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something-teen yo student likes drawing and taking happy snaps.
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- May 28, 13If there was one thing to happen to me as a result of moving interstate back in mid-feb, it's that i just don't really draw anymore. i'm too busy trying to make ends meet, thinking about what else to cook, assignments to be completed, errands to be run. usually it doesn't bother me but every now and then i get stung by an ache. but oh inspiration how you are lacking!this is a draft i drew for my friends birthday. im going home in a few weeks so im going to try my utmost best to finish it then. reunited with my dear tablet baby!
- Dec 29, 12Rediscovered my love for ink pens.another year has passed...This year i:- backpacked for a month in japan- broke up with a boy- cried a lot- studied a lot- lost a friend- raised my GPA- kissed lots of boys- made lots of love- was prescribed antidepressants- made a drunken phone call- rekindled a friendship- partied hard- smoked hard- drank too much coffee- grew closer with some people- got back together with a boy- fell deliriously in love- broke up with a boy- said a magic three words- finished my second year of university- nursed my wounds- cut some unhealthy ties- got thrown out of home- and went to the beach
Bye, 2012.
You were one of the hardest years of my life by far.
2013....
please be gentle.
xoxo - Dec 19, 12
- Dec 19, 12me & my boyfriendwe broke up again on mondayi told him i loved himand he said he loved me too
i can only draw when i'm full of fairytales and dreamsbut i think it would be nice to be able to draw even when i'm not happy you know?and i think that's why i haven't drawn anything ambitious since last november,because i havent been very happy
because i havent really drawni havent triedi stopped liking drawingi hated that part of me and i wanted to bury itbut i think that if i try hard nowi might be able to love it againit's really hard drawing from deep down insideto me its as difficult as saying goodbye to someone that you cherish and adore with every part of your being - Sep 17, 12
- May 26, 12
- May 12, 12
It has been ages since I've drawn anything I consider substantial. Which is more than sloppy gift cards and random doodles. My drawing disappears every time I'm exhausted or unhappy. I've been exhausted and unhappy for months now. All my problems start off as tiny, silly pebbles of hassle then build up into a giant mountain of anxiety and crying and depression and not eating or sleeping properly then disappearing on everyone and skipping most of my classes for weeks on end. I was given Cipramil on Monday but I'm not sure I want to take it, I've been googling a lot and the side effects are scary! If I can make myself feel happier naturally by exercising and eating and keeping myself busy I'd rather do that than take meds. Only, the hard part is actually forcing myself to do all those things.
I find it interesting to save screenshots of my pictures as I go along. When I'm in a slump like I am now I can look back and be amazed at what I can do if I try and maybe it will give me a little happy push.Start off with an itty bitty sketch in the corner or my sketchbook. Use the faaaaavourite pencil that has now been reduced to the size of my thumb. :'(Draw the street in photoshop.Add windows and doors that don't match in size.Fiddle with the colours and add textures to everythingAdd a big shadow. This one implies a t-section.And a big brown spot...When I put it on overlay it adds a big patch of light over the entire picture that brings it all together.And then fix little mistakes and add a funky border.I want to draw so much. But I have no ideas. I'm just not in the right mood. I wish the rain inside my brain would dry up faster. My eyeballs can't handle the tears! They go all red and shrivel up and the skin on my nose is all chafed. Half the time I can't even remember why I'm feeling so miserable. It's getting ridiculous. - May 12, 12What do you do when you know there's something hanging on someone's mind and they won't tell you? I guess the best thing you can do is give them a smile and a hug and tell them you will always be there for them when they need. probably the worst thing to do is to keep asking about it. only i can't help but worry anyway.Someone important to me has a birthday in two days. yay.any excuse to draw a topless girl and go shopping for snapbacks.last night was annual pub crawl night.i didn't take my labcoat so people drew on my skin instead.i am so hungry
- Mar 04, 12such a difficult weeki stayed up til 4 in the morning last night feeling like the worst person in the worldthis week istarted uniargued with my parentsthen i fussed and criedignored txts and callsmade someone important to me feel like they were the only one putting in the effort to talk to me firstthe only one trying to hold things together when they got messythis week i realized how difficult i've been and hownot so bad things actually are if i actually bothered to build a bridge and get over iti realized what i lost isn't what's most importantand then i felt scared that i'd messed things up so badly they couldn't be fixed.i felt so small and wished i were a better person
Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.
— Louise Erdrich - May 12, 12Another year has gone by. so crazy!this year imet a lot of new peoplecried a lotlaughed so hard it hurtlost some friends and made many morefinished my first year of universityfell in loveand out againalmost failed chemistrylearnt what was important and what wasn'tmade money then spent most of itandgot a bit better at drawing.TINSEL!!!!
- Oct 26, 11sea foam“From my position on the ground, the sky seemed the logical culmination of all existence. The same with the sea. If you look at the sea for days, the sea is all there is.”
