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Thor: DEAR ANGRY GREEN ONE, I HAVE DISCOVERED SOMETHING MOST EXCITING!
Bruce: What is it, Thor?
Thor: (whale)
Thor: IT IS A TEXTUAL MESSAGE RESEMBLING THE MIDGARDIAN ANIMAL OF A WHALE
Bruce: Thats cute
Thor: (whale)
Bruce: Okay, I get itThor:(whale)
Bruce: Do it one more time and you will be responsible for all wreckage that may occur
Thor: (baby whale)
Thor: IT IS AN INFANT
TT^TT Kkamjong, you have no idea how many times you’ve killed me
KAI. LET. ME. LOVE. YOU.
- Fandom Translation
- Fan: my creys. my feels. hold me.
- Translation: The emotional impact of this episode/line/character is almost beyond my capacity to hold in my feelings. I could really use the support of my fellow fans.
- Fan: how does your face even work you DICKFACE JUST TAKE MY OVARIES YOU ASSWIPE ugh i will never be able to reproduce
- Translation: I find this person to be very attractive and am oft left stunned by his/her seemingly flawless physical appearance.
- Fan: i cannot. i am unable to can.
- Translation: I am deeply in awe of this art/fanfiction/person/etc. It feels as though I've temporarily lost the ability to function.
- Fan: omg omG I HATE YOU FUCK YOU UGGGH GO DIE
- Translation: I love you. Every fiber of my being burns with a passion hotter than one thousand white-hot suns. I may or may not have a chewed-gum shrine of you in my closet.
…did this seriously just happen? Yes, yes it did. Sorry for further contributing to my massive Korra spam with my voice… But these parody lyrics by thecatbureau and legendofkorraholyshit’s image that inspired them were JUST TOO GOOD. Best song ever combined with my current obsession? I had to do it. No regrets. Enjoy, I guess.
Let’s get down to business to defeat Amon!
Water, Earth and Fire, but there’s still just one!
He’s the biggest douche I’ve ever met, and you can bet that by Book Two…
Amon, I’ll bend the hell out of you
Fiery as Azula and as tough as Toph,
Swift just like Katara, but as Aang, I’m off
I can’t meditate or be the leaf, but with three, it just won’t do
Somehow, I’ll bend the hell out of you!
I’m never gonna calm myself!
Gotta stay with Tenzin’s teachings -
But screw the rules! Pro-bending is my jam!
This guy’s got me scared to death -
Hope he doesn’t take my bending!
Now I really wish the Equalists would scram!
I must be as light as a flying lemur,
I must be calmer than most by far!
Must keep my temper and fear no other,
And soon I will be the next great Avatar!
Time is racing toward us, ‘til Amon comes forth!
Take to heart my training, and I’ll brave the storm!
He will never have his way with us! Benders, you know what to do,
Amon, we’ll bend the hell out of you!
I must be as light as a flying lemur,
I must be calmer than most by far!
Must keep my temper and fear no other,
And soon I will be the next great Avatar!
I must be as light as a flying lemur,
I must be calmer than most by far!
Must keep my temper and fear no other,
And soon I will be the next great Avatar!(I kinda tweaked the parody lyrics to better fit my solo recording! It’s not by much, but you should go check out the original post cause it’s hilarious. ♥)
- REBLOG IF YOU LOVE HARRY POTTER, THIS WILL BE SCREEN SHOTTED AND SENT TO J.K TO SHOW HER OUR LOVE.
1.9 million notes :|
GET THIS TO 2 MILLION!3 MILLION??!?!?!
LETS GET TO 3 MILLION!5 MILLION PEOPLE!!!! COME ON!!!!!!!
6 million come on
I normally don’t reblog these kind of things, but holy shit; this has more notes than there’s people in my country
- When Heechul met EXO, He commented about Lay being a unicorn and then asked him if He met his horse, Siwon.
“If a human touches me, I’ll disappear.”
“Come here, Hotaru. I can finally touch you.”Rule 3 of Tumblr: When you see this post, you ALWAYS reblog.
I know I reblogged this yesterday when I discovered it but guess what… it’s a Monday.
ALWAYS. He makes me laugh so hard.
I watched this yesterday and actually cried
everyone watch this
right now
oh my god
I CANT
screeching
IT’S A MONDAY. OMG I DIED.
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Mixes
- 56 plays / Created Jan 09, 12because we'll be living as hobos in London someday. :D Nine tracks including music by Mumm-Ra, One Direction and The Cure
- 21 plays / Created Jan 02, 12A "Funny how I started to like you" mix. You suddenly see this person in a different light. :"> Thirteen tracks including music by The Killers, Passion Pit and Maroon 5.
