i got my new shoes from asos and rachel and i exchanged our very belated christmas cards, the one she made me is BRILLIANT, i love it so much, (i hope she doesn’t mind it’s exploitation on the internet). the only radio stations i get in my car are 1, 2 and KISS and i can’t figure out how to change it and i’ve had ENOUGH of ed sheeran remixes (i say enough like i’ve actually endured loads of them but i turn them off 3 seconds in) so i have been putting my phone on the dash and turning it up the loudest possible until my cassette adapter comes. i only had one lesson today and have found people at school who like the office us as much as me so break time was spent saying “have you seen THIS episode???” also the best thing about school is baggin all the materials ALL THE MATERIALS

pabh were good i got very angry when the support band said “everyone mind out for the girls they want to dance too, they have soft bodies and if you push them they wont have sex with you” 

i also thing that they were egotistic dicks and they tried to shove their merch down everyones throats (not literally) if i dont want to buy one of yr same design in 8 colour tshirts or yr crewnecks or tote bags or other 5 designed tshirts i dont want to sign up to yr mailing list outside the bathroom and i DEFINITELY do not want to buy a cd at the exit of the venue.

“if i had a gun with two bullets and i was in a room with hitler, bin laden and toby i would shoot toby TWICE”

so I CAN DRIVE LIONEL NOW, burgundy corsa is gO!
this is so very exciting and scary, my biggest fear on my test was “what if i need a wee during it” and peter was very nice even when i revved loads or when i nearly hit another car coming OUT of the test centre. He made me pull up behind a parked car and made it seem like i was going to parallel park but said “drive on when it’s safe” and laughed to himself, his heavy breathing was oh so relaxing!
also sarah and i are going to see pulled apart by horses tomorrow and this morning i booked 3 tickets for “too kawaii: the power of the super cute” study day for jade, frances and I. ALSO if today couldn’t get any better Simon Armitage is doing a poetry night, what a dream! sometimes i sit in the bath and recite kid/the one about the sperm whale. 

i am now going to buy all the pulp/no doubt cassettes on ebay

you’d of thought that by working in a department store i’d become an instant fashionista but instead it has just made me angry and aware of how over expensive/badly made things are, for instance i found a £120 dress and it’s seams didn’t even meet, i hardly ever buy clothes that are new or over £5 so this all seems very ridiculous, and on the system i looked at where they are made and i’m 90% it’s sweatshop conditions!!!

anyway harry and i did loads of cute couple things yesterday such as watching whitney houstans funeral and making paper mache masks, i kept making him do extra layers and making the paper smooth whilst splashing floury-watery-glue at him

we were talking today about feeling small, doing the right thing and fighting back. my friend witnessed a couple in public where the man grabbed the woman by the neck of her clothing and pulled her towards him before shouting obscenities at her and hitting her. everyone watched, my friend was too scared to do anything, what if he attacked her? everyone stared and no one said a word, not a single person on the late train home. i found this disgusting, but then questioned my own actions if i was her, would i of said anything in fear? from a young age we are taught to speak up about bullies, that they can be overcome by talking to a teacher and the bully would be spoken to, people seem to think that because it does not involve them that they shouldn’t help. 

i have been thinking about producing a zine for international womens day on the 8th march for a while and shayane’s post about it just jogged my memory!! i’ll probably post more about it tomorrow but if anyone is interested in submitting please get in touch! 

i am exhausted (again) and i haven’t even done anything, billy has been under the weather for the last couple of days with a watery eye and shes been sleeping ON me at night too which is beginning to hurt… mum and i have been hanging out quite a bit over the last couple of days, we went for a drive to feed the ducks but the road was blocked so it took twice as long, i drove back to these houses (they people who lived in them were peering out at me) because i thought the colours were tooo nice to miss.

harrys comin over tomos, i missed seeing metronomy tonight because i did not want to pay extreme amounts for a ticket just because two door cinema club were playin, we are seeing pulled apart by horses next week can’t wait to mosh (stand at the back) also my new shoes are too big and have to be sent back to asos :(

ok let me redirect you to billys blog

valentines billy xxxxx

how is it gone 7pm, i swear i only got up a little while ago, only now remembering how much of my day has been spent painting a dumb response in acrylics, uh uh uh
i am sewing felt hearts on my tights to wear tomorrow, it’s only just occured to me how much stuff you can make from felt/by felting. I have looked at clothes diy blogs and they felt different things into clothes and use fabric paint on tights which has inspired me to do so also. as a new project to do i am going to try and remake tavi’s pom pom jumper as it’s amazing, well, pretty much everything about her is but that’s not the point!

