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nulis apa yaaa

ngikutin dari blognya Jude, http://judywilhelmina.blogspot.com/2011/04/speaking-of-ten.html
makaaaa
gue juga ikutan ngisi.
hahaha.

here it is:

Ten things about yourself:
1. I'm a super-moody person
2. Suka ceramahin orang. Hahaha (jarang sih tapi)
3. I love to eat, no doubt about that.
4. Lebih seneng masak sendiri dibanding eat at fancy-restaurant. Kinda uncomfy.
5. Kadang-kadang saya orangnya PEDE banget, kadang-kadang malah minder abis. Tergantung mood. 
6. Kalo sekalinya tidur, susah bangunnya.
7. Suka sekali coret-coret (nulis, gambar, sketch doodle-diddly-do) dimana saja, malah sering nyerempet vandalism dan rusak fasilitas umum. Eh tapi bukan vandalism kronis, ya. Vandal kecil2an :)
8. Orang-orang terdekat saya menjuluki saya 'Disaster Hand' karena almost everything I touched- I destroyed.
9. Pelupa /ceroboh
10. mmm, this is kinda private, saya orangnya tempramental (efek anak bungsu, haha).


Nine favorite songs:
1. You're Not Alone - Saosin
2. Bohemian Rhapsody - Queen
3. Under Pressure versi The Used feat MCR
4. This Is Me - Demi Lovato
5. Born This Way - Lady Gaga
6. Remembering Sunday - All Time Low
7. Everybody's changing - Keane /acoustic version
8. The Harold Song - ke$ha
9. Changing - Saosin


masih sangat banyak sih, tapi saat ini di playlist dengan most-played song yaaa itu2.




Eight things you love/like:
1. My religion.
2. My Family
3. Homemade cookings and foods.
4. The Simpsons & Family Guy & Spongebob Squarepants
5. INTERNET!
6. Typography and sketches.
7. Guitar and acoustic songs
8. Urban goodies


Seven people you're glad to have in your life:
1. My family
2. My boyfriend (prikitiww)
3. My actual-real friends
4. ...
5.
6.
7..........yeah.




Six things you dislike:
1. Bangun pagi-pagi trus buru-buru kekampus, ternyata dosen ga datang.
2. Melihat adegan yang ironis/sedih. Soalnya gue orangnya sensitif *uhui
3. PMS. Seriously, my mood is uncontrollable saat pms.
4. Ketika ada orang sotoy tentang graphic design. 
5. Kalo ada yang ngerendahin, rasanya pengen di tonjok. Haha (boleh kan?)
6. Kalo ada yang melecehkan hal-hal yang gue suka. Intinya gue ga suka yang namanya direndahkan.


Five things you wish to say to five different people right now:
1. Mama, Papa, Abang: Ayo liburan bareng di apartemen, kangen banget :(
2. Dummy: lusa cari sate padang yang ori, yuk. Love you :*
3. Nanda, Iffa, Dinda: Besok skip kelas KIEP aja ya? Asli males bangun pagi gue.
4. X: Hey, umm... *smirk*
5. Operator Pizza Hut: Tolong meat lovers personalnya 1, trus Cheesy Galore personal juga 1, dua-duanya pake stuffed crust keju, ga pake saus tomat dan tomat.




Four ways to win your heart:
1. Charming face. Quirky personality.
2. When you know how to debate me about Graphic Design
3. When you know what to discuss fairly about The Simpsons, Family Guy and Spongebob Squarepants
4. Be just the way you are, don't try too hard to be cool if you're not, don't be so hard to act like a hipster if you're just alay, etc, something like that.


Three things you'll most likely never forget:
1. My half-death accident when I was 16 yearsold. (28 Oct 2007)
2. When I saw dad so sad saw mom in hospital's bed, couldn't do nothing but pray to god (and silently weep)
3. When seeing my family tell any other relatives about how proud they are with me. That's...the most unforgettable moment. 