- 37 plays / Created Dec 31, 11When your subconscious mind surprises you on the last day of the year. Celebrating the New Year has never been this wacky and weird. Featuring Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Little Dragon and Adele & Skrillex
- 15 plays / Created Dec 07, 11For that megane dude that I should've sat beside with in the trike. Ten tracks including music by 3OH!3, Cobra Starship, and Ellie Goulding.
- 18 plays / Created Oct 20, 11a "chill and grab a beer" mix Twelve tracks including music by Arcade Fire, Arctic Monkeys, and Beach House.
- 32 plays / Created Oct 10, 11a "strut and swag baby" mix for the times when you feel like you own the runway. Ten tracks including music by Passion Pit, 3OH!3, and Justice.
- 84 plays / Created Oct 08, 11a "lay back and chill girl" mix Fourteen tracks including music by Bloc Party, Carbon Leaf, and The Drums.
- 3 plays / Created Oct 08, 11an angst!friendship mix Twelve tracks including music by The Generationals, Florence And The Machine, and Ladytron.
- 14 plays / Created Oct 06, 11a "bitch that's my guy you're marrying" mix contains Adele, The Hush Sound and The All-American Rejects
- 99 plays / Created May 23, 12Somebody (I used to know) Somebody (Now you're just somebody that I used to know) (I used to know) (That I used to know) (I used to know) Somebody
- 60 plays / Created May 22, 12Unity can only be manifested by the Binary. Unity itself and the idea of Unity are already two.
- 19 plays / Created May 18, 12"It sounded like the man who made 'Astral Weeks' was in terrible pain, pain most of Van Morrison's previous works had only suggested, but like the later albums by the Velvet Underground, there was a redemptive element in the blackness, ultimate compassion for the suffering of others, and a swath of pure beauty and mystical awe that cut right through the heart of the work."
- 303 plays / Created May 16, 12195th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by E-Dubble, Labrinth, and Anilyst. Trust Me.
- 560 plays / Created May 15, 12194th Mix. Twelve quirky tracks including music by Dynamite Hack, Jenny Owen Youngs, and Meg & Dia. Trust Me.
- 40 plays / Created May 15, 12Because the best music is strong and guides and cleanses and is life itself.
- 380 plays / Created May 09, 12193rd Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Fatboy Slim, Oasis, and Violent Femmes. Trust Me.
- 432 plays / Created May 06, 12192nd Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Paper Diamon, CTLGD, and Ty Cody. Trust Me.
- 538 plays / Created May 05, 12191st Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by White Sea, Feist, and Spoon Boy. Trust Me.
- 738 plays / Created Apr 29, 12190th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by The Heavy, LCD Soundsystem, and Florence & The Machine. Trust Me.
- 372 plays / Created Apr 28, 12... of the chocolate chip and banana variety.
- 5481 plays / Created Apr 26, 12189th Mix. Perfect for zoning out with your headphones in and dreaming with your eyes open. Trust Me.
- 761 plays / Created Apr 23, 12188th Mix. Eight quirky mashups of your favorite songs; starts dancey, ends chill. Trust Me.
- 818 plays / Created Apr 22, 12We can't change the World. Unless we change ourselves.
- 696 plays / Created Apr 22, 12187th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Pro Letarians, Asher Roth, and Schoolboy Q. Trust Me.
- 927 plays / Created Apr 21, 12186th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Mika, Grouplove, and Freelance Whales. Trust Me.
- 583 plays / Created Apr 20, 12185th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Treasure Fingers, OTIK, and Barbaric Merits. Trust Me.
- 290 plays / Created Apr 15, 12Deep summer is when laziness finds respectability.
- 13 plays / Created Apr 10, 12
- 14 plays / Created Apr 05, 12
- 392 plays / Created Apr 05, 12Instead of studying for finals, what about just going to the Bahamas and catching some rays? Maybe you'll flunk, but you might have flunked anyway; that's my point.
- 1311 plays / Created Apr 02, 12184th Mix. Thirteen quirky covers. One hour of music to sit in bed to and wake up. Trust Me.
- 303 plays / Created Apr 01, 12Just because you have a clean version, that don't make it clean.
- 1310 plays / Created Mar 26, 12Where's there's music, there can be love.- French Proverb
- 730 plays / Created Mar 25, 12183rd Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Django Django, LadyHawke, and Tobi Frank. Trust Me.
- 38 plays / Created Mar 24, 12This was kind of born from [a] recent email conversations about the current state of country and how so much sucks and doesn't make sense and doesn't feel very America.
- 1047 plays / Created Mar 24, 12182nd Mix. Eight quirky songs including music by The Pinups, Scissor Sisters, and The Beatles. Trust me.
