paintball pin up gal (obviously) on saturday i went paintballing for my best pals birthday n it was so cold and snowy but very good. apart from my one size fits all overalls, getting shot in the face and going up against 18 massive guys that took it way seriously it was good fun. 

my cousin gave birth to a babby yesterday called freya and she is so cute i want to give them both a massive cuddle. my dreams have been fulfilled as i am taking art club this week for a two hour weaving session

Today a girl in my class said “the latitude line up has been getting worse and worse over the years” And I replied “Perhaps your music taste is just getting worse”

“did you know you only have four weeks of yr project left?!”- this is literally the last thing i wanted to hear yesterday, cue major breakdown and two weeks of all nighters from the start- the end of half term 

i have been weaving and it’s really disheartening when you start doing things you like that you know you’ll never finish

4 minutes till the latitude line up and for another year where pavement dont play and i do an eternal sigh

in english today we had to write what we thought “love is…” and my teacher kept suggesting things like, being fearless, passionate, romantic, tender and i wrote “not being angry when i steal all the cover in my sleep and kissing me on the forehead when i’m working”

Yeah ok

i haven’t updated this in a few days so i thought i’d better inform whats been going on. 
i’ve been mainly looking at buying pugs on the internet and making lists of things i’ll never complete by the deadline. i spoke to cem about stigma and he said his uni group came up with ‘older people having sex’ as a weird stigma so i’m going to do a bit of project work on that especially as i have an article on older swingers which i can draw from. otherwise i’ve been drawing and developing the idea of how feminism has become fashionable and dictated by problematic white british women *cough* moran *cough* k. nash.

over the weekend i hung out at the pub with my pals for wills eighteenth and everyone got a bit merry watching mr t. my highlight was definitely talking to my pal rosie about cultural appropriation and rookie what we thought about it- it’s especially nice having a ‘debate’/’discussion’ with friends who know what they are talking about. 

we finished the bell jar yesterday and i feel like the stale air which contains inside it at the moment 

the situation right now

So numb but so warm

SOme THINGS

some things 

SOME THINGS 

(boring photography stuff i did today)

oo oo o eer

i met a really nice lady today who has given me lots of things to google and ceramic stuff to try out. i think this is probably the d-r-e-a-m studio with lots of space, tea and squash facilities and a place to learn how to throw pots. she’s invited me back to attend some classes which is extra nice. 
i was also productive and spent two hours making felt and an hour in the dark room today to finally start my project. now i feel 100% less stressed but still loads to do sadly. art is so expensive 

i got a parking ticket yesterday but not a council one. its one where a private company puts signs up on yr street, trains the inhabitants so that the retired people can sit and watch the cars park on their road and take a percentage of the ticket value (one big sad) especially as it’s the road leading up to a sandy beach area with loads of nice trees. AND especially because the resident waited for me to return in his high vis. 
probs not going to pay but whatevz

apologies that i print screened this and it has black bits on it
this is something i did the other day for Tilting Sky promotions! 

mexico is my boyfriends band n i was “”inspired”” by their song about an albatross so after i was asked to do the poster i couldn’t help but make the reference. facebook (shameless plug)

i am exhausted 

Theo Jansens work is the most beautiful thing i’ve seen in a very long time

on tuesday i have a date with a real life potter so hopefully someone will be able to understand the problems i’ve been having with coloured slips, oxides and englobes. school got rid of all the oxides you mix into the slip to change its colour because of health and safety rules and my new pal said “wow that sounds like health and safety gone wrong! you wont get ill unless you eat…. lots of it”. so i’m going on an hour drive to talk to someone who “understands”. i’m a bit nervous because hes a proffessional artist who makes money from what he does and i’m a girl with no clue who is looking at erotic art and books like “cult of the virgin”. 

last nights screening of pans labyrinth was O.K i was really expecting it to be more creepy and weird than i did bloody n war driven. As i’d seen loads of .gifs on tumblr and grew up with the whole fantasy world escapism thing i was really looking forward to it. it was wonderful to look at and the actors were good but otherwise meh. what a shame. the new film with steve buscemi in is the next film we get for free, there are other actors too but- steve buscemi !!
also i want to see the film stoker but it looks way to purposely stylised for my liking, people keep comparing it to twin peaks, harold n maude and the heathers which makes me uneasy.

