What you decide is what you become. What you decide is going to affect and change your life. What you decide will change people's behavior towards you. What you decide is going to affect others.Some support you. Some do not. Some hated it. Some liked it. Some take advantage on it. Some do not even care. Some questioned it. Some go with the flow. Some think it of as an opportunity. Some think of you as a vulnerable person. Some think you are doing a right thing. Some think you are just being ridiculous.but they r all just people. Remember its you not them. Friend, God gives you life, air to breath every morning, Sunlight to shine your day, night to chill you up, rain to cool you down. God made you because you are a great servant to Him that He knows of your capabilities. You are what you are. A great mind comes from a man who know his place, remember his Creator, loves his family, treasures his friends and love himself. What you decide is what is the best. To opine with such thoughts will only confuse you in the end. Life can be pretty hiatus. “So often we experience things in life, and yet never see the connections between them. When we are given hardship, or feel pain, we often fail to consider that the experience may be the direct cause or result of another action or experience. Sometimes we fail to recognize the direct connection between the pain in our lives and our relationship with Allah SWT” ― Yasmin Mogahed, Reclaim Your Heart. Friend, I may not be the right person to preach bout this things but i may help you on to see that it is yours to begin with. Expectations lead to second thoughts. “A man is but the product of his thoughts. What he thinks, he becomes.” ― Mahatma Gandhi. when a person let their thoughts overrule their minds that is when they become somebody. Still them but someway different. Second thoughts make a mind turned into hiatus, confusing, disturbing, tiring, distressing. But a great person like you I know can do this. What you decide is what you think is the best. You make decisions because of what? your choice? others? let them speak what they want because you are standing for you not for them. People start to speak once they know how strong and powerful you are. Come back to Him and He shall lead you. I speak as a friend. You shall find what you seek if you reclaim your mind back. yes, people opinions are matter but yours must come first. You choose it because of what? only you know... Ignore such luscious and (to real and promising) opinions. Not to say others are not good but to tell you that you can do this, that you will get through this, that no matter what happen supports will be given, that it is okay to give yourself some space that you need, Remember this “Your beliefs become your thoughts, Your thoughts become your words, Your words become your actions, Your actions become your habits, Your habits become your values, Your values become your destiny.” ― Mahatma Gandhi. A wiseman once said “Man often becomes what he believes himself to be. If I keep on saying to myself that I cannot do a certain thing, it is possible that I may end by really becoming incapable of doing it. On the contrary, if I have the belief that I can do it, I shall surely acquire the capacity to do it even if I may not have it at the beginning.” I don't know if it helps but I've been going some tough moments in my life and still am. Atleast what I can do is to do this. Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will.It's the action, not the fruit of the action, that's important. You have to do the right thing. It may not be in your power, may not be in your time, that there'll be any fruit. But that doesn't mean you stop doing the right thing. You may never know what results come from your action. But if you do nothing, there will be no result. "The inner voice is something which cannot be described in words. But sometimes we have a positive feeling that something in us prompts us to do a certain thing. The time when I learnt to recognize this voice was, I may say, the time when I started praying regularly.”-- Anonymous.
To A Good Friend and Brother.