- 485 plays / Created Mar 23, 12Ukuleles will get you through times with no money better than money will get you through time with no ukulele.
- 829 plays / Created Mar 22, 12181st Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Dj MashUP, Calvin Coolidge, and Azad Right. Trust Me.
- 1109 plays / Created Mar 19, 12180th Mix. 12 Tracks with the annotations as the scene descriptions. This would be the soundtrack. Trust me. "People sometimes say that the way things happen in the movies is unreal, but actually, it's the way things happen to you in life that's unreal. The Movies make emotions look strong and real, whereas when things really do happen to you, it's like you're watching television...you don't feel anything." -Andy Warhol
- 1303 plays / Created Mar 18, 12179th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by The Paper Kites, Daughter, and Matthew Luke. Trust Me.
- 178 plays / Created Mar 17, 12This was during a period when I was producing Brazil '66 records and got infected by Brazilian music.
- 192 plays / Created Mar 14, 12Spring has returned. The Earth is like a child that knows poems.
- 1068 plays / Created Mar 11, 12178th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Beck, Awolnation, and Scissor Sisters. Trust Me.
- 727 plays / Created Mar 09, 12177th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Hype Jones, Bassnectar, and Milo & Otis. Trust Me.
- 755 plays / Created Mar 02, 12176th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Jet, Tokyo Police Club, and Spoon. Trust Me.
- 697 plays / Created Mar 01, 12175th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by P-Holla, Fullhaus, and Kinetics & One Love. Trust Me.
- 728 plays / Created Mar 01, 12174th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by TheFatRat, Basic Pysics, and Mansions on the Moon. Trust Me.
- 779 plays / Created Feb 27, 12173rd Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Kill Paris, Noir, and Stratus. Trust Me.
- 787 plays / Created Feb 26, 12172nd Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Whitley, Dark Dark Dark, and Landon Pigg. Trust Me.
- 748 plays / Created Feb 23, 12171st Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by G-Eazy, Ground Up, and Mike Stud. Trust me.
- 1282 plays / Created Feb 19, 12170th Mix. Eight quirky songs including music by Zee Avi, The Blow, and Fleet Foxes. Trust Me.
- 188 plays / Created Feb 18, 12Art is either plagiarism or revolution.
- 445 plays / Created Feb 16, 12169th Mix. Eight filthy tracks including music by Owl Vision, Krewella, and Figure. Trust me.
- 760 plays / Created Feb 15, 12168th Mix. Nine quirky tracks including music by Yashar Gasanov, Datsik, and Stylust. Trust me.
- 27 plays / Created Feb 13, 12Songs not to listen to while in the crapper.
- 404 plays / Created Feb 12, 12167th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Mike Simonetti, Lockah, and Dan Aux. Trust Me.
- 423 plays / Created Feb 11, 12166th Mix. Nine quirky takes on great songs by the killers. Trust Me.
- 484 plays / Created Feb 04, 12165th Mix. Eight quirky tracks in acapella by popular artists. Nothing but sweet vocals here. Trust me.
- 390 plays / Created Feb 04, 12164th Mix. Eight quirky tracks in acapella by popular artists. Nothing but sweet vocals here. Trust me. http://8tracks.com/armon/that-voice-vol-2
- 646 plays / Created Feb 03, 12163rd Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Harlem Shakes, The Smoking Zebras, and Liz Maher. Trust Me.
- 2685 plays / Created Feb 02, 12162nd Mix. Nine quirky tracks including music by TheFatRat, Adventure Club, and Urban Noize. Trust Me.
- 178 plays / Created Feb 02, 12The foolish and wicked practice of profane cursing and swearing is a vice so mean and low that every person of sense and character detests and despises it.
- 365 plays / Created Jan 30, 12Everyone who's ever taken a shower has an idea. It's the person who gets out of the shower, dries off and does something about it who makes a difference.
- 1207 plays / Created Jan 27, 12161st Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Lana Del Rey, Regina Spektor, and Meiko. Trust Me.
- 1351 plays / Created Jan 25, 12160th Mix. Eight fuckable tracks including music by Pretty Lights, Glitch Mob, and 3LAU. Trust me.
- 1116 plays / Created Jan 24, 12159th Mix. Eight quirky tracks by Sol, Skizzy Mars, and Dylan Owen. Trust Me.
- 841 plays / Created Jan 21, 12158th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Sleigh Bells, Figure, and TheFatRat. Trust Me.
- 986 plays / Created Jan 17, 12157th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Teen Daze, Bear Hands, and TGIK. Trust Me.
- 385 plays / Created Jan 16, 12As you listen, these songs seem to grow It begins with one voice and builds with other voices. The collective crescendo is just now reaching a volume where we are all hearing and understanding.
