fine, maybe i'll pretend right now, but i swear to god, i'm gonna change the world.

• ends in a few hours
• yep i have class tomorrow sucks right
• so yeah i’m just gonna look back at my short but amazing summer through these bullets
• watched the ff anime: btooom!, psycho pass, zetsuen no tempest, gundam 00
• watched the ff jdrama: bloody monday, q10, samurai high school
• watched the ff movies: the first time, a wakening of the trailblazer, silver linings playbook, nana, nana 2
• downloaded tons of other series and movies.. will probably watch ‘em when i have the time… that won’t be for a while though because of class
• read tons of fanfics and my list of ships continue to grow hehe
• during my last week of summer i was out of the house most of the time to go shopping
• so happy with the things i bought this summer
• yay new clothes, new shoes and books hahaha hashtag happy kid
• went ice skating with one of my bestfriends and her boyfie.. it was kinda fun but i probably won’t do that again hahahaha falling on your ass and have people laugh at you is just ugh
• went to the bazooka rocks launch party and i got to see a visual kei band for the first time (uchuusentai: noiz)
• so stoked about the lineup btw
• went to the album launch of before you exit gaaahh the mcdonough brothers are gorgeous
• too bad my favorite member thomas silvers wasn’t there :(
• enrollment was hell i wasted two days waiting for the crappy enrollment system to work
• the only thing i hate about my schedule is that i have a class that ends in the evening, hoping to get that changed tomorrow but there’s no guarantee but i’m going for it anyway
• sorry for my incoherence i’m trying to sum everything up and make it as short as i possibly can
• to wrap up my summer vacay i went to circuit fest and it was epic
• i’ll talk about that in another blog post so yeah 
• i
• have
• class
• tomorrow
• darn
• it
• :((((((
• i’m obviously not excited to go back to class
• ok bye 

ziddie:

Sometimes I sit down and wonder if I’m too old for Final Fantasy VII.  The fandom is slowly beginning to disappear and Cloud Strife is becoming less and less a common name. People are starting to grow out of Cloud.  I sit down and I wonder if I should leave my fascination with the relationships between Zack and Aerith and Reno and Tifa and Rude and Cloud behind.

I wonder if I should stop admiring the valiant actions of General Sephiroth or Angeal Hewley. Though fictional, their words strike home—even through Sephiroth’s madness.  Each have a brilliant and striving point of when to stay loyal and when you should break away to save yourself.

I wonder if I should stop laughing at a blonde grease monkey that got stuffed in drag and sent all through the ghettos simply to save his childhood friend who was basically being sold as a sex slave. He sacrificed his dignity and stepped in as a woman in her place to protect her.  He didn’t think twice.  When the only option to save her arose, he went.  No matter the consequence.

I wonder if I should stop listening to that gentle and playful, but serious and sacrificing SOLDIER telling me to not settle for the life I’ve been given but go and make one for myself.  He tells me things are worth fighting for. No matter what the cost, you don’t let your home or your flaws define you.  You are you and you always have the power to accomplish what you want.  You just have to embrace your dreams.

But I wonder if I should stop listening.  It’s an obsession gone too far, right?  I’ve lost real life friends and loved ones…

But then I realize that those people weren’t worth my time.  What dark hole would I be crying in if I hadn’t discovered those games?  Who would I be?  How far would I have bothered with my art?  Or my writing?  Would I even be able to sew if I had never sat down and ransacked my way through yard after yard of dark pink fabric because I had to be Aerith for Halloween that year?

Would I even be in love with the person I am right now?

My fandoms do not destroy me.

They define me.

And that makes it so I’ll never grow out of who I am.

I’m not too old for Final Fantasy VII.  I’ll never be.

L [Death Note] → request by kazekaages

even if you are far away where I can’t meet you
there’s a resilient bond between us

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Meet the Gundam Meisters

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He is your first love, I intend to be your last… however long it takes.