This is a completely unedited version of last night… Copied word for word
"THIS IS ALL A TRIP
YOU ARE IN CONTROL
IT’S ALL IN YOUR MIND
I control everything haha
Humans morph they all morph
Haha I sound insane
SO HAPPY! Flowers! And sunflowers!! But everything is changing colour and nothing stays the same it is cool and it’s different it’s like everything is illuminated!!!!
Another decade getting high hahahah
The pages alternate between light grey and yellow, as if there’s a gradual snow scape forming right in front of me
Stars are great, like the band
I don’t even know which dimension is which anymore and what I would have to “turn off”. I still know laughably and with knowing that it’s all in my head. Gradual control. I’m losing gradual control is what I’m saying, and who are you?? You are not real you are just my notepad lol
I think I saw part of myself morph into a tiger, or I can feel it somehow
I know this is ridiculous but it’s too hard to fight it
Youth is great
For a moment I think I was above 3d but now I think im experiencing half 2d somehow
There is less control
The font on my wall increased FACEBOOK WALL NOT REAL WALL BECAUSE THIS WALL IS EMPTYYYY
IT’S GETTING HARDER FOR MY RATIONAL PART TO GAIN CONTROL
It’s great how my phone is so small but seems to stretch galaxies… I don’t know why but I thought I was typing on a cat, all this time and I still give a shit about punctuation? It’s weird I don’t know how to describe this. Technically I’m making my body move and my thoughts are coming out here on this notepad fine but for some reason its irrational but I don’t feel like I’m in control. Or maybe it feels like I have too many things to control. I’m not sure. But that’s what this feels like maybe.
I just want everyone to be here because I’m so happy and everyone kl needs to knowwww
Everything is a shape and everything is great and they are all floaty no they are wavy wavy wavy it now has been about 2 or 3 hours??
THIS IS JUST HAPPINESS I SONT KNOW WHY.. Colours everywhere I forget things here and there
Right now the lights are so bright and they are blinding but so beautiful… Am I going to wake up in Birmingham? My stomach clenches
It’s okay princess river, i close my own bends
MIND MIND MIND OVER MATTER
I have to tell princess river so many things.. But it’s ok even if I don’t say it cause writing is like texting totally is
My eyes have ceased to be eyes.. They are travel stores travelators what what!
The diff silence and song whoa.
Having to control myself constantly to not shout or giggle no
I’ve started to.. No wait this was going somewhere oh yes I’ve started to like see my other selfs. Alternate paths of living. That’s cool I’ve reached this sat of the trip FAR not sat.. Still unsure of my current locations. In sea?? Galaxy? MIND? Amsterdam seems out of the question
Maybe we’ve got human senses all wrong. Maybe touch should be like sparkle or glow or what it you could actually touch light rays?? What would they feel like? HEAVENLY OUT OF THIS WORKD.. Can’t comprehend till I become 1d
I move worlds and realities with every position or head movement I do. I was a cat once.. A cat living a human life. It all seemed so far away but not. I like cats.
So there’s a certain type of music that brings out all the creatures.. But yes everything is just a manifestation exactly exactly autocorrect dictionary hahaha I can’t even decide my laugh.j
Life! Remember checking out time ten AM AM AM! My
Can’t tell if really hurting or psychological…,
Started dreaming about hugging people.. Urge to hug very strong!!!
Treating song lyrics as life advice.. HAHHA OKAY SO WHAT’S NEXT….. Dumbass
Feel like I got crushed, so tired, so achy on my arm like right now.. I feel like I just in fact it really seems like I just came back from collecting water on the desert. In. That really happened.. I am projecting now, I’m just an Asian girl. These are not my memories nor Re they ever and will be wharf
Scared of whispers. Gotta be a thing
Still think I’m in Liverpool..
For some reason I think I own a boat and a boat boy called rio and he will wake me.. But my bank is da
This is the plot in my own minds fake drama and even I am getting lostxx woe wow!!
I know it’s not true but my rational side is dead
Socks matter. The small things
Can’t stop smiling jaw hurts!! Stomach too but might be me clenching again.. I can’t control my body and my mind not really my thoughts are okay but control control.. Going…..
If I’m not consciously controlling then who???!! I am a doll
We had three different degrees of high. Also dosage. Tania is high and hungry. I think Kamal found sleep.. Lucky. I feel lucid but someone is pressing my heart and my soul. Many lights. I know it’s dark because I’m in darkness but there are so many lights. And still someone controls me is it you god? Really I want to e a good Christian. I want to trust and know you please
Talking to everything now at everything inside out what what what I don’t know my thought process is slowing down its half rational then I lose it.. May be coming down but I’m still not sleepy??
Every part of my body feels independent of the other.. It’s confusing me right now that I have to pause one action to perform another Ecause I am only one person and I can’t do two things at once because I can’t exist twice in the same dimension time plane whatever l
240am.. Might be finally coming down. Muon is the best music. Grant me calm
There’s a state where I’ve started to just hallucinate things everywhere. Your eyes are like projectors lashing your life flashing everywhere and everything is bright and clear!!
I just realised I don’t have my glasses but somehow everything seems so clear.. Although my vision physically is fuzzy I feel like metaphorically and spiritually and emotionally I am so clear and that is what is affecting my sight maybe hmmmm
Also where are glasses?
I swear I’ve untangled the knot a few times the exact same way. Either I’m living a groundhog day like existence or theres something weird going on
m I like Hiro nakamura
I move though time
My arm is hurting why
So many great visual ideas.. Wish I could do them all
I too was gooey. For some reading
I keep seeing Kamal but he’s not kanal and hes moving around the room but I look behind and real Kamal is DEFINITELT ASLEEP
Things hv started merging like symmetry I love symmetry.. Synesthesia doesn’t seem to be the effect this time just delusions and insanity mostly
I actually am insane right now.. I’m acting real weird and can’t controlk my body though my thoughts still seem OKAY now I keep thinking i am walking in town.. No jh I am just lying down in bed in your hostel sarphatipatk dude c’mon
More control of thoughts now jbut might be a phase.. Just forgot my previous thought
I’ve reached the tron level.. Similar to kingdom hearts tron
Real life synesthesia everything went pink!! Song muon this is not the end.. The drumming part
Can’t imagine my face now.. I’m so happy
Almost 4am in forty minutes.. Still going strong. Even feels like a new high, might be the longest trip ever for me
Time is passing very slowly now.. I feel jittery like I have to do something or touch or reply or something and this overactiveneas is making it hard to just chill out lying here.. Cause my head is a weight
Wow I went past The nebula stage.. Somehow it feels like yrs ago
Still keep forgetting my location. I feel surprised and happy every time I remember but yet I keep forgetting WHY BRAIN WHY
My grips on reality seem better now.. Colours still messed up but I think Ice lost most of my craziness
Sober enough to laugh at myself but still laughing too much clearly. I am still not over it but the active ness in my head is toning down.. Funny I think the last time I also listened to the killers as I came down
Remembering things and details.. But I’ve come to my responsible adult persona
Keep thinking I am the centre of the universe. Everyone must do what I jwant. Someone has a bonsai somewhere weird and funny..
I know I’m coming down but I still feel it.. Almost 5hrs now
Chicken man.. Chicken as mans top half? Mr bean
Also font got thinner. Delusions still erm here obv
Constantly forgetting to breathe 8 m
I thought I was okay apparebtly not.. Now I somehow think I’m married with kids? Irinm”
End of trip 544am is the last timing I remember though it was prob after that