Two things you do everyday:
1. Siklus Makan - Nonton - Tidur
2. Cek BB dan internet.


One confession:
1. ASLI LAGI MALES KULIAH BESOK. DAN BESOK. DAN BESOK.








Damn. Absurd. :))
Jakarta, 27 April 2011
00.03 AM.


Eugenia Clara Fendri

HAAAAAAAAAH
cuma di blog ini gue bisa nulis seababil apapun.
soalnya nggak terlalu publik gitu (apasih)
haha.

I mean, not everyone knows this blog,
mostly they know my tumblr.

Pengen nulis sesuatu,
tapi males ngetiknya.
Coba ada alat yang bisa ngetik apa yang gue bilang. Tapi sayangnya nggak ada.

Intinya kali ini gue lag gak mood nulis dengan kata-kata yang rapih.
I try to appear just the way I am.
#halah

Ga penting ya.
Tapi gak apa2 deh, blog pribadi ini, siapa yang ngelarang?
kalo gak suka ya gausah baca.


zzzzz.
absurd :|
siplah, lanjut lagi ke postingan berikutnya...

Hey!

Udah lama banget ya ga nulis di blog?
terakhir gue nge-post oktober 2010,
let's count... it's been... 6 bulan ga ada ngeblog. Dan juga jurnal di deviantArt malah udah 8 bulan ga ada di update (padahal sebelumnya gw sering banget ngepost tulisan disini dan update journal di deviantArt, bisa dibilang malah sedikit blog-abuser deh haha)

entahlah. Things go on, times change people.
I'm older. I changed.
*sepik*

Umm, where to start, ya?
A lot of things happened.
2011 diawali dengan banyak kejadian ga enak.
Ya begitu.


Mendadak males aja dengan semua blog-blog yang ada, gue cuma fokus dengan twitter, tumblr dan deviantArt doang. Yang lainnya (flavors, blogger, wordpress, facebook, myspace, behance, flickr ---gw abaikan)

Emang semua hal itu ada masa-nya ya... Dulu gue cukup jumawa kalo gue aktif di social-networking and blogging,
but there was a point when I am so bored, and idea-less about everything.

Apa lagi ya...
segitu dulu. #apasih

Is it just me or some mass hiding something I shoudn't know?

Quite times didn't update my blog.
Well.

I don't even update (too much) on my web. Or deviantArt. Or Behance. Or Flickr.

I'm on a rush.

3 months ago, I talk and beg to God, "God, please give me jobs/freelancing WHILE I'm on my 3 months Campus Off."

But God knows best, in the previous 3 month I didn't do something.




---
So right now, when my third semester already started, there're 9 jobs come to me. 3 documentation (Photograph) and the others 6 are design + typography. Why thank you God even if it's kinda late to anwer the pray...But God knows best.

I don't know should I happy or thankful enough, because my classes already give me a lot of projects, lab's testing and other task/works to do to along the semester,
Meanwhile I'm dealing w/ my freelance jobs - which are kinda ... Eh, uncontrolled.


Maybe because it came all at a time.
Well.


I lost my idea in the middle of this writing.
Anyway if you kinda wondering or wanna ask something, don't bother to mail me at: eugeniaclara [at] live [dot] com

...I'll appreciated that, if you would to.
Heh heh. #random



Eugenia Clara F.



P.s: sometimes I updated my blog via my phone (like I do now), because it easier and direct to the blog, I can keep the idea before it runs out. Hehe.

oke..


ngomongin apa ya bagusnya sekarang?
Well.

Oh ya.
Sabtu besok (tanggal 18) gue balik lagi ke Jakarta.
:( :( :(
sedih.
Sedih rasanya gue mau ninggalin rumah lagi.
:(

Ya Allah.
Somehow anyhow however, saya ingin rumah dekat dengan kampus.
Bukan, bukan sekedar rumah.
Rumah dan keluarga saya ... deket dengan kampus.
Rasanya berat jadi anak kost, ya Allah :(


ah shut jadi galau.
Udah ah #random

Just a little wondering.