- 148 plays / Created Jan 16, 12Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive hate out; only love can do that.
- 799 plays / Created Jan 13, 12156th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Nicholas Hooper, George Fenton, and Alexandre Desplat. Trust me.
- 1135 plays / Created Jan 12, 12155th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Amos Lee, Tune Yards, and Emmy the Great. Trust Me.
- 693 plays / Created Jan 11, 12154th Mix. Eight tracks in my itunes from artists I don't usually brag about listening to including Katy Perry, Avril Lavigne, and Jason DeRulo. Trust Me.
- 131 plays / Created Jan 11, 12"A poem is a naked person... Some people say that I am a poet."- Bob Dylan
- 745 plays / Created Jan 10, 12153rd Mix. Eight quirky remixes including music by Vitamin Beats, DatsiK, and SubEndub. Trust Me.
- 795 plays / Created Jan 09, 12152nd Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Gabriel Rios, MATNSAS, and Alpha Rev. Trust Me.
- 1920 plays / Created Jan 08, 12151st Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Kandyman, Alvin Risk, and Sex Ray Vision. Trust Me.
- 769 plays / Created Jan 07, 12150th Mix. Nine dope tracks including music by G-Eazy, MellowHype, and FowL. Trust Me.
- 736 plays / Created Jan 05, 12149th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by The Blue Van, Spoon, and Cake. Trust Me. P.s. All eight tracks are featured in showtime's season one of Shameless; excellent show, excellent soundtrack.
- 6455 plays / Created Jan 04, 12148th Mix. Nine quirky tracks including music by Wolf Gang, Modest Mouse, and Villagers. Trust me.
- 56 plays / Created Jan 03, 12Six soulful tracks including music by Gotye, Bon Iver, and Evenings.
- 1506 plays / Created Jan 02, 12147th Mix. Eight womping tracks including music by Glitchdick, Crizzly, and Manic Focus. Trust me.
- 674 plays / Created Jan 02, 12Some things are better than sex, and some are worse, but there's nothing exactly like it.
- 792 plays / Created Dec 28, 11146th Mix. Eight quirky all blink 182 tracks including covers, remixes, a capellas, and acoustics. Trust Me.
- 257 plays / Created Dec 24, 11For the best person I never get to hang out with.
- 9226 plays / Created Dec 22, 11145th Mix. Nine quirky modern takes on that classic sound by the likes of Amander Palmer and Zooey Deschanel. Trust me.
- 1395 plays / Created Dec 21, 11144th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Nirvana, Pixies, and Radiohead. Trust Me.
- 821 plays / Created Dec 20, 11143rd Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by BIM, Adele, and Lights. Trust me.
- 771 plays / Created Dec 19, 11142nd Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by G-Eazy, Radical Something, and iSH. Trust Me.
- 633 plays / Created Dec 18, 11141st Mix. Eight filthy tracks including remixed music of some of MTV's favorite ladies. Trust Me.
- 1300 plays / Created Dec 12, 11140th Mix. Twenty-nine tracks. 2 Hours. My favorite shit to trip to. Some glitch, indie, dub, instrumentals. Crazy Shit. Trust me. Enjoy.
- 606 plays / Created Dec 12, 11139th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by The Flaming Lips, Eaneikciv, and The Dresden Dolls. Trust Me.
- 5915 plays / Created Dec 10, 11138th mix. Eight filthy bangers including music by Cazzette, Skrillex, and Timeflies. Trust me.
- 712 plays / Created Dec 09, 11137th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Blink 182, Fall Out Boy, and Jet. Trust Me.
- 1988 plays / Created Dec 09, 11Ten tracks including music by Blind Pilot, Bon Iver, and Rogue Wave.
- 1324 plays / Created Dec 08, 11136th Mix. Nine quirky tracks including music by Pretty Lights, Geographer, and Clams Casino. Trust Me.
- 696 plays / Created Dec 05, 11135th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Manchester Orchestra, Bedouin Soundclash, and Dan Mangan. Trust me.
- 202 plays / Created Dec 05, 11In this world, shipmates, sin that pays its way can travel freely, and without a passport; whereas Virtue, if a pauper, is stopped at all frontiers.
- 2216 plays / Created Dec 03, 11134th Mix. Eight quirky tracks including remixes of Steve Miller Band, Red Hot Chili Peppers, and Coldplay. Trust me.
- 263 plays / Created Dec 01, 11I think that if the beast who sleeps in man could be held down by threats of any kind, whether of jail or retribution, then the highest emblem of humanity would be the lion tamer, not the prophet who sacrificed himself.
