Michele Lim
A student with big dreams who loves God (:
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I remember how i would carry the biggest smile after i came back from where we were.
But why does it makes me cry now just by thinking about it?
I guess it's because i can't afford/deserve to have it or it was just never meant to?
it has been 1 year and the memories seems to grow stronger than ever.
"They say how memories, even your precious ones, fade. But to me, the memory I value most, I don't see them ever fading."
u know that feeling of pain coming from deep within and you just can't get rid of it cause it hurt so much and when you cry, every tear drop represents that feeling?
yeah, i'm in pain.
Occasionally, i wish i could talk to you just like how we used to back then.
even if it was just a short talk on how's our day makes a difference. i've missed those moments where we would just walk in the dark and talk every week without fail.
i wish drawing back memories would turn into reality. i'd draw that moment forever...
i miss you.
happy 1 year? :'(
it burns it burns it burns.
never would i thought i could love anyone this much ever again..
u're the only one who could make me feel like, not all guys are the same.
i miss you.. :'(
hee i love the polaroid app on my computer :)
u too can download by googling polaroid 9.6 ;)
Anyways, a few things to update !
I'm going for my college CF camp tmr :)
Fired up to experience more of Jesus (:
Super blessed and happy because this is by far my very first camp that my mom actually agreed on it :)
and the fact that is in port dickson is even (:
okays. next.
can't believe may is like next week already.
this year is just crazy.
times just keeps flying by but yet nothing remarkable is happening in between.
which is just entirely sad to think about it.
Its almost been 1 year since i've realized ....
yeah. 1 year. i wonder am i gonna continue 5 years down the road like how i did before?
what drives me to continue, i'm not sure..
But i believe God has His purpose for everything..
i might be waiting for something that its just gonna teach me a lesson..
or i might be waiting for the right one.. i'm not sure.. but nothing is gonna stop me from praying.
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it breaks my heart talking to my dad this evening.
As broken as i feel, i couldn't help it but cry...
He might not be a good husband at all, but to me, he is a good father.
just by thinking about it now can make me cry... :'/
oh this feeling...
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college life is getting into me.
So often i lose myself but i thank God for bringing me back up again.
I couldn't have done this alone.
English is a really tough subject.
never really expect myself to face this problem..
exams are coming so soon... *gulp*
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so on the outside, we may dislike someone.
we might be judge or we might judge others.
just because of the outer appearance or it could be because of that ONE person's action..
a few days ago, i tweeted about a lecturer how evil he is :P
as funny as this sounds,
he is more than just a lecturer.. xD
and this just made me feel like wow.
so if you're reading this, let us not judge others just by what we see on the outside?
but its good to get to know some one.
blessed are those who love without caring how you look like.
| there is hope. |
Some call it obsessive.
but i guess that obsessiveness is dying down.
Now i just want things to be okay. i just want him to enjoy even if its without me?
I used to not mean it when i say i hope that person actually enjoy his life without me.
I never understood the reason why i would want them to be happy if its not with me kinda thing?
i don't know what i'm crapping but yeah.
I just honestly deep down from the bottom of my heart want him to be happy.
I guess some things are just not meant to be?
its almost been a year now.. clinging on to the love i once thought it was real.
But i guess its just a phase?
no it doesn't mean i'm fully letting it go.. but i guess i just want it to flow.
For i believe God has set me for the right one in the future.
maybe i just haven't met him yet?
i wish i could share a part of me with someone earthly that i can trust.
i wish there was a guy.. who would change my perspective of what men truly are.. :'/
Stare. Stare. Stare.
Insult/tease.
Want to join.
Return money.
calculative.
question pops asking which one?
so don't have to pay more.
kidding ALL the way. FOREVER. -.-"
yeah. don't think anyone would get this post.
oh WELLS.
this picture is just plain cute.
but sometimes i feel like hoping too much is just expecting too much in life as well.
and when it doesn't turn out the way we want it to be, everything just seem to die down..
So here is a decision i made today.
I quit Dance club today..
