety and crying and depression and not eating or sleeping properly then disappearing on everyone and skipping most of my classes for weeks on end. I was given Cipramil on Monday but I'm not sure I want to take it, I've been googling a lot and the side effects are scary! If I can make myself feel happier naturally by exercising and eating and keeping myself busy I'd rather do that than take meds. Only, the hard part is actually forcing myself to do all those things.
I find it interesting to save screenshots of my pictures as I go along. When I'm in a slump like I am now I can look back and be amazed at what I can do if I try and maybe it will give me a little happy push.
"Closing your eyes isn’t going to change anything. Nothing’s going to disappear just because you can’t see what’s going on. In fact, things will even be worse the next time you open your eyes. That’s the kind of world we live in. Keep your eyes wide open. Only a coward closes his eyes. Closing your eyes and plugging up your ears won’t make time stand still." - Haruki Murakami
from the window across the street
"Snow is a wonderful thing. It is clean, bright, and hopeful. I love seeing it slowly drift down from grey clouds, or descend in a flurry. When it hits the ground and begins to accumulate, I am filled with excitement. It illuminates dark nights with a soft glow, and a calm cheeriness to sad old trees and grey streets. It is a thing of beauty, and everyone deserves to see it for themselves!You have done an excellent job in illustrating everything I love about snow. This is an elegantly composed piece with heart and wonder. I love the empty street, and the light coming from the houses. It creates a cozy atmosphere. I love how the girl stands alone, emerging from her warm abode to appreciate the snow's arrival. It is all so lovely. I am moved, so moved you don't even know. This is why I love art, and my favorite piece you've ever done. You rock."
the home project
home includes
hot tea, soft skin, all things romantic. all things mundane, cosy, familiar, safe, warm, sweet.
things that i am enamoured by: fat kitties, baby bumps, growing children, pets here and gone, wedding bands and birthdays.
age, dust, white sheets, stained coffee mugs, pencils, paper, books
firsts and lasts. births. deaths. the three times women bleed during their lives. the quiet times men cry.
damp skin, clinging breaths. cold toes and morning light.
xxx
Quer um conselho? Dê valor, sim dê valor as pequenas coisas, tais como sorriso, olhar, palavras, abraços e cafunés. Dê valor a fungadas no pescoço. Dê valor a beijos, sejam eles rápidos, lentos, demorados, seja um selinho, mais dê valor. Dê valor a beijos no rosto, no pescoço e até mesmo beijos na testa. Dê valor as mãos dadas, respiração ofegante, palavras ditas e promessas cumpridas. Dê valor a sms inesperada, ligação desesperada. Dê valor aos conselhos, as atitudes, ao jeito de falar. Dê valor as segundas feiras de manhã, as sextas a noite e aos domingos a tarde. Dê valor ao que te faz bem porque o resto, é só resto.