I'm passionate about all things tech and ever curious of the world around me. Life is so much more than we can possibly imagine...live it!
I haven't left you. I'm actually so close that I can hear your heartbeat in each breath you take.
I remember little moments as if they were breaths. Important ones that would keep me alive. My thoughts are full of "what if's" and "maybe's" but it doesn't keep the cold out. My day feels like someone paused it and I'm waiting for them to return so we can finish the scene. The only problem is that the main character is gone.
If we would only stop talking about the things of which we have no clue, we might actually learn a little about ourselves.
Sometimes I think we'd do well to remember that even baby steps are steps. If you're going slow, don't stop... just keep going! :-)
If the wind could sweep me away, I'd let it. I'd let it take me on wings of boundless wonder and I'd be filled with awe. I'd be filled with awe at a world that becomes beautiful when you trade things for love.
Sometimes the war inside me spills out onto the external canvas. It paints a picture of despair covered in the guise of smiles and laughter. If only the laughter came from joy and not from the need to cover up the ugly stain.
I haven't written much, not for lack of wanting. I find myself in a state of confusion somewhat lost among the masses. Here I am dealing with the internal things, the secrets that very few know. I'm wondering if I'm at a loss for words or if there are just too many to sort through.
I've been so obsessed with greatness that I didn't realize it was knocking on my door.
They clipped my wings
But even when I couldn't fly anymore
They kept cutting
Cutting till it was as if
I never had wings
They may try and tell me
That I never flew
But I know better
You don't just forget
The things that make you feel
Alive
These hands will only play the keys I put them to. I cannot blame anyone else for the symphony I didn't write.
It’s funny how resistant to change so many of us are. How in the world can we feel violated when something we don’t own goes through a metamorphosis? The world changes and so does everything in it. We have been given the ability to change with it and grow in knowledge and understanding. This is not a time for us to complain about all the little differences, but rather a chance to see the new possibilities that are now present.
I saw your picture the other day and I couldn’t help but wonder how you are. It felt like time stopped… right along with my heart. A few good memories trickled in and I smiled. That moment was nice, but now I have to put your picture away so I don’t cry.
No one likes to think about the fact that their going to wake up jobless tomorrow, but here I am. I was with the company for three and half years and now… I’m not. Often times when something like this happens it’s a huge downer for people. I’m extremely thankful for this opportunity… I’m not even kidding. I’ve been dealing with a large amount of stress for awhile and trying to figure out how to relieve it. It’s a known fact by those around me that my job was a huge source of this stress. They were right when they said, “we just don’t feel like it’s a good fit anymore.” I totally agree. Thanks for making that first move and getting this ball rolling.
What’s next for Lee? Well… that’s an excellent question! It’s time for a visit to North Carolina to visit some awesome friends and family and get some well overdue hugs. I’m going to spend some time in some coffee shops reading, writing, thinking, looking for awesome job opportunities, and enjoying the moment for what it really is… a chance to breathe deeply and reconnect. There are already a few side projects that I’m working on and now I can put a little bit more time into those. As you can see, I’m finally writing again and that alone makes me REALLY happy! Do you ever feel like you just can’t hear the music anymore? That’s the place I was heading and I don’t like that place at all. Once you there, in that place where “the real you” starts to fade, it’s extremely hard to get out. Well… I’m out now and it feels amazing to feel the creativity flowing again.
Life is what’s ahead of you. It’s the next breath, the next step, the next tear, and the next “I love you!” We are bound by the limits we oppose on ourselves. What’s holding you back? What keeps you from the things that inspire and encourage you? Whatever it is, maybe it’s time to rise up and tell it to move the heck out of your way! Breathe deeper, walk taller, and love stronger than you ever have before.
Man, this last month has been extremely trying. I’ve been on an emotional roller coaster ride between the things at work, the things I’m working towards, and my own heart. I’m watching those around me struggle and then struggle some more. I’ve felt like walking out a few times and throwing in the towel. I’ve kept my heart hidden and my passions caged, but that is changing. Every time I’ve been on the edge of the cliff looking down into the abyss, some little bit of hope that was tucked away somewhere that I couldn’t even see, started to step out into the light. I can sit here now and say that I know it is really only just beginning. The days ahead will be different because my heart is changing. I’m learning to see things a little differently. I’m learning to see people a little differently. I stand in awe of the fact that I can place my finger on my wrist and feel my heart pushing blood through my veins. I’m so very thankful to be alive in this moment. This is the moment that I get to tell you… I love you. Some of you I know and some I don’t, but I know I love you. I’m learning to see you as the gift you are. You bear the image of an awesome Creator. Even if you don’t accept it, you do. I’m being taught to look at you as the image bearer that you are. Do me a small favor, and just for one moment, open up your heart and see that you are loved beyond anything you could possibly imagine. YOU… ARE… LOVED!!! ~ Lee
I can’t get my mind off my heart.
This is my first time running 3 days in a row. Everything seemed to hold up well. I’m taking it slow and steady, enjoying the runs. Covering the distance. 3 miles is starting to feel routine.
Marathon Week 2, Run 3: 3.1 miles 41:03.
Awesome, dude… keep bringin’ it! :-D
I got 10 pushups. Doing this right now.
I got 15 squats! Did them already :)
love this idea.
This is awesome! :-D
The Ninja’s baby brother arrived today! Spent a whopping $35 between the 2 of them. Ninja sucked at juicing. But it def will still be used!
Nice! :-)