いらしゃいます

smile :)

sometimes..
sometimes your actions are done with well intentions,
and yet sometimes that is not how it was perceived,
sometimes things we do to help,
tends to make it worse,
and when that something happens to someone who fails are consoling a friend.
well that sh*t just blows.

im never sure anymore
i dont know where im headed
sometimes my heart just aches
i dont know what i want
i dont know what i need
i just want the confusion to end
the pain to stop.

finaly decided on my header. kept it simple this time. and im more than happy :)

done with the new background for the blog, and quite satisfied with it too.
but im still having problems deciding on the header. hmmm.
any thoughts/suggestions? :))

Sometimes I feel like you care so much, and others I felt like you dont...






...why do I have to do the chasing? (even if I do like you that much.)

my 2nd photoshop lesson~
thanks to this lovely tutorial, I've made a groovy poster of one of my favourite singers ; the gifted Taylor Swift.

its only been my 3rd day home and im already clueless on how to spend all these free time.

...its only right that I at least update this battered old thing in the spirit of the new year.
goodbye 2011, hello 2012 and all the wonderful things that insyaAllah you'll bring along :)
2011 has been tough and yet so much fun, a lot of memories were created, a lot of beautiful moments shared with so many new friends.
I hope 2012 will bring a lot of new beginnings, and happy endings.
HAPPY NEW YEAR folks!!! <3

lies when you're feeling guilty.
i can never look at you the same way, cant believe i actually held you dear, were you even my friend to begin with? im not so sure anymore.

would you stop liking someone just because he/she's taken?.
would you take that risk?

its been only moments since I felt like I havent been in a long time.
and I cant even have that anymore.


*yes,im not making sense,just needed to get that out of my system*

this blog is in dire need of substance to make it somewhat alive~
anyways, for now, no updates basically due to the fact that im simply uninspired to post anything , that and also the inescapapable fact that i have extremely limited internet connection in my room, or to put in a better term, my compartment.
Yes, one room, 4 compartments and only one has decent wifi.
Screw you campus connections.
As for life, its been slightly more than a month since I entered my undergraduate program as Bachelor of Applied Arts aka AAD. Its been really fun, somewhat stressful, and bursting with new experience and memories.
So far , no nights are spent sleepless, Alhamdulillah.
Although that is not entirely considered a good thing, because while I may be getting sufficient shut eye.. Im not doing as well as I hoped in my studies, I know sleep or not, I should be able to push myself much further. 20 should bring at least some significance in the terms of my discipline and priorities ; keyword 'should'
instead I find myself in the same pattern ;
Knowing that something's bad for me yet succumbing to it anyway.
I should care more. I should try harder. I should stop having Gossip Girl marathons while theres assignments to do. I should I should I should.
HAIHHH.
For now, I'll just take comfort in the fact that there are many others sharing this phase , or at least, I think there is.
till then~

 zài jiàn!!

Today's my last day at home..
resuming my role as a student starting tomorrow,
i don't know why, but everything i do, it feels empty, dull, and there's something tugging at my heart,
the little voice that's whispering ' not yet, just a little bit longer.. i don't wanna go.. '
seriously, its been over half a year spent at home, surrounded by my family each day, and to just suddenly be separated from all this, i just couldn't brace myself with reality..
however, i know there's another family, away from home, people who i rely on when i need that shoulder to lean on, to gossip, to cry with, my friends..
away from one family off to another..
I hope this will be a good start..
I'll miss everyone so much..

without even realising, Ramadhan's coming to a close, and Syawal is around the corner..
and its already been more than half a year since I've been home,
going back to my hometown in a few minutes~
still wondering how im gonna adapt to the busy campus life in just slightly more than a week from now, and how much I'll miss my family, my home..
wishing all of you lovely people Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir dan Batin :)
have a great Syawal, and drive safe!