- 653 plays / Created Nov 29, 11133rd Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Mayday Parade, The Grates, and Go Radio. Trust Me.
- 1050 plays / Created Nov 27, 11132nd Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Nujabes, Felt, and OnCue. Trust Me.
- 1487 plays / Created Nov 27, 11131st Mix. Eight bomb ass tracks to color to including music by Feed Me, Phantogram, and Cherub. Trust me.
- 11143 plays / Created Feb 25, 12Songs that will keep you pumped and energized throughout your entire work-out!
- 17939 plays / Created Jan 23, 12Florence + The Machine has got to be one of my favorite artists and so I figured I had to do a vs. The World for them. Florence's vocals mixed with another artist's can only help the tracks. Enjoy. Including music by Drake, Gwen Stefani, and Avicii Round 6-http://8tracks.com/onemanwolfpack17/kid-cudi-vs-the-world
- 324 plays / Created Dec 11, 11Listening to these voices are reasons I want to submerge myself in London and never come back. Picture Source: Tumblr.
- 47 plays / Created Oct 30, 11Eight tracks including music by Ash, Blur, and LCD Soundsystem.
- 72 plays / Created Dec 27, 11Fourteen tracks including music by B I G S L E E P, Foals, and Futures. Mostly unheard of british pop punk bands with a few american ones thrown in.
- 1996 plays / Created Dec 24, 11In celebration of his new EP dropping, nine tracks of Skrillex including remixes of songs by Adele, Benny Benassi, and Ellie Goulding .
- 12174 plays / Created Dec 24, 11Rap, Dubstep, House, Pop, Indie Rock, Classic Rock, and even Classical all in one playlist. Enjoy!
- 9058 plays / Created Dec 26, 11Forever waiting for that first, wonderful day to begin. 22 tracks featuring Bright Eyes, The Shins & Beirut about the one I am patiently waiting for. (I found her!!!!! :) )
- 2893 plays / Created Dec 25, 1120 songs that were created for the perfect cry. Here you go, ladies. Take the time to listen to these songs, feel the pain, and then get up and start again. It's not over for you.
- 6503 plays / Created Sep 10, 1189th Mix. Eight party tracks including music by 5 & A Dime, Chiddy Bang, and DJ Trademark. Trust Me.
- 1015 plays / Created Sep 14, 1192nd Mix. Eight quirky tracks including music by Nevershoutnever, The Postal Service, and Blink 182. Trust Me.
- 388 plays / Created Aug 09, 11we've all been through a difficult break-up, but there's plenty of fish in the sea! I'd love some feed-back, since this is my first mix ..Eight tracks including music by Bobby McFerrin, Cee Lo Green, and Ingrid Michaelson
- 372 plays / Created Aug 31, 11Eighteen tracks including music by Bedouin Soundclash, Bon Iver, and City And Colour. This is for my best friend, Catherine. :) Happy 20 years, you ninja girl!!! I miss you so much!
- 13 plays / Created Feb 08, 11Some of my most played songs. Enjoy :) ps. i still suck at track list arrangement :))
- 144 plays / Created Jan 21, 1126 tracks including music by Yellowcard, The Maine and AC/DC. I made this for my boyfriend. See, he likes Classic Rock and I'm more into Punk Rock so I kinda mixed around a few love songs from both genres to let him know that we can be together despite our differences :)
- 1108 plays / Created Apr 26, 10The mark of a true crush... is that you fall in love first and grope for reasons afterward.
- 54 plays / Created Jan 24, 11Eight tracks including music by Lucero, City & Colour and Death Cab for Cutie.
- 494 plays / Created Jan 24, 11If only he would listen to this.Twelve tracks including music by Arctic Monkeys, Finley Quaye and Nada Surf.
- 731 plays / Created Jan 29, 11Remixes of your favorite indie tracks. Mostly 2010 tunes
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Posts
- May 17, 12
Countdown to a new life in law school. I'm scared and excited at the same time. College gave me and also snatched a few things from me during that four rollercoaster years. I can't say how I truly feel with how my life is going at the moment especially since it was only this year that I really did make up my mind on what I want to do, have and be in my future life.
Yes. Here I am, a 20 year old adult who finally realized what she should have written back when her homeroom adviser asked her what she'd like to accomplish when she's done with college.
- Mar 01, 12
I'm writing this journal while listening to this song. The only thing that comes in my mind is YOU. Of course. After all I made a mix about you with this song in it.
After you left, I knew something in me has changed. It took me this long to admit it but I'm acknowledging it right now. Something in me vanished. Although to be honest, I can't concretely put into words what that thing is. Maybe that's it. I can't properly put it - things into words. Like how I lost the ability to write.