Do your brain really stop at every dot ---

When. You. Read. This. Things. I. Wrote. ? Or. Just. A. Little. Annoyance. Words. That. Try. To. Sound. So. Fucking. Stiff?



And what do you think when:
You Are Reading This And Feel A Little Bit Awkward Because The First Letter In Upper Case Or It Does Not Bother You At All?



Meh. I'm bored.
Eugenia Clara Fendri.

10 things (on question/pick up line) that might bug Me or even catch the interest of me Most :


1. My height. And weight.
2. My real name (somehow, "Is that your real name?" --> yes of course, bitch. I don't use fake name.)
3. University.
4. The majority.
5. My hair.
6. My interest on Typography.
7. Where do I live.
8. The Simpsons (Of course it's better than Family Guy, don't debate me with that. I love Stewie, but Homer still the best.)
9. Copycat.
10. IT Stuffs.



Signed: Eugenia Clara Fendri.

Bener-bener ga ada kerjaan.

It's so hard to move on, you know?

I'm not that kinda stone cold heart.
I don't like farewell.


Setiap on the way ke bandara, pasti senang banget karena pulang kerumah.

Dan beberapa hari sebelum balik ke Jakarta,
Sometimes in the night when everyone falls asleep, I cry.
You can say I'm a crybaby but,
Sebagai perempuan yang pergi merantau untuk menuntut ilmu di pulau seberang, meninggalkan rumah (lagi) itu bukan hal yang mudah.

Gue udah terbiasa bangun pagi ngeliat kamar sendiri, ngeliat mama, papa...

Dan kalo balik ke Jakarta, gue cuma kembali ke kamar kost gue yang sering berantakan. Sendiri. Bangun sendiri. Makan sendiri. Nonton sendiri. Serba mandiri.


Itu yang ngebuat gue sedih. Kembali ke rutinitas kampus dll. Dan entah kapan gue dapat libur panjang yg bener-bener free biar bisa pulang ke rumah. Susah ninggalin rumah. I'll be missing mom and dad a lots. Mungkin karena gue anak bungsu kali ya? Gue yang paling cengeng. Tapi gue ga cengeng-cengeng bangetlah... Kalo di kampus, ketemu temen-temen, ketemu sama si ehem-ehem, dll gue bisa mengalihkan perasaan homesick ini. Tapi kalo udah malem, waktu gue pulang ke kost... Disanalah gue jadi termenung, dan homesick kronis melanda.


Sungguh rasanya sekarang gue gak mau balik ke jakarta. Gue gak mau bulan Ramadhan ini berakhir. Karena kalo udah Lebaran, tiket pesawat menuju Jakarta menunggu gue.


Tapi Life must go on, Show must keep going on. Suka gak suka gue harus meninggalkan rumah (dan selalu nangis sebelum ke bandara, pastinya) dan balik ke kamar kost yang dingin itu.


Gue ga bisa apa-apa selain berdoa kepada Allah supaya gue dikuatkan hatinya,


...Tapi ya Allah, kalo boleh, semoga Papa dipindahkan kerjanya ke Jakarta, ya Allah. Kalo gitu kan mama dan seluruh rumah juga pindah, hehe.

Amin.

"When you do not know what you are doing and what you are doing is the best -- that is inspiration." - Robert Bresson

There's a time when my laptop, wacom, sketchbook, all the games and internet things, TV, DVD and 'going out' are getting the higher level of bored.

And also there's a certain time when I know it's not fair.
And some of the old scars soak up.

Even pushed mind to cry is the hardest thing to do.
Cause I know I've been having these 'unfair' since I born.
I didn't get kill with that, and ain't deal well either.

Just all plain.
I'm turning off my taste buds.
Mati Rasa.