 harry and i are going to cambridge for the day to see the graphite exhibition and to wander around for a bit in the cold. i am mostly excited about going to fopp and spending lots of money (probably) i really want to treat myself to new vinyls, the twin peaks gold box set (only £18!) and some new art books and films, everything is dead cheap and i can’t wait!!

after looking at the pictures from fashion week i saw someone wearing an outfit similar to the flowery dress/shirt combo, perhaps this would be better with a striped top? mum said to me yesterday “i do worry about what you wear sometimes but then i think, she must be happy”

fings we did today

i was going to do a totally edgy topless pic but then my neighbour came with his dog and said “i thought i recognised you ruby.. by your hair of course” so we walked back and then i saw my old teacher, good job i didnt, eh

i bought this cute dress yesterday but have decided to take it back because jersey material is HORRID, i mean it is totally cute which pains me but jersey stretches no end, goodbye :(
this is half a kahlo that i have done from needle felting, it’s actually much better looking in real life. i’m thinking about dressing up as frida for an art thing, i was going to leave this to a fancy dress party but that could be AGES yet and i can’t wait that long, maybe my party theme for my 18th will be “famous artists” because none of my pals have seen twin peaks and the twins will probably come with mountains of their heads, (uh).

also i have kinda decided that i would like to be a real life pop star!! i have already thought of a couple of song names; “its ok to be sad” and “wasssp up” when i say this aloud it is boarderline joke but in my head i am deadly serious…

i have decided to start drawing up new designs for tote bags, i understand that i haven’t set up my bigcartel for the last bundle but it is essential use the topshop logo font for the new idea„,. speaking of topshop it’s going to the dogs (i’m sure you all knew this already) but now they are mass-marketting for the scenekids of 2008.

for instance 1 2 (they have taken the OMG bracelets off the website)

blood orange was playing in h&m kids, frances and i treated ourselves to hot chocolates 

billy babes

today has been a disaster, this week has been rubbish 

i did not pass my driving test and i could tell that the examiner felt really bad about failing me he was like “ruby, i’m really sorry but it isn’t the outcome you wanted you haven’t passed this time” and i was like oh, but, i mean he had to be pretty nice i got flustered before and almost forgot i could read let alone a number plate, we spoke about leeds and films i thought i had it in the bag!!! i have rebooked already and  mum got me cherry drops (which i have dropped on the floor) and a big hug from dad. we have been dancing around the kitchen to the pixies while i wait for my pepper and sweet potato bake things to make and the cauliflower stuff, veggie food is so good!!!

i didn’t go to school and decided to wallow in self pity, harry texted me saying not to worry and that he had good news, it turns out he  bought us tickets to see GIRLS for valentines day (or something) which is AMAZING i hope a home made card and a trip to fopp will compensate, well anyways GIRLS CHRISTOPHER OWENS AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i think i’m going to explode.
i also compiled a list of men i fancy after spending an evening print screening pictures of stephen malkmus smiling; 
 

i also explained to someone at school yesterday that jarvis cocker is the “right side of 50” and they just looked at me in astonishment 

the snow has been both good and bad, i haven’t been able to see harry this weekend because of him not being able to get home which has made me really sad. However work closed an hour early which never happens EVER, besides the city was so quiet and a man had a total verbal at all the managers because “it’s totally out of order to close early”. but alas apart from all of that i have had a nice weekend, mum and i went to a jumble sale at the arts centre and i bought lace doillies, a wooden game for psychology and a new summery top. then we went to the sainsbury centre as the two new exhibitions had opened there was a huge hello kitty and a life sized pikachu and the photography by avi gupta was equally amazing!

i stitched into the dollies and am now trying to finish the larger stitch of a picture of julia, cant wait to finally begin my new project! i just want the snow to clear by tuesday pLEASE

i picked up my film today from the chemist and only got negatives which was better price wise but a bit of a bummer because i the £700 scanner at school only managed to scan 12 in TWO HOURS but yeah, i bought a film which was already half finished for 20p and over 15 shots were just of different gravestones (??) the other pictures were hardly interesting abd most were blank sigh.

sue ryder opened near school and there was a massive queue upon the opening. i spoke to the manager when i went in and she was saying how lots of people had rung up about a BENCH bag and women were fighting over it in the shop. Apparently there was also an incident involving a two ladies who wanted the same tshirt, one was trying to hit it out of the others hands.