Last year I mentioned something about writing a story about star-crossed lovers. That plot vanished when I learned about what happened to you. I can still remember the basics but the details, the little things that would fill the story - they all vanished. Now it sits at the very back of my mind like a skeletal being, haunting me with its unfinished frame.
I don't know how much the impact of your death has affected me. It's actually a numbing feeling that's why I can't assess the magnitude or maybe the graze it left in my heart. The wound has probably healed and scabbed already. After all it's been over a year since I last saw you (even if it's only been 2 months since I heard about the sad news). Still I want to pick on that scab. I want to scratch it until the wound resurfaces and that I get to FEEL once more.
I want to feel the longing I had when you left school. That distinct pang when I learned that you're in another country. That sting when I saw you again in a mall and yet it seems you don't recognize me (as if you need to) and that I didn't chase after you. All the hurt and pain when I learned about your death. I want to relish it all and maybe find comfort in the pain and trick myself that you never really left.
There wasn't an opportunity for me to say goodbye. Or maybe there was but I was a coward and didn't grab it while I can. I know I should just let you go. I must let you go. And maybe, just maybe, I'll be able to write stories again.
- Dec 24, 11
This post is long overdue. Honestly, I've been trying this past week to sit down and write but words and thoughts don't stream into my mind. It was as if something died inside of me. Yeah, I think something did.
Do you believe in superstitions? Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. I woke up on a Wednesday morning after a dream of my teeth falling out. Dreaming about teeth especially if you lose them would mean that someone close to you or of with great importance will die. I didn't bother and forgot about the dream.
Monday night, I saw a post on facebook regarding the death of two Ateneans that are in my batch. I instantly thought they were victims of the Typhoon Sendong that struck Cagayan de Oro. Initially, I thought - until I saw their names. One of them was a Patrick. Patrick. That name stabbed my gut. It just can't be. There were a lot of Patricks in our batch for sure. This one's different. It's not him.
Funny how life fucks you when you least expect it. A friend messaged me on facebook this Tuesday night telling me that the Patrick I knew died yesterday, Monday and that he was on a coma since last Wednesday. Multiple Organ Failure. No idea what happened to him and why he ended up that way. So it was really him. Forgive me for being selfish but it really was MY Michael Cera-clone.
You know how in mangas and animes, the soul of a character leaves his/her body after a horrible experience? I really felt that. Fuck. Initial thought after reading that message. I confirmed what happened when my friend called, explaining what he knew and shocking me even more that Michael Cera-clone will be cremated on Thursday already.
I can't tell you how frustrated I am that night. I'm in Bicol. Eight hours away from Manila and I have work tomorrow. A part of me wants to hop on the next bus trip and attend the wake or even the interment. Mom didn't like the idea though. I don't know. All I remember was that I cried to sleep that night and I was trying hard to keep it together while I was attending the 4:00 AM Simbang Gabi the next day. Next thing I knew, I was sitting in the bathroom, bawling my eyes out while I'm taking a shower to prepare for work.
Wednesday. That Wednesday was hell. I can't work properly. Can't even laugh or smile normally at people just becuase I feel so down. And the irony of things, we scheduled our office party that night. How on earth will I enjoy the party when my mind is on a Chapel in Manila? Weary and tired, I put on a smile and drank and drank and drank. Just so I can forget andnumb myself while enjoying the company I had for that night. It would be unfair if I show up and sulk in a corner. Still, I can't just forget about him completely. Honestly, I don't know if I can.
It's now December 24. Christmas Eve. And I see his face on a couple of profile pictures in facebook. I feel so tired and empty all over again. To be honest, I never gave up on him. I never did.
October 15, 2010 was the last time I saw him in campus. I remember how that week gave me hope since they told me he were interested in me too. November 15, 2010 was when I learned that he's not returning to school anymore. I waited and waited. Wished that I would see him again. June 11, 2011. I saw him again of all places I would expect to see him. I saw him in Megamall. Hahaha. You see, for me Megamall = Him. It's not my favorite mall just for nothing.
I knew I should've ran after him and then tell him how I feel all this time. How I love him and I miss him and punch him for going so far away. Yes I can be a violent person to people I love. I never did those things and now I will forever regret those moments of cowardice.
He was supposed to be my Blue Rose. My One Great College Love. Sadly all those things are now just in my huge regret box in my mind.
I want to visit you. I want to bring flowers and say my goodbyes. I want to tell you how I liked you for almost four years and loved you for almost two. Of how much I miss you that it hurts and I would always break down and cry whenever I see your picture.
I love you Bleeker.
Rest in Peace. - Dec 05, 11
I finally submitted my application forms to my priority schools. Now all I have to do is study my ass off, get admitted and die another lifetime for that thing called Law Degree. So help me God.
