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- May 10, 12i've been home in gijón last week, but got terribly sick so i had to return earlier to germany.just by the pictures you can get the impression that there's a lot of humid air over there and rainy weather, which i love my homecity for. at least until i got sick because of it..anyway, enjoy this small update, i'll come up with new mixtapes and new photos soon.let's hope this illness leaves me soon.
- Apr 23, 12i may have shown you some sights of australia and parts of the new museum of contemporary art, but not yet how my daily life has been there. let's do a short catch-up.
to the sushi-junkies out there: believe me, you find sushi in australia like starbucks in new york at every corner of the streets. same counts for vietnamese and thai food. even if you have a sudden crave for a roll at night, you can get them at the next 7-Eleven store, who have them stored in many variations.
that coke-sign is huge, not to say immense. for sydneysiders it's the hollywood-sign of sydney. when i heard about that, i knew immediately the australians must be easy-going, nice people.
i met lots of overseas-working (working holidays is the magic key) backpackers at an Inn in brisbane, which were friends from the beginning on (and teached me to play various card games and how to roll my own cigarettes). on my last night in australia we decided to do a noche española (in english; spanish night) and made tapas and sangría (if a pack of cigarettes costs 15$AUD, you can imagine how much they charged for one bottle of vodka and the rest of the ingredients..)
to put it briefly, my daily life consisted of coffee, cigarettes, talking, walking and more coffee. - Apr 13, 12i've been in australia a bit over a week. considering that i was about 16 hours on my feet every day i probably did more than some in a month.
when it rains, it pours. that way you walk faster and you see more.
my bloody feet were well, bleeding because of all the walking and my heartbeat went faster with every step i took to get closer to just another random place i decided to go.
if my heart wouldn't belong completely to someone else already, i probably would have left it in the laid-back soul of australia. - Apr 06, 12there may be people that hate the travel itself. for others it is the highlight of travel. getting to the airport, filling in the documents, going through customs, boarding, going through customs again, getting to the city and some days after the same but the way back.
for some it might be stressful, for others relaxation. a routine that is done automatically. what about you? are stamps in your passport irrelevant or a reward, almost like a treasure of your life? where the sights and experiences are seen. when i meet new travelers or backpackers we often look at our stamps and find topics to speak about immediately. some of us may have been to places we always wanted to go, and sometimes we are the ones that have been to places they've always wanted to see.
travelers are connected by a part in our soul. - Mar 10, 12i wanted to post this a lot earlier. don't worry, i didn't forget you but i've been so busy that i didn't even made it to develop the pictures from the disposable camera. if you follow me on instagram, these pictures might look familiar to you, but you probably didn't get a feeling for how the city is. well, let's start.
1. mexican pastry is everywhere around the city and are similar to the spanish ones. you will see a lot of churros, that -sadly- taste very different to original spanish churros and usually eaten with a cup of coffee (what the hell..) than with hot chocolate like in spain (also known as the spanish breakfast)
2. near the pyramids of teotihuacan is the first spanish church built in méxico. it was already in the afternoon, and mexican weather is very cold by then. when you are used to 25 degrees above zero and all of the sudden it's just 7, you really shake because of the cold.
3. i'm not a tourist in general, nor a traveller in méxico city since i lived here, but i never went on a tourist bus in my whole life. and which city could be better than mexcity to do that? our ride took almost 4 hours and the guide was at such full volume that people on the street might think there's a protest going on. on the picture you see the angel de la independencia - the city's landmark.
4+5. another picture from the bus. the torre latinoamericana and former highest skyscraper in the city. there aren't many skyscrapers there due to earthquakes, but this one is the most famous one - even though it isn't the highest anymore. this time i've been to the viewing deck. the admission fee was ridiculously high but worth to get a view over the city. we went there at nighttime, as obviously seen.
6. the cathedral at the zócalo, the main plaza. i stayed at the best western hotel, which is situated there and oh man, i can tell you there was nothing more annoying than the chime of bells at any random time of the day and night. sometimes they woke me up at 3.18am just to give me a major headache.