Just before i came to college, my hopes and dreams were like so BIG!
i wanted to be active in so many things.
but then i just couldn't cope up?
things just died down after awhile. its so sad honestly.
for the fact that Talent Night is only once a year?
I really wanted to perform though.
but i guess if i choose to dance, i wouldn't be able to focus much on my studies.
My english grade is just like..meh. :(
so yeah. But i guess God would want me to that too... well somehow i have a feeling la.
FOR WEEKS, i've been trying to decide whether or not to perform. :/
priorities. just gotta set it right.
well, i pray that my decision will bring its benefits.
Had a great time serving the Lord today by doing tambourines.
Blessed be Your name of Father.
but i feel so D: today. seriously. although there are some things that i should be happy about.
but i honestly feel so lost now.
i'm stressed about my work which i don't really know how to do.
i'm stressed and tired.
and i feel like giving up on dance club and not performing for talent night. D: should i?
i feel so stress i don't wanna do it suddenly?
and to be honest, i have been thinking for quite sometimes?
i feel like i'm only doing it just cause of fame but i'm not doing it exactly because God wants me to do it?
weird. i feel like i just wanna do for the sake of doing it cause yeah :(
Help me O' Father to decide? :'(
nonetheless, i had a wonderful time today. Thank You Father for the hope in life that You have given to us.
and i did something today i never thought i would? :S what am i turning into? love drives u crazy, seriously. *slapself*
I feel utterly horrible because this evening, some thing just knocked me down and i started blaming God so much. i started complaining and complaining my heart out.
But after going for a church friend production at city harvest... it reminded me of all the little things that God has done for me...
but i chose to let 1 small thing affect my relationship with Him.
honestly, so very often i tend to look at how i wish this wouldn't happen. how i wish that wouldn't happen. so very often i question my self... what is God's purpose in putting me in this situation!?
why does he let all this things happen?
i feel foolish and childish.
i'm 19 but i've been acting like a 12 year old who doesn't know how to think.
sigh.
i hate making mistakes.
but yet i feel like i constantly make mistakes in life and fail God over and over again...
but the msg just now totally refreshed my mind again and i thank God for that. i really do. Praise be to God!
today's Good Friday.
so let us all take this time to reflect on the meaning of Good Friday.
Blessed be your name O' Father in Heaven.
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You are for me - Gateway Worship
So faithful, so constant and so true
So powerful in all You do
You fill me, You see me
You know my every move
You love for me to sing to You
I know that You are for me, I know that You are for me
I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness
And I know that You have come now even if to write upon my heart
To remind me who You are
So patient, so gracious, so merciful and true
So wonderful in all You do
You fill me, You see me
You know my every move
You love for me to sing to You
Lord, I know that You are for me, I know that You are for me
I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness
And I know that You have come now even if to write upon my heart
To remind me
Lord, I know that You are for me, I know that You are for me
I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness
And I know that You have come now even if to write upon my heart
To remind me who You are
To remind me
I know that You are for me, I know that You are for me
I know that You will never forsake me in my weakness
And I know that You have come now even if to write upon my heart
To remind me who You are
I follow you home, careful to walk behind you
I climb up your tree and hide in the leaves
To keep you from seeing who I am
Call me obsessed
But I need to know your name
Your age, your address
And where in the world you came from
It's silly to think that I'm on the brink
Of falling right off my rocker
Oh, I want to know
All about your mom and your favorite song
And why you hypnotize me
Well, I tell you what
I'm the definition of obsessive-compulsive crazy love
Late after dark, your light is on upstairs
And I watch you dance as if you were Fred Astaire
A little finesse, a sparkly dress
And I could be Ginger Rogers
Oh, I want to know
All the books you read and your favorite sweets
And why you hypnotize me
Well, I tell you what
I'm the definition of obsessive-compulsive crazy
La, la, la I'm like a firefly
La, la, la in the evening sky
I'm all aglow whenever I see you walking by
Oh, I want to know
If you ever plan to hold my hand
And why you hypnotize me
Well, I tell you what
I'm the definition
Oh, I want to know
If you ever plan to hold my hand
And why you hypnotize me
Well, I tell you what
I'm the definition of obsessive-compulsive crazy love
WHY IS IT SO EASY TO LOSE YOURSELF IN COLLEGE LIFE, HONESTLY!? :(
Everything is changing. friends. perspective. life.
boohoo :(
i guess i'm just not the type that can adapt to the change easily. nuuuuuu
and i think i was a little bit dumb yesterday. whyyy on earth do i do stupid things when i don't intend on doing it. :(
and i seriously lack of expressing my feelings !
its time to show michele!
and to you, please don't annoy me... i can only stand this much.