- Haruki Murakami, Hard-Boiled Wonderland and the End of the Worldi like the sea. it makes me feel small and humble.i like the salty air in my nose, the grains of sand between my toes,skin damp with sweatsticky with sunblocktans! books! soccer! dimply butts! cute boys!i bought a new pair of swimmers this weeki cant wait to go to the beach
beachbeachbeachbeachbeachbeach!!! - May 12, 12あなたに逢いたい
あなたはきっと大丈夫"Closing your eyes isn’t going to change anything. Nothing’s going to disappear just because you can’t see what’s going on. In fact, things will even be worse the next time you open your eyes. That’s the kind of world we live in. Keep your eyes wide open. Only a coward closes his eyes. Closing your eyes and plugging up your ears won’t make time stand still." - Haruki Murakami
- Oct 26, 11
from the window across the street
daylighti received a very kind comment from a stranger two days ago."Snow is a wonderful thing. It is clean, bright, and hopeful. I love seeing it slowly drift down from grey clouds, or descend in a flurry. When it hits the ground and begins to accumulate, I am filled with excitement. It illuminates dark nights with a soft glow, and a calm cheeriness to sad old trees and grey streets. It is a thing of beauty, and everyone deserves to see it for themselves!You have done an excellent job in illustrating everything I love about snow. This is an elegantly composed piece with heart and wonder. I love the empty street, and the light coming from the houses. It creates a cozy atmosphere. I love how the girl stands alone, emerging from her warm abode to appreciate the snow's arrival. It is all so lovely. I am moved, so moved you don't even know. This is why I love art, and my favorite piece you've ever done. You rock."the best part about drawing is being told that you have moved someone. i don't get told it often but whenever i do it makes me feel lovely and warm and happy - Oct 03, 11first snow124MB, 32 layers and 4 weeks of procrastination later!! I imagine this is what snow looks like when it falls.... i really want to see snow..late nightthe weather has been really nice this past week. i put my trackies away and dug out my boxer shorts. i get hungry every night around midnight. mum says i got it from my dad. sleeping in nothing but a tshirt is so much nicer than waking up in the morning with your trackies around your knees. so uncomfortable! i love summer!
- Oct 03, 11
- Sep 23, 11“He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.” - Bob Marley
- Sep 23, 11if the world starts a fight with you, fight until the very end. when it tells you to bear the pain, clench your teeth and bear it. after the pain and hurt, after the suffering, after that, there is love.
*****a long line of heaven flows out of the rocksthe roar of the waterfall is hearty and loudi will flow the opposite way to become the milky waythe white rainbow tries to comfort the angry waterfallthe swirling water gathers in the valleythe jade broken on the stony jewels scatter into the skystranger, do not favour yuh-san the monk - Oct 03, 11today imade some progress on organizing my summer.tokyo, seoul! here i come!i am still not sure if it will happenit all comes down to how much money i manage to make (or not).i really want to go.i'm thinking about transferring out of medical science and into animation.how much do i want it? will i even get in ...will i be happy.....
- Sep 23, 11
the home project
home includes
hot tea, soft skin, all things romantic. all things mundane, cosy, familiar, safe, warm, sweet.
things that i am enamoured by: fat kitties, baby bumps, growing children, pets here and gone, wedding bands and birthdays.
age, dust, white sheets, stained coffee mugs, pencils, paper, books
firsts and lasts. births. deaths. the three times women bleed during their lives. the quiet times men cry.
damp skin, clinging breaths. cold toes and morning light.
xxxgood morning or "Afterglow and a nice poem"
And a quote that I love:
"At the end of the day, what you realise is that all that matters is the people that you love. Everything else is just stuff. And none of that stuff matters" - Richard Branson - Sep 23, 11the sun is setting.
i am a small blade of grass,
flattened as the giants trample over clovers and press me into the cool, black earth.
I haven't been sleeping well this past week
everything aches everywhere! - Sep 23, 11
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Quer um conselho? Dê valor, sim dê valor as pequenas coisas, tais como sorriso, olhar, palavras, abraços e cafunés. Dê valor a fungadas no pescoço. Dê valor a beijos, sejam eles rápidos, lentos, demorados, seja um selinho, mais dê valor. Dê valor a beijos no rosto, no pescoço e até mesmo beijos na testa. Dê valor as mãos dadas, respiração ofegante, palavras ditas e promessas cumpridas. Dê valor a sms inesperada, ligação desesperada. Dê valor aos conselhos, as atitudes, ao jeito de falar. Dê valor as segundas feiras de manhã, as sextas a noite e aos domingos a tarde. Dê valor ao que te faz bem porque o resto, é só resto.
Ei pequena, não deixa o que te faz feliz escapar. (PequenaOtimista)
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