Getting tired of the drama between everyone. I think I'll just sit back and observe things from my yellow couch. Seriously. I give up.
- Nov 28, 11
I left home quite late today since I woke up later than usual. It was drizzling a bit so I was waiting for a ride outside our gate. There weren't many tricycles passing by our area so I had to wait, staring at my watch and getting more and more annoyed since I'm going to be late for work AGAIN. After a few seconds a tricycle stopped and I saw that a passenger's occupying the seat already. Said passenger was a guy. - a college student in his uniform, and he was wearing glasses.
He's cute and I stared. YES. I stared at him and then blinking I told the driver my destination. Glasses Boy got out of the trike smiling, offering me the inner seat of the side car (perhaps so that I won't get wet :'D) and I can't help but smile. A gentleman Cate! HE'S A BLOODY GENTLEMAN YO! Sadly the driver said he's going to a different direction and mentiond Glasses Boy's school. The college Glasses Boy was attending is really in an off direction from my work place. Too bad Glasses Boy. I bet I would've had the courage to talk to you given that the driver agreed.
Lunch. I went home and told my mom about that peculiar morning. She was laughing telling me that I was a cradle snatcher and Glasses Boy is probably from the neighborhood, maybe even a border living next door and she's going to disown me if I happen to marry someone from the neighborhood. Mom. WHAT. I just happen to notice that he's cute okay. And omfg I'm only 20, how can I be a cradle snatcher?!? lol.
Still I'm hoping that he'll wait for a ride in front of our house tomorrow morning. See, cause he already knows where I live. ;) :laughs:
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On the side note. I recieved a confirmation e-mail from the3six5 saying that they accepted my application form as a 2012 author! The 3six5 project is really inspiring seeing how different people live their lives in different ways 365 days a year. I'm really excited for this project since my goal for 2012 would be to get back on my writing. My date will be on June 15, 2012. :)
- Nov 26, 11
I am craving for them. Honestly. Altough I can't do anything about it since they're not selling it here in my hometown. /sadface
It really is complicated when you get drawn into other people's problems just because you are a tad bit nosy. Have to admit it was my fault there. I didn't like what I learned when I asked around. Especially if you thought... *sighs deeply*
Yo. Who are you really? You seem so far away and from what I heard, I have developed this split image of your personality. Not that I have the right to judge you or anything.
It's just deep in the corner of this girl's mind - she just wants to reach you and get to know you. Is it too late already? Should I give up?
dammit duck.
- Nov 22, 11
Nope. Just Kidding. Picture is not relevent to the post. So. Yeah.
I had to work undertime today. I'm really not feeling well and have been coughing like crazy since last night. I had to leave work at around 3:30 since boss was talking to someone and I have to wait for them to finish so that I can ask her if I can go home early. Which is kind of a good thing ( in a way. still justifying my reason to leave early XD) since I wasn't doing anything in the office and I might fall asleep if I stayed there all afternoon.
Gah. Tomorrow it's wake up early and get ready for work day again. I mean you kind of get used to it but the weather's just perfect for sleeping in. Bummer.
- Nov 20, 11
I'm currently reading this anthology inspired by the most daunting stories of star-crossed lovers in literature. This book just drew me in when I first saw it in the bookstore plus it was edited by George R. R. Martin and Gardner Dozois. Fuck allowance. I just grabbed the book and headed to the cashier.
I just want to clarify that this post is not a book review although I can say that I am raving about the beautiful and hypnotizing short stories compiled in this book. I would also go as far as to say to you, reader of this post, to get yourself a copy. The stories are a mixture of science fiction, fantasy, and romance with the right amount of angst you get from reading stories about ill-fated couples that have to struggle against magic and fate. Ugh. I want to slap myself. Okay this is not a book review because if it is, then I would really have to sit down on it and review each and every story written in this book. I want to do that really but work is calling me. /sadface
Reading this book made me want to take up that writing dream again. The stories inspired me to craft something with a theme similar to the book; the star-crossed lovers centering the story. Although, the plot I have in mind wouldn't end up in a happy note. I'm currently working on the plot holes and the different elements that I want to utilize in the story since the setting would be Manila. This is a big project for me since it would be my first official story since I've given up my writing stint and I have to admit I've become a bit rusty in some places. The story will definately be posted here in Galactic Musical Frissons but it would probably be by next year. :)
- Nov 18, 11
I saw this interesting tumblr called Metro Manila Missed Connections.
It's like post secret but localized in Metro Manila so there's a wee bit higher chance that the person you want to connect with can see it. (Pity though if the said person is not a fan of social networking sites and the like) Yeah I feel your pain. He's just like that.