ECF

I'm feeling like a white paper,
So plain.
So boring.

Everytime I do the right thing, I feel so sleepy.


That's why I'm so 'couch-potato' this month.
Do nothing useful.
Haven't create anything (in designs, esp.)



So F. Plain.

It's 2.47 AM

K, in order to get rid out of those scary movies from my brain, I'm watching some episodes of The Simpsons latest season.
And then, I found the old (actually not so old) movie file.

It was... The Proposal.

Oh my. I watched it 3 times and I still giggled and grinned. This movie never hold off the comedy side even if I wind-up the scenes for several scrolls.

I love Gammy. She's so friggin' funny!
But most of all.

...I love Ryan Reynold. Whoaa. He's so... Every good things in one pack.

Tee-hee. I don't even know why I wrote this.
Just wanna let you know,
Ryan Reynold.

Is so Hot.


Hee hee.

Alright, it's 1 AM again,
And I'm watching the Happening for twice.
I remember for the first time I watched this, 2 years ago with my brother.


Well hey, I'm watching it again now. Alone.
And smh this kinda creep me out.
I've been watching scary movies for several numbers today. Woo, I'm so scaaareed.


Anyway I post this from my phone.
I hope anyone buzz me on im, so I'm not so scrrarreeeeed anymore.

Alright,

Lot of things happen today though I'm not going anywhere,

I just want to say,
"You have to learn to control your mind. Not everyone has the same
visions with you. You can't push it. Go find another person you can
poison on."

I'm so in the roller-coaster mood today.

...Because some things are better left unsaid.
And so the reasons why 'used-to-be' best friends had to stay away.

Kinda missing them, no- not kinda, but lot of misses of them. As the time goes low, the amount of exchanging-text/email getting less and less. Until there was a point that hit us,

From "best-friend"
Into a "total stranger"

Alright, I'm talking about my bff from highschool. Like planets, we find our own path to orbit, 'the' different paths (Which in this case: we're going to different universities). Before the farewell, We promised to yeah-you-know, keep in touch and visit each other (we live in different city, even on dif.island too)

I thought I could resist the long-distance, but I was not. I admit. I admit I wasn't good enough as a friend for you guys. I might abandoned some of you (s) away, might be a little or more act like 'stuffed-out-shirt', or too busy with my new things. I know the gap between us is getting wider, and wider. I was walking too faraway and I can feel we're shattered.

Now that I'm home, to be honest, I miss you gals. Really. Really. Really miss those moments. I'm holding my old guitar and sing a song that we used to sing together (I know my guitar skill still sucks).

I open my old drawer and found our secret box. Photos of us. Tons of it.

:(


I guess it's the only memory that keeping me real. S, N, O, K, A, and F - do you know that I'm home right now?

You gals still can come to my house like we used to do.



ECF

I learn something cliché today.

I can conclude that into one long sentence,

"Nothing is Impossible, set your mindset and suggest yourself that you can - and then, you can."
- Eugenia Clara Fendri.


HAHA. I'm so randomly absurd tonight.

The most awkward + thrilling dream ever.

I dreamt of somebody who struggle to survive from 'her' fatal accident.
This dream even showed me into the tiny little details of what actually happen, and how the event almost killed her. It was a mad-man - attacked her in the public place.


She lost her boobs and got serious damaged on her eyes (because of the brute-mad-man injured her in the major body parts)
And this girl, covered her eyes with her tiny hands and knee down next to me.
...And everything was so rated 'R' - I mean, full of violations, as speed as spedlight and came before my eyes.


God, I know it was so friggin' detailed and freaking me out when I woke up. The dream was so real. I can almost feel the pain too.

I just... Well... A little wondering.
How can I dream that detailed?
I didn't even watch action movie or something like that in the past month.
and, if you wondering,
This girl is happened to be 'somebody' I know and quite close in the past.


Man. Thrilled.
Is it really her truestory? I wish I can ask.




ECF