Okay i honestly am so tempted to tweeet! I think the whole fasting from twitter is a really good idea wei.
I'm so tempted to tweet just about anything and trying to refrain myself from it, is good. (Y) :) HAHA
anyways, i cannot wait for this weekend i don't know why. :)
(OH WAIT, I LOVE WEEKENDS) :P
this week is just TRUCKLOADS OF WORK AND EXAMS. :S
i'm currently brain-storming on "A family supper" short story for english handout tmr. gah.
and because i can't tweet, i'm like blogging... :X
whooooops. heh.
what i really feel like doing is just sitting down and relax in the presence of the Lord.
Next week i shall change things up a bit.
NOTE TO SELF : FINISH ALL MY WORK BEFORE SUNDAY, so at least on Sunday, i can fully spend time with God (: (reading and etc)
YES!
Hello April (:
Well it's gonna be a pretty busy month but i'm looking forward to focus on it (:
1) Good Friday
I admit, for the past 3 months, i've been losing myself. and i've been losing myself real hard.
I was finding my way to search myself?
I remembered that there was this once that i cried so hard and yet i feel like God was just so far away from me. no, i was far away from Him.
I have been running away from all things.
I finally know what the busy life could do to you. But i guess i should have done it the correct way. We all somehow will fall and feel far from God, but its how u get back up and want to be close to Him over and OVER again that matters, right? :)
and when we do something, we do it with all our hearts. And finish it!
I feel like i was so disappointed with myself but i'm not doing anything about it, which made me felt worst... :'/
i remember the friday that just passed, i was so sad cause i don't think i did really well in my exam.
But seriously, if you're relationship with Father in Heaven is far, don't forget to come back.
Never Ever.
And i'll continue to pray...
Oh and i'm fasting from twitter!
Anyways, have a good day and Good night ! God bless you and your family whoever you may be (:
Hallelujah!
OSSLT exam tmr.
sitting here nervously don't really know what to do but to surrender...
This walk O' Lord... i find it very hard. :'/
One moment we're close, one moment we're strangers.
why doesn't this happen to friendships?
and i became so dull today i sorta released out to a friend of mine cause she was literally annoying me...
I know i shouldn't..
i feel so sorry now. :'(
sigh. i feel like i'm losing control sometimes....
Teach me O' Lord.. to be faithful.
teach me to walk with You and not care about the humanly feelings that would affect my walk with You, O' Father.
Teach me..
It's funny how i'm finally seeing everything so clearly this year..
and it hurts.
1) It hurts to see how girls can be so weak in wanting to have someone beside them just so they don't spend their lives alone.. yet i'm afraid that i might fall into the category..
I have a sister who thinks she might end up alone so she's dating a guy... which i'm not sure its out of love or not...
I have a cousin who convert into a christian just because the girl friend is a pastor's daughter..
i don't know to be worried or not...
It hurts so much to hear about these things. I honestly feel sad..
and i don't know why.
I just don't understand how this world work sometimes.
and i could do is just pray... :'/
i honestly feel so sad i wish i could help my own sister...
it burns... it really does...
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I sometimes feel like i'm trying too much in being something that i know i'm not.
When i'm quiet... i don't feel like myself.
when i'm too noisy... i feel uneasy..
I honestly don't know why its hard to be the michele i used to be....
i honestly don't know why......
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Funny how i'm like starting to love tomatoes more than usual.
at the most random time, i'll feel like eating this tomatoes. <3
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March is ending soon.
having a big exam this friday. The osslt english paper from Canada.