7. bellas artes. bellas artes. bellas artes. in english it would mean..pretty arts. it's known as the palace of arts and culture. no, not an artmuseum. but wonderful philharmonic concerts, a great bookstore and the best coffee in the city. when i first saw the building one year ago i stood there, surprised of its beauty with gaping mouth for minutes - literally.
8+9. another palace. the postal palace. imagine you want to write some postals to friends, ask for directions to the next postoffice and enter this. you feel like in heaven.
10. there are all kinds of bars and cafés in the city. from modern, artsy, bohemian, traditional to high-end you'll find every style and taste represented. i went to this one twice, since it reminds me a lot of the bars we have in spain and looked incredibly romantic in the night. - Mar 08, 12i'm happy to know that in the last few days this project has been hyped a lot. i don't care if it was posted several times on facebook or twitter by teenage girls that think they saved the world for now. no, this project's mission was to get this hyped from the beginning. to be a topic the mass post and talk about. because only this way the government knows we care to finally move their a**. it's up to you if you donate or buy the starter kit. but imagine - wouldn't it be great to put on posters and stickers all around your city in the night? it justs for a few bucks. i would do it myself, but i have no idea where in the world i'll be in that night. yes, it's that time of the year again when lola packs her suitcase and decides to live for some weeks in another country. so, what's the plan for this spring? australia for at least two weeks, singapore for a stopover and with a little bit of luck the fiji islands for a short stay. i'm über-excited for the re-opening of the museum of contemporary art in sydney and the beaches in oceania.
- Feb 19, 12
some insights at how it looks like being on the pyramid. the way down is the worst thing you can imagine. even worse than the stairs in the tower of st. peter's basilica (that's where you get the most breath-taking view of rome. if you ever go to good old roma, don't miss that) near the pyramids were the most beautiful markets you can find (i'm the queen of bargaining, and believe me it's the number one quality you need to survive in these markets) where i found some really nice jewellery and presents.
- Feb 19, 12because my flight to london was delayed, i only had a few minutes at heathrow to change flights. in less than four minutes i bought postcards, wrote them, sent them and got to the gate for my flight to mexico city. i arrived in mexico city at sunset and spent over an hour at immigration. seriously, i never waited that much time at immigration and i'll never take a flight again that arrives in the evening. immigration is just too full at that time. the next day we went to a friend's house for a breakfast. as always, my breakfast contains a simple black coffee. that's one thing that will never change in my life for sure. today i went to see teotihuacan, the pyramids in other words. and i made it to the top! i have the worst vertigo you can imagine. even just standing on a stair makes me all nauseous, but at least i can proudly cross out another thing on my bucket list.
- Feb 01, 12i had enough of winter. enough of freezing hands after smoking for five minutes. enough of turning on the heater. enough of frost in the morning. enough of seeing the sun but not feeling the warmth. even of hot baths.
posted this picture two days ago on my instagram. no candles, no reading books, no music playing while bathing anymore.
ha! there goes the joy of hot baths in winter.
spring, come soon.
in a few moments i'll also post this month's mixtape to warm up your heart and mentally prepare for the spring. i've listened to these songs a lot recently to finally motivate to work more on my novel, ever since i got back from spain i'm suffering a serious writers' block. usually i am the too inspired person, the one with too much ideas. but now i've got nothing left besides some notes i can't use anymore. but inspiration is slowly coming back to me now. - Jan 26, 12
i've been really sick right after i got back to germany, but i used that time to re-discover new and old artists.
this is one of the playlists i created - my own cure to sadness.
i always feel like putting on sad songs, whenever i feel sad. that makes me get into an even sadder situation and then voilà i feel better afterwards.
like it would be a journey into the depth of my heart and then back into reality. of course it should be the right choice and amount of songs.
but well, for that you have my playlist now to make your choice easier. - Jan 20, 12just a small update. today i returned back to germany. it's difficult to have two homes. my heart is and always will be spanish and i have friends and loved ones at both places, which makes it even harder. but i see the good thing in everything. i've had a pretty inspirational time and really worked hard on my novel, even though i'm still trying to figure out a way to make the story even more understandable for everyone. the playlist i made for you in the last post, was a big success. believe me, i have a lot more of them for you, so better be prepared.