i’m going to sarahs tonighT, we are going to drink cocktails and do art work because deadlines are crazy and i also need to use the sewing machine (thanks sarah) 

yesterday was real fun, mum made me drive badly around all the little back roads of norwich so i could get to “BUMS” the appropriately named life drawing class. I met sarah, callum n liam and we spent two hours drawing and using inks (callum spilt them) and charcol, my outcomes were slightly horrific, mistaking some drawings for plastic wrapped supermarket chickens. mum keeps asking whether the guy wore pants and how i drew his “what not”. i had a driving lesson and stalled a million times reversing around a corner on a HILL and i got to my art course early so hung out with the lady who ran it and she is honestly THE coolest. She gives off total hippy vibes and she had 6 sketchbooks on her “this one is my notes one, the book i’m writing, my everyday jotter, my sketchbook, my smaller quick sketchbook, my second book i’m writing one….” and hopefully in easter and summer i’ll be an art volunteer for events with young children and special needs children which is really great, the idea of becoming an art ‘enthusiast’ (not teacher duh) part time and a freelancer sounds exactly what i’d like to do, i like free time too much!!!

i think i might photograph some of the things i have done as hand in is friday and i have so MucH TO DOooooo 

blood red shoes tickets arrived and so did my signed jofo vinyl from ebay

also look how cute this cat is 

i’ve just got back from chinese new year at my work pals house, she’s from hong kong and is definitely like my big sister who always calls me cute and cheeky and she doesn’t mind when i ask questions like “so do you think in english or chinese?”. we had  traditional chinese food and lots of fizzy drink (pauline got drunk again and told us about her ex husbands in too much detail) and we all looked up our chinese animal signs and what they meant, definitely have a look if you don’t know as loads of ours were TOO ACCURATE. By that i mean the fact that i am intelligent and SEXY (duh), this months playlist at work is actually not too bad i mean i was sizing all the sale to “what you waiting for” - gwen stefani = and no customers approached me for a good two hours and i accidently left the secrurity tags on 4 items, nearly gave a woman a £70 bag for nothing and a woman tried to barter the price of a dress down “i’ll buy it if you give it to me for £40”, we aren’t a market store!! also has anyone seen the new paperchase range because someone said to me today “all you talk about is paperchase and ebay” and thought about crying but remembered the new range with cute birds on.

i bought these!!!! cutest ever

blood red shoes and twin peaks this is almost as good as david lynch and william eggleston, maybe i will focus my unit two photography on recreating twin peaks scenes instead of making my pals dress up like bunny boy from gummo

i got a totoro purse for christmas and i spend my frees rearranging him into various positions in my bag. i was walking out of school yesterday and three girls behind me shouted “OH my GoD ShE HAS A KANKEN!!!” they were quite a bit younger but thats not the point! i blushed like crazy and turned to my friend saying “i told you i was cool!”

it’s very exciting that sarah is getting uni applications so much so that i’m inviting myself along to all the interviews, does anyone know what falmouth is like? i still have quite a bit of time before i NEED to start applying, mum has got a book called “so your child is going to uni a guide for parents”, it’s very scary because i feel like a child still and way not dependent enough to feed myself. (rebecs and florence can i sleepover at yrs one day if i get in somewhere in london??) it is also becoming such a good year for gigs, tomorrow night harry and i are going to veronica falls which is going to be followed by kabeedies, allo darlin, summer camp, xiu xiu, pulled apart by horses, blood red shoes and los campesinos!

my mother asked me to explain to her what circumcision is and it was honestly the most awkward thing especially when i was like, well you know what, it looks like…

blood orange (dev) produces the coolest grooves, i definitely DO NOt send off cool vibes especially when i’m dancing around my room to this, but whatever!! (no one is going to stop me)
maybe one day when i am not as lazy i will have my own record label “mystic PIZZA” and i will be one of those ‘ironically’ uncool people!

blood red shoes are playing norwich and all i’ve done today is watch “20 funniest videos under 20 seconds” and concluded this video is definitely THE funniest. i wandered around town all afternoon with pals, finding old porn mags in bins and talking to owners of dusty camera shops. keiran bought a destiny’s child album in Poundland, what!

some art i’ve been doing:

first blog in 5 dayS! 

this is me pretending to be the girl from moonrise kingdom feat. billy!!!

i have been very busy doing nothing lately apologies!!
sarah and i were being super sassy chicks last night her dad called us “two peas in a pod” as we squashed into her single bed with the laptop on our lap, i then ended up on my floor bed with sarah showing me pictures of calum gunn on various things whilst we discussed kissin boys and boning to “totally bone” by dkroyd, i felt like i was at a 13 year old sleepover party it was the BEST!!! this morning i was forced to crawl out of bed and turn my alarm off whilst sarah watched los campesinos on letterman, then i got to hang out with sarahs parents this morning we cruised listening to placebo in the car headbangin and i even got to text sarah’s dad! Harry and i got falafel and found tons of sweet things, i bought some blank postcards from excotic places so i can send people things like “the weathers great, wish you were here!!!” and pretend that i am actually away and not sitting at home, i also bought grand TheFt auTO vice city which doesn’t work :( and starter for ten as well as a navy boys jumper for stitching patches onto

my dad is asleep he just farted really loudly this is the WORST