I like fixing things...
A quick post about university, living with CFS, and fixing a WordPress login problem.
I’ll be honest, my university experience hasn’t been smooth. Especially not as of late, with a humongous CFS relapse that I think I might only just now be coming out of. Then again, last week I thought I’d gotten better but I was wrong. Being able to structure thoughts and write in coherent sentences is a good sign, however.
Maybe I should be making the best of every single minute of good functioning instead of writing this but dammit, I love to reflect and analyse. And I wish I had time to do it more often. I would love to try some philosophy classes.
Anyway, this will wake up my brain, right?
While it doesn’t mean I don’t want to*, I don’t often speak (much less publicly) of my condition and how it’s affecting me. I guess I’m just tough like that? xD
* I will happily spill my guts to any friend who asks me earnestly but I won’t spam!
On WordPress maintenance
While at university I’ve been involved with a number of student clubs and societies, albeit less in recent times due to the aforementioned CFS issues. Most recently, I volunteered on the student paper. I was one of the Science & Technology Editors and while I was there I brought the website back up and became the new Webmaster too.
Officially, I’ve retired from both roles but like it’s a rescued kitten [cue cute funny kitten GIFs], I still feel a degree of responsibility and protectiveness towards the website I brought back online. Thanks to automatic assaults by botnets on WordPress websites, I’ve had a number of loose ends to tie up.
I’m surprised that hack-storm still hasn’t blown over. Or at least, the web hosting company doesn’t think so because it’s still blocking access to the “wp-login.php” login page.
Now, the fix was pretty straightforward and took maybe 15 minutes to implement. The host’s advice was just to rename wp-login.php to something else and alter a line in it. However, it broke the logging-out. I fixed that with help from Notepad++ and Find in Files, updating references to wp-login.php in the other PHP files. I was in a hurry and couldn’t find a list of dependencies anywhere in the documentation so I was liberal here rather than specifically focusing on the logout problem- who knows what other functionality relies on access to wp-login.php?
Anyway, problems solved. I am glad. Hurray!
Am I setting myself up for a career in technical support? Well, sure, I could do it but it wouldn’t be my first choice.
I like fixing things but I love solving problems. Technical support might be fun at first but soon I fear it would become routine and repetitive. Then I wouldn’t be solving anything - just applying and reapplying the same fixes again and again.
Hardiness and resilience
The way I see it, there’s a spectrum of “toughness” when it comes to personal dispositions. On one end is hardiness. The ultimate hardy types are just short of bulletproof. Nothing fazes them. Any problems they encounter barely register. The problems just bounce off them.
I can do a little hardy but really I see myself as being more the other kind of tough. All things considered, I think I’m actually pretty resilient. Any damage does register but my attitude is to “walk it off”. I’m resolute about achieving my goal. I persevere and I try to keep on going no matter what. I just won’t give up.
If you’ve seen the first Terminator film then think of the scene towards the end where The Terminator just keeps on going even after all the damage it’s sustained. Even reduced to its metal endoskeleton, it just keeps advancing,
[If I could find an animated GIF of that, it would go here]
It’s actually a better analogy than I realised. Like the defeated T-800, however much I struggled, I was beaten and I wasn’t going anywhere.
I think it’s a weakness and a strength. It probably comes from the Aspie in me. Digression: even though “Neuro-Typical” and “Autistic Spectrum Disorders” are often thought of as separate, imo they are really just two ends of the same spectrum… but that’s a post for another time.