- Jan 19, 12
lately i've been reminded a lot to post more music to the entries and start making mixtapes again, like i did back then. so, why not, i'm a playlist-person anyway. believe me, i have playlists for everything. walking while sad, walking while happy, waking up for every single day of the week, writing sad parts, writing dramatic parts, writing fun parts (of the novel), smoking while sad, smoking while having a martini, and so on... hilarious, isn't it? i'll upload the ones i create for you on 8tracks. simply click play. that easy. i'm still in spain and will return to germany this friday. time passes when i'm home. the people. the moments. the feeling being at home.
this is from last weeks' sunday-brunch. we made the cake ourselves the night before, while i was mixing martinis for everyone (my martinis are the best and driest) - Jan 10, 12
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- Dec 31, 11
in 2011 i moved to mexico city, i moved to madrid, i spent a month in vienna, i lived with just one suitcase at friends for whatever time i wanted and then moved back to germany. and got happy.
in 2011 i recovered from opioid-addiction, alcoholism and eating disorder. and got happy.
in 2011 i escaped into art and music, talked to artists and ballerinas and expanded my camera-collection. and got happy.
in 2011 i changed haircolour around 6 times and cut my butt-long-hair myself until it only reached my shoulders. (let's pretend) and got happy.
now, you can't tell me this 2011 wasn't good. - Dec 29, 11well, i know this doesn't seem a lot like christmas but at least i can say i made that sweet raisin bread (as a breakfast for my parents) myself. i don't think christmas should be all about presents and food, that could be any other day of the year. it should be a gettogether. just that. nothing more. but still, merry christmas to every single one of you!
- Jan 03, 12i plan to do this blogwatch every now and then with my most favorites. (please don't email me to feature yours.)
even though the blog is written in german, i needed to tell you about it. jane, 17,residing in hamburg, is seriously one of the most prettiest girls on earth and surprises every time with new photographies with real beauty in them. just a gorgeous blog, i can't miss checking out every day, even when i'm traveling. - Dec 16, 11I'm sorry for what my generation has done to music.
What's happening to us nowadays is called 'marketing'. Everyone wants to be a product, something you can recognize. Lady Gaga said recently she would never let her fans see her without high heels on. Clearly, she isn't a heel-lover like Miss Beckham, but does it anyway to get her shoes printed into the next celebrity-magazine. Where's the "born this way,i am me"-reality in here? And why does she call her fans "little monsters"? If a friend would call me that i would feel offended and angry. Ok ok, she is mama monster. But i thought only self-hating, bipolar people say these ugly words to themselves. She tries too hard. Whenever you try too hard to be something, it's because deep down you aren't like that at all.
You may ask yourself how it's possible that i can avoid her and didn't listen to her since that one song with beyoncé? Well, there's a button on the radio you can press to stop that shit. And that's why i can't name you one single song that's played on repeat by most of the people - at least for another month, because then it'll become old. You could almost say vintage. - Dec 10, 11
10th december - two weeks before christmas, and i just realised how literally everywhere is chocolate and candy. If not it's because it's sold out. On my break from rehearsals today i made my way to the supermarket with friends. To shoot food. It's like back then in mexico where i shot food all the time but don't worry this won't become a food blog. What i dislike is the whole consuming thing about this. Society and advertises tell you that you need this at that time. There's no love behind it. Where's the love when unbought christmas chocolate is made into easter chocolate? Get the good old cookbook out and bake something. With the loved ones. Guaranteed fun and more "love".
- Dec 16, 11
- Nov 30, 11Busy as always, i can't even make it anymore to take/develop pictures or even write on a proper keyboard (on the iphone now,no comment on why i have one now)
Anyway, since tomorrow the big 24-days-countdown starts, it's time to share my thoughts on christmastime.