day in the life of yrs truly 
(things i didn’t include; cheesy chips, new(ish) teal kanken, ceramic poTS)
i did a two hour felting class to make organ-like shapes n colours for a much bigger rug i’m making at the moment. it was so weird that it was slightly warmer than ever today and norwich looked especially beautiful in it’s oranges and reds. tomorrow i’m seeing pans labyrinth for the first time for free at the cinema n having a happy hour thing at pizza hut. i preordered the grayson perry book over a month ago because i wanted the new edition with the nicer cover- my obsession with everything grayson perry is probably getting a bit much. especially when I admitted it to my art teacher today.

i keep trying to preoccupy myself with adding to the list of things i want to do in summer (so far) read the feminine mystique, the second sex, the wasp factory and books off the ‘100 books to read list’, do lots of observational drawing, make pillows and badges, travel (ect) but nothing seems to be helping the fact that i am very worried and sad about university (typical me, not even there yet). i keep getting really upset which is making my parents upset too. someone take me to ikea n squish my face

on the way home in the car i was thinking about which band discography i could listen to for the rest of my life if i had to choose and i’ve come to a top 5 conclusion -pavement - sonic youth - belle n sebastian - arcade fire - beautiful south

being on the internet is exhausting because although there are so many nice things there are also so many things which i am like “i wish i could do that”

s i g h

someone went outside for two minutes which was two minutes too long

in the above image you can see the comparisons between Jean Fouquet’s Virgin and Child, 1450 to Janet Jacksons wardrobe malfunction at the 2004 Superbowl XXXVIII

i got a few books out of the libaray, this one is entitled women by design which i suppose is quite interesting (eroticised bottoms and the industrialisation of the breast) i also got ‘TAPESTRY a woven narrative’ and a book on felting which i’ll be taking notes out of this evening. 

we watched another three episodes of breaking bad, ate bbq pizza and sushi. p decided to make just dance more exciting by calling it ‘strip just dance’ however he definitely underestimated how good i am (to say the least). i told my mother in the bread aisle at tescos and everyone stared as she laughed and asked me whether his bum touched our sofas. 

i can’t stop thinking about dr marten sandals and peachy kankens. 

eat yer heart out grayson perry

(work in progress)

i think tonight i’m going to do some work and watch ghost world + art school confidential to help me with my pre-transition to art school (i wish i  had tampons in teacups and the strathmore strangler). this week i finally listened to david lynch’s audiobook ‘catching the big fish’ and i found it really interesting- especially about his creative process and how he gathered ideas for his films would definitely recommend it.

last night we finally watched beasts of the southern wild and i thought it was really beautiful, i’m not sure if it is something i’d watch again but both visually and with the overlay of spoken fragments by the main protagonist it was really breathtaking. i had a bit of a cry towards the end too. i realised that i am drawn to films that are visually interesting with a lack of storyline opposed to something with a more complex storyline (unless it’s lynch) perhaps i’m just not very good at films full STOp.

on valentines day we made a 60s style diner meal and baked muffins which went down a treat with pals. also slight over reaction happened in the pub when the playlist went- belle and sebastian, arcade fire x2. i firmed kingston so link me to all the cute room things pleasE

a good/bad day today
i think i was a little bit sad today because i got my bum squeezed by a year 8/9 in the corridor during lesson and i stopped and asked him why he felt like touching women who didn’t want to be touched? does it make you feel more of a man to make women feel gross? he made a massive thing about it not being him but, i saw him with my own eyes. then i explained to him that it was sexual harassment and that it was disgusting. by this time a girl in his year had a massive go at him and his teacher came out and said “i’ll get the the bottom of this, no pun intended” urhg. also, thanks to the person who went into my art area and stole my new sketchbook- top marks.

otherwise i get full reign of the kilm room so i can become my own potter just like grayson perry for the next how ever many weeks of this unit (see video)! i also sorted my coursework and the direction of my photography book, this evening was v nice with crash bandicoot and lots of lcd soundsystem.

oh and i got a conditional at KINGSTON for ILLUSTRATION and ANIMATION !!!!!

(i’ve been looking forever for a picture of a kinda shrine? made by two artists? im pretty sure there is a tapestry background but i could be totally wrong)

phill went to a kingston interview today and he spoke about sonic youth and someone over heard and said “ah i love sonic youth” and phill replied “Thurston Moore came to where i live last week” and the boy replied “whos Thurston Moore” o h  g o d

anyways i had an interview for kingston yesterday and the university is SO nice, i’ve rethought my choices and i think it’s ahead of westminister in my head. i also met alice for the first time after emailing her a long time which was lovely, she was so enthusiastic and reassuring which made the day so much nicer.

there were lots of friendly stray cats and i rambled about feminism for a long time

going to eat all the ice cream, make mind maps and sort out student finance