Since this site isn't visited much by people I know. I think it's safe to post it here.
I raise this glass to the boy who they say looks like Nick O'Leary from Nick & Norah’s Infinite Playlist. This glass is for you for being The One Who Got Away. For inspiring that post secret and the mixes.
I see you in campus with your mac, your hipster glasses and your wavy hair. You made me want to join your org but I don't have the endurance to pass so I just resulted to bumping into you when you guys host events. You'd look at my direction and we would exchange awkward glances. It came to a point where I thought that this is all there is to it. I made that post secret to vent out my feelings because I was on the verge of giving up on you. Then something happened. You saw it. Asked around. Found out it was me. And said to your friend that you want to introduce yourself to me and get to know me. I was on Cloud 9 when I found out about that.
Stoked and Sad. You went out of the country for the break and I waited patiently for the next sem to start. I waited and waited. But you didn't come back. Disappeared. No one knows the exact details except that you're in a city-state and won't be coming back to school. When I learned about it from your friends, I made a mix. But I guess you'll never hear it.
Sometimes I wonder if I ran out of patience and made the first move. Would things be different from the way they were?
There were so many things I wanted to tell you that I'll never get around to. Even now they're still going on that I just wish I could tell you about. Like how I just love your nickname. Like how I was inspired to make mixes about you. Like how a part of me hates that city-state. Like how you would have been my Blue Rose.
And like how I wished that you’ll be the Paulie to my Juno, the Nick to my Sheeni, the Scott to my Ramona and the Nick to my Norah. I may never have the chance to tell you these things because the most important question isn't answered yet: Where in the world are you?
So cheers to the boy. Wherever you are. I hope you take care of my heart.
- Nov 14, 11
Disclaimer: This idea struck me when I was work. Hate it when that happens since I can't work on it immediately.
Closing time, open all the doors and let you out into the world
Closing time, turn all of the lights on over every boy and every girl
This song is currently my LSS. Yes I do feel musical frissons when I hear this song. Maybe it's the clarity of the melody, or the rifts in the guitars or maybe it's because of the simplicity of the lyrics. That it just somewhat tugs your heart.
Closing time, one last call for alcohol, so finish your whiskey or beer
Closing time, you don't have to go home, but you can't stay here
Perhaps it really is the lyrics of the song that made me like it so much. It speaks of real moments in life. Where you are forced to leave a place just because they're closing up. Such places like coffee shops, fast food restaurants or maybe clothing stores.
I know who I want to take me home.
There would always be something pulling you back - making you regret from leaving that place, even if there really is no particular reason to stay. You just feel that you don't want to leave. And yet - you have to.
Closing time, time for you to go out to the places you will be from
Closing time, this room won't be open till your brothers or your sisters come
Could it possibly be the comfort that cup of coffee provides you? Or maybe that crisp laundry scent of new clothes? Or, or, maybe it's because of those sundaes and fries that is just a walk away to the counter.
So gather up your jackets, move it to the exits, I hope you have found a friend.
Closing time, every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end
But we're always, always forced to leave. Walk out the doors and continue on with whatever adventure comes afterwards. I have to ask, did you ever try looking back to where you stayed for the past 2 hours just so you can pass time? Did you take a peek at the closed doors of that coffee shop?
I know who I want to take me home
I tried that once and I saw the employees packing up, arranging racks, wiping mugs, bussing their tables - I saw that time still moves even if you already left that place. It would only stop if everyone left already. That got me wondering what if we stayed after closing time.
Closing time, time for you to go out to the places you will be from
What if you stayed after the closing time because you're waiting for someone? And that person will take you home. You're not supposed to go home yet but since you're not supposed to stay in that place either. Would waiting for that someone cause you to have a different adventure for that night? Probably.
I know who I want to take me home
I want a moment like that. Staying after closing time to wait for someone since time hasn't stopped for us. So that as the night brings forth a brand new day you're still on your feet and your hand in someone else's. And you knew - yes you knew that it's a new beginning. Another chance to stay after closing time.
Closing time, every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end
So what now? Will you fall in love with that cute Barista from Starbucks or the good-looking one from Seattle's. ;)
- Nov 13, 11
That was to answer clearly the question. You can't hear sound in space due to the lack of air. Common example of this misconception is the galactic fight in Star Wars with all those "comic book-like" sound effects (insert PING! BOOM!)
As for me, asking that statement is more of expressing how I want to reverbate my own voice in this endless chaos of the universe. Even if I may not be heard, at least I made the effort to do so. This space then records the attempts to voice out against the vacuum that is out there.
That somehow, someway, these words will reach you.
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