College has really sucked all my fun in life and i honestly dislike college life.
i don't feel fun nor do i feel happy going to college.
i'm going for the sake of 'because i need to study'
Dance performance is on the 17th/18th of April.
honestly, i am nervous like crazy.
why?
Cause we haven't even finish the routine and we only have 2 more dance practices and we're gonna perform.
i haven't even conquered the dance and i'm finding it very hard to focus on remembering those steps.
Jazz. i kinda dislike the move i don't know why.
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My life feels so dry and i'm constantly feeling tired.
I spent most of my days now emo-ing in the room or busy finishing up an assignment.
Is my year just gonna pass like that?
i honestly feel sad.
I wanna appreciate things like how i used to.
i wanna love like how i used to.
but why is it so hard to express my feelings nowadays?
i feel so hard to show a part of me.
no i'm not scared to show but i find it hard and i DON'T KNOW WHY..
i miss how things used to be...
i miss 2011 like crazy. :'(
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imissyou.
Hello world. :)
Honestly i haven't been having a good year although its just march.
But yeah, I still gotta take this time to Thank God so much for everything.
If he didn't give me the strength i needed, i wouldn't go this far.
haha don't think you'll get it but yeah He knows :)
Praise God!
anyways, went cheng beng with my family today.
I drove my 2 sisters, dad and cousin all the way to semenyih nirvana (:
Praise God for a safe journey.
his voice makes me melt.
so gentle it makes me feel weak.
not in a bad way but it makes me just wanna stop everything i'm doing and just listen.
Honestly i really wanna know whats God's plan for me...
am i holding on to something that its worth it?
and i can't help it...
:'/
so yeah, i think i've grew out of the whole being crazy of you already.
I'm done. :)
Its like i'm being hit on the face yesterday and now
What i used to like doesn't seem interesting to me anymore.
but its not cause when the eyes saw how you bow before Him
But when reality snaps back in, it slipped away.
the one thing that i hope for...
One of my NS friend masuk hospital :'(
We're gonna visit her tmr.
i wanna see them so badly but so sad it has to be this way :/
But really, i miss them so much i am looking forward to see them!
Life has been not a very good one actually.
I hated my February as well.
it didn't turned out to be exactly what i thought it would be.
but college life is getting better. (:
reason why i bought this book is because
So i'm hoping that this book would help me gain more knowledge
and applying those in my life of course ;)
i need to finish this and write a report about it. boohooooooo!
2 for m49.90
Its a christian book by Gary Chapman (:
so i was searching high and low for 5 languages of love by Gary Chapman but
its always out of stock.
Even in kinokuniya and mph.
I still got my rm50 with me tho. (: planning to buy that book
cause my NS friend said its a nice book to read so, haha MUST :)
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I probably had so many horrible days and
sometimes i just fall so easily.
One biggest mistake i made being a christian was trying
to run away from God.
i run because i feel like i don't deserve His love.
I run because things aren't going well no matter how hard I pray.
I run because i feel like He's so far away..
but all in all, i was wrong of course.
whether i deserve His love or not, He died on the cross for me already and thats the fact.
Things aren't going well maybe cause He has a reason for it.
He wasn't the one running and therefore, i was the one who chose to be far away from Him..
But i'm back on my knees.
and I thank God for His love never fails.
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and i have this part of me whether u wanna call it sensitive or not,
but when u know things are not the same or
things seems a bit weird,
u just know that u're not wanted.
And very often, i wanna treat ppl the way they treat others,
but then again, what difference would i be compared to them?
And the only thing i could do is probably cry -.-"
which i really HATE IT.
and just pray and hope that things would change as time flies..
its March already.
time flies too fast even if i'm not having fun..
and they say 2012 is a hard year.
not that i'm constantly thinking that omgosh its a hard year. no.
but really, it is so hard.
the ones that i used to be super close with as friends became a stranger to me
suddenly. not literally but how i feel.
not 1 but 2.
oh wells. i just hope things get better.. :/
May March be a better month.
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