Being able to retain your own values while intermingling with a society filled with its own justifies our identity, but it’s much more challenging to accept what you couldn’t before. Growing up in a rigid, moralistic family makes accepting peoples’ flaws as a part of who they are difficult. It’s not that I was raised in an environment where mistakes are forbidden, but that self-awareness and humility are thematic to our lifestyle. These concepts, while microscopic while I was younger, are now inevitably impossible to ignore. I’m at an impasse because I now have the knowledge that some of the closest people to me are incredibly uncomfortable to interact with.
Several high school friends came over to my house yesterday and exhibited an astounding amount of moral disappointment. I’m uncertain if I’ve just become more spartan in conducting my own decisions and morals, that they’ve grown worse after college gave them instruments of freedom, or that they’ve always been this rude and it’s only now that I’m feeling shock. If they happen to tread across this, I would like to firstly apologize for being too ashamed to be capable of discussing this personally. I am a small and unimportant person. I say this with no attachment of false modesty or self-depreciation and I do not associate “blame” with any of this. Nobody should have to shed their values to kowtow to mine. Every individual has his/her own set of values that provides their identity and governs their decisions. I am not insulting yours by saying that it made me uncomfortable. However, the fact that I felt uncomfortable is an undeniable truth, and while “submitting” to my values is too much to ask, “being considerate” of them, is not. I don’t want to associate with any of you until you’re capable of being considerate towards me and my family. It’s not an obligation, it’s a kindness.
I am small and unimportant, which is why I chose not to personally discuss this with said friends. Everyone has bigger things to worry about and I’d rather everyone focus on their goals and aspirations than be hindered by trivial inconsistencies like this. The only reason why I chose to pen this down is because bottling up a plague is unhealthy. I hope I didn’t offend anyone because I did not intend to.