I will make it short - I hate it. But i love incence sticks and candles with cinnamon-smell. And gingerbread men. Sadly, that's all. - Nov 17, 11umm, i've been pretty busy with working on my novel and avoiding certain people. had very good days and very bad days. sounds like life. life is about problems and living is about solving problems. but somehow something is missing at the moment, i don't know what or who. and i'm scared of discovering the reason why. what or who will wait at the end of the road or maybe it won't be there anymore when i arrive?
- Oct 25, 11i'm obsessed with my friends. they are my priority number one and most important essence in my life. i always think of them before thinking of me. one year ago i lost my beloved diana to the death. that made my belief in friendship grow even wider, much much much wider. friendship can't end, if it can, that's because it never existed. about a month ago i met kim. slowly she got more and more into my life. she is the one that believes in me, when i lost all my own believes. the one that listens to my cries. we feel what the other feels. we don't ask the other if we can call her sister, we do it. no judging, no fear of rejection. the wounds of loosing a best friend can't be healed by time,but someone can come along your path and stop the bleeding. friends.
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- Mar 12, 12i finished writing and the book will be soon available as an ebook and in the iBook Store, of course i'll keep you updated on this as soon as i know more. though the book is short, i'm sure you will enjoy reading it to get a feeling for what is going on in an eating disordered mind. i had some requests to offer it as a paperback, so i did some research and yes, it's possible - and would have a cost of 5€ each copy (if you like i can even sign it). for any interest, you can always email me.
- Mar 12, 12
I'm terribly sorry that i hardly update, but you know life as it is..brings surprises and complications on a daily basis.
To make your wait for the novel more easy, i decided to write a shorter story called "roses for dinner" which will be finished within the next days and available as an ebook.
Enough for the update, i'll tell you more about the story for now. Roses for dinner is an autobiographical story on my eating disorder which will project you to into my mind at the time of the happening. I sent out the prologue to selected persons already, if you would like to read it, too, just send me a message. - Dec 29, 11sorry for not writing a lot, call it writers' block. the perfectionist for searching the depth of the soul, as i am, was re-thinking a lot, maybe too much. as many of you may know, the lion of cleopatra is inspired by my own life, the beauty of life and the powers of dreams. i'm trying to show you as good as possible the darkness that lays behind this beauty. i've been talking to some of my friends that work as indie-moviemakers, and they are excited to see my story as a movie soon. but that made me think even more.anyways, prepare for a more dramatic and also more fun times in the story. i'm sure that today in one year you'll have your own copy of the novel on your desk.
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Tweets
- Every day is a new beginning. Stay away from what might have been and look what can be.
- It's hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember.
- Sometimes you forgive people simply because you still want them in your life.
- If you work really hard and you're kind, amazing things will happen.
- Sometimes the dreams that come true are the dreams you never even knew you had.
- Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are. - Kurt Cobain
- Not to spoil the ending for you, but everything is going to be okay.
- Every second is a chance to turn your life around.
- It's not just a daydream if you decide to make it your life.
- One good cup of coffee deserves another.
- Why are you always waiting? Tomorrow isn't guaranteed.
- No one ever wanted anything more than I want you.
- Monsters don't sleep under your bed, they sleep inside your head.
- Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.
- Fall down seven times. Stand up eight.
- If you want something you've never had, then you've got to do something you've never done.
- The scariest thing about distance is that you don't know whether they'll miss you or forget you.
- When nothing goes right, Go left.
- sea of love http://t.co/ax4lwpl3
- The worst thing you can do is to not try. To be aware of what you want,but to not give in to it, to not try for it.And to wonder "if only.."
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Mixes
- 70 plays / Created Jan 30, 12we had enough of winter. our mind wants to feel like spring.
- 23 plays / Created Jan 19, 12songs that accompanied my days for a long, long time already.
- 31 plays / Created Jan 16, 12feelings and tunes that went through my eating disordered mind
- 72 plays / Created Jan 16, 12that moment, when it's dark outside, you get out your bottle of gin and your cigarettes to sink into your heartbreak.
- 65 plays / Created Jan 09, 12music to get you into the new year without losing the melancholy of the winter
- 27 plays / Created Jan 21, 10Twenty tracks including music by Al Green, Benton Falls and Better Than Ezra.
